Midnight Sun: Chapter 11 Continued

As I drove up my long, twisting driveway, my mind was suddenly bombarded with Rosalie’s rude comments pertaining to Bella’s recent knowledge of our family’s secret. “He’s such an imbecile! How could he do this to us? To himself? Why does he feel it’s necessary to risk us all just for this one meaningless girl? It’s absurd! And I won’t stand for it!” Meaningless? Bella was substantially far from meaningless. “Rose, she will keep our secret safe, I’ve seen it! You need to trust Edward! He hasn’t put any of us at risk.” Alice responded promptly, and much to my appreciation. Her thoughts rambled on, but I tuned them with thoughts of my own. Thoughts about how it’s only been 4 minutes since I had seen her last, yet I missed her as much as I would if it’d been 4 weeks. I could hardly wait for night to fall, to be back in her room—to feel the painful burn in my throat as I would occasionally pull in a deep breath in the attempt to make myself, one day, ignore it—to watch her sleep, and dream… Hopefully about me. I parked my car in front of the garage, and sped to my room purposely trying to avoid Rose’s upcoming confrontation with me. I already knew what she was going to say, and didn’t care to hear it again. I just kept repeating what Emmett had told me earlier… “Rose’ll get over it. It was bound to happen anyway”

I decided to go for a run just to get out of the house, and away from all the noise. As I entered the town of Sappho, I spotted a couple deer grazing in a field nearby. Although I wasn’t terribly thirsty, I figured I might as well take the opportunity to eat, taking off any potential edge of hunger that may at any time appear. I tried to not track the time too closely, thinking of the saying a watched pot never boils. I took my time with the last deer since I was not in any rush to get back home. There were still a couple of hours left before the day would inevitably hand itself over to the night. I mostly walked at a humans pace on my way back, figuring it would help kill some time. When I returned I was relieved to find that Rose and Emmett had taken off somewhere, probably doing something that wouldn’t mess up her hair. That left them with limited options, knowing Emmett. He wasn’t one for a casual hang out; he immensely enjoyed anything involving an adrenaline rush. I’m so ecstatic for Edward. It’s time he falls in love, he truly deserves it. It amazes me that it took so long. He’s such a meritorious man. My lips turned upwards at Esme’s kind thoughts. She always knew I would find true love and happiness, and was practically swooning over it now. As much as I wished I could easily give her the privacy of her mental praising, I welcomed her thoughts.

Before I knew it, I was finally able to head over to Bella’s house. I ran as fast as I was able to, but I still couldn’t seem to get there fast enough. The wait was killing me. As I stepped through her window, into her room, I took in a deep breath and sighed. Ahh! It was amazing how I nearly welcomed the intense burn. As long as I could feel it, I would be happy. I studied her room, noticing a few things I hadn’t really paid attention to before. Her walls were light blue, and she had yellow-tinted lace curtains around the window, which seemed to have looked older than she was. Her bed spread was purple, with darker purple shapes weaving themselves across the surface. I was curious if one of these were her favorite color. Bella’s sleeping body lay sprawled out, and twisted under only half of her covers. Her hair was tangled and outspread on the pillows, a sure sign of restlessness. “Edward,” So she would dream of me again tonight. That in itself made me feel so inexplicably happy. “Edward, please! Don’t leave me.” She tossed around, and then threw her arm over her head. Unable to help myself, I stepped around to the right side of her bed with a dire need to see her face. The expression she had looked incredibly distraught. Ugh,

what I wouldn’t give to just be able to hear her thoughts, to see what she was dreaming of, and why she kept telling me not to leave. The curiosity was almost agonizing. She sighed after a short time, and rolled to her other side. This position didn’t last too long, as she began to lean onto her back. She suddenly coughed, and opened her eyes. I felt a quick layer of panic wash over me, afraid she would see me standing beside her bed, but I was able to retreat from her view immediately. She laid there for a minute and slowly drifted back to sleep. This pattern repeated itself numerous times, causing me to keep an even safer distance. I could not be seen standing in her room. It was around 4am, and Bella had once again awoken from her restless sleep. She rubbed her eyes, and then cupped her hands over her mouth as she yawned. Her eyes blinked a handful of times, and she let out a few loud exhales. She rolled back to her side, and closed her eyes, this time falling into a deep, dreamless sleep. I sat by the window and listened to her breathe, occasionally inhaling whenever she exhaled. As the sun came up, I took in one last deep breath of her potent scent, and I ducked out the window. I ran back to my house, with the same speed I ran to Bella’s with, anxious to drive right back to pick her up for school. When I got home, Carlisle had already left for work, and Esme was tidying up the already spotless house. Alice and Jasper were just returning from their overnight hunting peregrination, while Rosalie and Emmett were

