Ayumi Hamasaki - Hope Or Pain

english:

hope or pain what am i expecting? every time the phone receiver i'm grasping trembles my heart leaps but soon i'm let down with a sigh how many times will i continue to do this? how long am i going to believe the words, "some other day" when it will never come? it's better to forget thinking that i just dreamed for a little while though i know very well a miracle will never happen though i know very well i'm sorry i told you abruptly that day that everything became suddenly unclear the last time that i saw your tears is still clinging to my memory why couldn't i believe in you . right in front of me? you see? it must have been good enough only to love what i was loving almost clumsily i wonder if i could leave something for you when time passes by what will be left for me? my heart going on wishing for a miracle? or just a scar?

romaji:

hope or pain ittai nani wo kitai shiteru to iu no nigirishimeteru denwa ga furueru tabi ichiichi mune ga takanatte

demo sugu ni tameiki ni kaete mou nando kurikaeshi kuru wake nai itsuka nante kotoba itsu made shinjiteru tsumori nee wasurete shimaeba ii sukoshi yumemite ita dake datte kiseki nante okoru wake mo nai koto kurai wakatteru noni wakatteru noni kyuu ni subete ga wakaranaku natta tte ano hi totsuzen iidashite gomen ne saigo ni mita namida ga ima mo mada atama kara hanarezu ni iru nee doushite me no mae no kimi wo shinjite agerarenakatta n' darou suki na mono wo bukiyou na kurai suki na dake de juubun datta hazu na noni ne nee watashi wa kimi ni nanika wo nokoshite ageru koto ga dekita kana nee kono mama toki ga sugitara watashi ni wa nani ga nokoru n' darou soredemo mada kiseki wo negai tsudzukeru kokoro? soretomo tada no kizuato kana?