undoubtedly embracing each other’s bodies until the time came to leave for school. Emmett or Alice must have calmed Rose down while I was gone; not one of her thoughts pertained to Bella or me. I fled to my room and looked for something else to wear, not bothering to listen intently on anyone’s thoughts. I changed my clothes fast, then got in my car and drove at a steady and seemingly stagnant pace to her house. My siblings were used to riding without me now, not to mention Rosalie was always overjoyed when students would gawk at her M3. I parked close enough to her house that I could hear Charlie’s thoughts, but not be seen. “About this Saturday…,” Charlie said, beginning their conversation. I listened closely. “Yes, Dad?” “Are you still set on going to Seattle?” I really wish she wouldn’t… I could see Bella’s expression through Charlie, and she looked irritated. She didn’t want to compose a story for her dad. “That was the plan.” “And you’re sure you can’t make it back in time for the dance?”

“I’m not going to the dance, Dad.” she replied, trying to sound firm. “Did anyone ask you?” “It’s a girl’s choice.” she rebuttaled. Annoyance was playing a small role in her tone. “Oh.” There’s got to be someone here that she’s interested in, or vice versa… She’s an extraordinary girl, very smart and beautiful. Hasn’t someone taken notice? Charlie’s thoughts were dead on. I had taken notice. Perhaps more than any other boy was ever capable of, and I was beyond interested. I was in love. And she was interested in return. I wondered when that fact would cease to astonish me. Charlie left, and I took his place in the driveway to wait for Bella. She closed the door behind her, leaving the deadbolt unlocked. The crime rate around this town was notably low, so the lock on the doorknob would certainly suffice. She walked to the car, pausing slightly before getting in. She wore a nicer fitting shirt today; a brown turtleneck, and a pair of jeans. To any other pair of eyes it would be a bland outfit. But to me, it looked amazing on her. I smiled as she got in. “Good morning.” I said with a smooth voice. “How are you today?”

I intentionally asked this, hoping to hear what caused her restless night. “Good, thank you.” she said softly, trying to be convincing. I should have known she would give me a simple answer. I looked at the circles under her eyes, and I knew why they were there but I wished to know more. “You look tired.” “I couldn’t sleep,” she said, swinging a portion of hair over her shoulder as if to hide her face. “Neither could I,” I said in a light, teasing manner. She let out a small laugh, finding the humor in my statement. “I guess that’s right. I suppose I slept just a little bit more than you did.” “I wager you did.” “So what did you do last night?” she asked me, forgetting that she had her turn yesterday. I kindly laughed at that fact. “Not a chance. It’s my day to ask questions.” I reminded her. “Oh, that’s right. What do you want to know?” she asked with a curious look on her face. Thinking back to last night when I was in her room, looking at the different colors, I wanted to know minor facts. “What’s your favorite color?”

She rolled her eyes, but answered. “It changes from day to day.” She had to know I wouldn’t give up that easily. “What’s your favorite color today?” I asked. “Probably brown.” she stated. I snorted, as I wasn’t expecting her answer. I wasn’t sure why, since I had no reason to think otherwise. “Brown?” I asked her skeptically. “Sure. Brown is warm. I miss brown. Everything that’s supposed to be brown — tree trunks, rocks, dirt — is all covered up with squashy green stuff here,” she complained. I stared into her eyes, hoping to find a deeper answer, but I found nothing else. She indubitably didn’t like this climate. “You’re right,” I admitted. “Brown is warm.” I hesitantly reached over and swept the portion of her hair back over her shoulder. I didn’t like having to look through it in order to see her flawless face. I pulled into a parking spot and cut the engine. I turned to look at Bella, prepared with another question. “What music is in your CD player right now?” As she named the band on the CD Phil gave her, I smiled and opened up the compartment I used to hold my CD’s. I pulled out the one she named, and handed it to her.

“Debussy to this?” I said, raising an eyebrow. She examined the CD, mostly staring at the cover art. Her eyes were looking down the whole time. The day essentially continued this way; me asking non-stop questions. I couldn’t help but want to know everything about her. She was so fascinating to listen to. Her voice was so soothing, and kind. I asked her which movies and books she liked and disliked, where she had traveled to, and where she wanted to go. I would take her anywhere she wanted to go. I proceeded to ask more small questions. “What is your favorite gemstone?” She answered almost before I had time to finish asking the question. “Topaz.” Her cheeks flushed an appealing pink shade. She embarrassed herself with her answer, but I couldn’t figure out why. “You’re embarrassed of that?” She cleared her throat, and shook her head. “Um… I didn’t mean to say Topaz,” she said shyly. “Okay, what did you mean to say?” I asked to encourage her answer. She let out a flustered breath, but had no answer to follow it. “Tell me,” I practically demanded of her.

The color of her cheeks darkened to a intensely luscious shade of red, as she fought to find her explanation without embarrassing herself again. Look away, I thought to myself. And so I did just that as I waited for her response. “It’s the color of your eyes today,” she confessed, after a brief pause. She was starring down at her hands, which were nervously playing with a piece of her hair. “I suppose if you asked me in two weeks I’d say onyx.” It astonished me how closely Bella paid attention to detail. I didn’t want to linger on that one subject any longer; I didn’t want her to feel embarrassment anymore. So I moved right along with the next question. “What kinds of flower do you prefer?” She thought about it for a moment, causing her forehead to crease. “I’m not sure I have a preference.” “Fair enough,” I quickly responded. “Next question… What’s one thing you’ve never been able to do?” “Hmm…,” she paused to think. “Dance. I’ve never been able to successfully dance.” “Never?” I asked curiously. “Never. I don’t have the right coordination for it. I suppose I have my mom to thank for that.” She didn’t seem to be too upset over the fact she couldn’t dance.

A smile pulled at the corners of my mouth, and I lightly laughed at the image of Bella’s lamentable attempt to dance. It would be fascinating to watch, indeed. Mr. Banner walked into the classroom, pushing in front of him the ancient VCR and TV in which we would continue to watch Lorenzo’s Oil on. He reached to shut off the lights, and I slowly moved my chair away from Bella, hoping to control my urge to be closer than I knew I should be. I didn’t want her to notice my small movement, fearing she would take it the wrong way. She noticed. Of course she would, she was the most perceptive person I’d met. I sat back with my arms folded across my stonelike chest, reminding myself to fidget every so often. The excitement in the room was much like yesterday, although not one of the students really cared about watching this movie. Their thoughts were now filling my hearing, as I wasn’t tuning them out with my conversation with Bella anymore. Ugh, this movie is so boring. I wonder if Mr. Banner would notice if I just slept through it… Ah, man! So glad we don’t need to take notes over this crap…I’m listening to my iPod. I wonder if I should ask Ethan to the dance. I think he’s into me…although I can’t be sure. But what could it hurt to just ask?

Look at him…He’s such a freak. I don’t know what she sees in him. He just looks so different, what with his extra pale skin and all. Wow, he’s almost monstrously staring at her. That is so creepy… I purposely tried to tune Mike out after that. His thoughts agitated me continually. Bella’s hand kept making small, semi-controlled movements, in what I suspected was the same urge to reach out and share physical contact with each other. She folded her arms on the table, and rested her chin on top of them. Her eyes were focused on the movie throughout the entire class. As I bounced between different minds, and looked around at the students, I realized she was the only one who seemingly watched the entire showing. I didn’t like not being able to talk to her. She was hidden behind the hair that had fallen around her face, forcing me to flip through the recent images I had of her in my mind. Even though she was right there—one and a half feet away from me—she felt distant. I pulled in a deep breath to satiate myself with her scent, following it up with another. Although it was gradually becoming an easier scent to suppress, it would still hit me almost as hard as that first day—like a wrecking ball. Almost.

Bella sighed as Mr. Banner flicked the lights back on, and looked over her shoulder at me. Our eyes met and I stood up, waiting for her to do the same. Our walk to her gym class was silent, except for the array of thoughts I was hearing. I would trade the ability to read every mind in this place for the ability to just read hers. It was such a secretive place, and I wanted so badly to get a peek inside. Especially now. What thoughts were going through her mind at this very moment? I lifted my hand and touched the back of it to the side of her face, and slowly stroked it once from her temple to her chin. The heat from her body radiated against my skin, and I felt the urge to be closer again. Enough, I ordered myself. I still could not make any mistakes with her. I took in another breath, dropping my hand from her wonderfully warm face, and turned to walk away. I searched out Emmett’s voice and followed it to the hallway where we had our next class, where he was standing with Rosalie. They kissed each other as passionately as they could, keeping it socially acceptable, and she left for her class. “Hey, Edward.” He’s still looking better, so that’s good. I thought about that for a fraction of a second, but shoved it out of mind for now. “Hey, Em.” We entered the room and took our normal seats in front of Ben Cheney. The room was noisy as usual, only I got it twice as bad as the rest

of the kids in here. With one voice being just as loud as the other, I sometimes wasn’t sure when they were being spoken as opposed to when they were just someone’s thoughts. I carried a simple conversation with Emmett, while listening for information on Ben and Angela. I was curious as to whether or not my plan had fallen together the way I thought it would. Crap! I didn’t do the homework again… Maybe Mrs. Goff won’t show up to class today, and we’ll get to have a free hour to do anything we want!… I’m so glad I mustered up the courage to ask Angela to the dance. Bingo. Not only did she say yes, but she couldn’t stop smiling when I asked… Cullen was definitely right! She likes me! Man, I should thank him… I didn’t need a thank you from Ben. I did it more for Angela’s sake than his. But it was bound to have happened sooner or later; I just assisted to make it happen sooner and I was happy with myself for that. Now that that was accomplished, I searched the voices until I found the one I dreaded the most. Mike was playing badminton by himself today. The coach must have decided it was safer if Bella sat out. I was thankful.

This way I wouldn’t be concerned for the entire duration of my Spanish class if she was okay or not. Mike’s thoughts were mainly centered around his badminton match, leaving me unable to really check in on Bella. They didn’t speak once, which I presumed meant he was still bothered by yesterday’s conversation with her, by what his thoughts were like in Mr. Banner’s classroom. Mrs. Goff allowed me to leave the class early because I had finished each in-class assignment that she had handed to me. I headed towards the gym in anticipation to once again be with Bella. She walked out of the gym looking in my direction, and smiled wide as soon as she saw me standing there. I couldn’t help but smile just a wide in return. Ugh, it’s so appalling the way they look at each other. I nonchalantly rolled my eyes at Mike’s thoughts, and pushed them aside. I instantaneously started in with more questions as we walked from the gym to where my car was parked. I kept the questions easy during the drive to Charlie’s, just giving enough of a response to keep the words flowing from her mouth. I loved listening to what she had to say, she was so intriguing.

We pulled into her driveway, but I wasn’t about to let the conversation stop. I turned off the ignition, and we sat in the car while the rain suddenly pelted down around us. “So what do you miss about Phoenix?” I began. She paused, most likely rummaging through her thoughts, looking for the best answer. “The sun.” she finally admitted. “I miss the heat, and the constant need to wear shorts and tank tops, rather than jeans and sweaters.” “I think you look phenomenal in jeans and sweaters,” I chimed in assuring her that, to me, it didn’t matter how she dressed. She gently laughed, and shook her head. I breathed in at that moment, unexpectedly smelling the hint of strawberry from her hair, along with the smell of her enticing aroma of her sweetly scented blood. “What else?” I questioned, feeling a strong desire to know more about her previous location. She closed her eyes, as if to take herself back there. “I miss the smell of the creosote bushes that filled the air…” “What does it smell like?” I interrupted, out of sheer curiosity. “Um, it’s hard to describe… I guess it’s sort of a bitter smell— slightly resinous. It’s unusual, yet pleasant.”

“Sounds fascinating,” I told her. “Anything else?” “Yeah, actually… I indubitably miss the endless blue sky; virtually stretching from horizon to horizon. It was never interrupted with more than an occasional cloud that was spread out so thin, it was barely there, and a few low mountains in the distance. It was a wonderful sight—promising, almost. Phoenix is beautiful in every way. It’s so hard to try to explain…” she went on, using her hands to help describe the scene to me. I took in another deep breath of the Bella-scented air around me, gripping my left hand harder to the steering wheel, as the scent scorched my throat. I listened intently to what she was telling me, and I stared thoughtfully into her deep brown eyes. It was dangerous for me to be this close to her. I had all I could do not to allow myself to get any closer. Alice’s vision of Bella with bright crimson eyes immediately found its way back into my thoughts. I shut my eyes tight, and opened them again, as if to blink the image away. That wouldn’t happen. I wouldn’t allow it to.

I continued to ask her a handful of different questions as we sat in the driveway, and much to my surprise— she talked freely, and began to monopolize the conversation. But I enjoyed it. There was nothing I would rather do than just talk to her for hours, like we were doing.

“Tell me about your room back home,” I said casually. “What did it look like?” “It’s bigger than the one I have here… probably doubled in size at least,” she began describing it to me. “I had a lot more stuff in that room, since I lived there full-time. There’s actually still too much pointless stuff shoved in there. It could never all properly fit anywhere, making my room look constantly cluttered. But it was a comfortable clutter to me. I knew where things were. To me it had an order, but to my mom it was just a mess.” I listened to everything she said, but didn’t respond when she finished. I had been picturing everything she described, and I yearned to see it in person. I glanced at the time. 7o’clock, I thought to myself. “Are you finished?” she asked, with a relieved tone in her voice. “Not even close — but your father will be home soon.” “Charlie!” she shouted, forgetting about the time. She looked out the window at the now darkened sky, and then back at the clock in my car. “How late is it?” she wondered out loud. “It’s Twilight,” I murmured as I stared out at the horizon. I turned back to look at her, as she was looking at me with curiosity in her eyes. “It’s the safest time of day for us; the easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way…the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don’t you think?” I asked with a smile.

“I like the night. Without the dark, we’d never see the stars,” she said with a frown. “Not that you see them much here.” I laughed in agreement, and changed the subject. “Charlie will be here in a few minutes. So, unless you want to tell him that you’ll be with me Saturday…” I raised an eyebrow, hoping maybe she would tell him. It would certainly be incentive to bring her back. “Thanks, but no thanks.” She retorted, gathering her books. “So is it my turn tomorrow, then?” “Certainly not! I told you I wasn’t done, didn’t I?” I said to her in a teasing manner. “What more is there?” she questioned. “You’ll find out tomorrow.” I promised as I leaned across to open the door for her. I could feel the heat radiating off of her skin and the sound of her new heartbeat pattern. Just as I touched the door handle, a couple new voices came into play. Both were unfamiliar voices, but struck my attention. It started out with a few thoughts, and then proceeded into a conversation. I paused real fast to listen to it. I can’t wait to watch this game tonight; it should be a good one! I hope Bella doesn’t mind us showing up before Charlie… Hmm, I wonder

why Jacob’s been so quiet this whole drive… “You excited to see Bella again, Jacob?” the first and oldest voice spoke. Ugh, I really don’t want to get into this with him again. “Yeah, Dad, I guess.” the younger voice answered. I didn’t need to continue listening. I knew who it was. “Not good,” I muttered. “What is it?” Bella asked in a surprised tone, noting my tightened jaw. I looked at her briefly and turned away. “Another complication,” I said glumly. I pulled on the handle and pushed open the door for her, quickly retreating my arm back to my side in a sudden rush to leave. Too late. Billy Black and his son Jacob pulled up to the curb, facing towards us. “Charlie’s around the corner,” I warned her, continuing to stare at the Black’s vehicle. Bella stepped out of the car and into the heavy rain. She stared into the other vehicle trying to figure out who it was. As soon as she stepped further from my car, I took off with unnecessary speed, squealing the tires against the wet pavement. Before I knew it, I was maneuvering my way up to my house.

I walked through the door, and straight to my piano. I gently positioned my fingers on top of the keys and began to play the piece of music I recently composed. Bella’s Lullaby, I said to myself, as I thought of a name for it. I repeated it a few times, before muttering it no louder than as if I were to have exhaled. “Bella’s Lullaby.”