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>>>>>>>>>>>>> The Transition <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< He woke up. Got out of the bed and walked to the computer workstation. It was before sunrise and the early morning light dimly lit the room. He could see his way without turning on any lights. “I’m feeling good this morning. “ Last week he had his annual physical examination and the usual complaints: The continuous backache, swollen ankles, shortness of breath, low water pressure when he pee-ed, and lack of energy. Dr. Margoles usually dismissed them as part of aging and usually advised, “You should do more exercise. And try and lose some weight.” But they both knew it was hopeless. But this time the doctor added, “ Your PSA is very high. We’ll have to watch that. I’ll give you a prescription and we’ll check your blood in three weeks.” “Prostate cancer now. Oh boy. What next.” he thought as he left the doctor’s office. But this morning as he got up to work there was a different feeling. “The pain in my back is gone.” “I really feel like working. This is going to be a good day.” He clicked the mouse and the monitor screen lit up. He brought up his email. “5 unread messages” it blinked. “Nah. I don’t feel like doing the mail. Let’s get to work. I’m feeling good this morning. My head is really clear. Should it be the program or my story?” “The story.” He opened Word and when the blank document appeared he started to type: ‘H’, ‘ e’, ‘Space’, ‘ w ’, ‘o’, ‘k’, ‘e’, ‘Space’, ‘u’, ‘p’, ‘Period’, ‘Space’, ‘G’, ‘o’, ‘t’, ‘Space’, ‘o’, ‘u’, ‘t’, ‘Space’, ‘o’, ‘f’, ‘Space’, ‘t’, ‘h’, ‘e’, … The characters flowed on to the screen. He was not a touch typist and was surprised by the way the text unfolded. The rhythm and speed was not his. Then an unnerving feeling began. “This is too easy. What’s going on?” And the realization came to him. “ I’m not doing the typing. Something else has taken control. What is happening?” The image on the monitor screen began to fragment as though it was doing a screen change in a slide show, where the image breaks up into smaller and smaller pieces that then reassemble themselves into the next picture. This time the fragmentation did not stop at the screen image. The monitor screen itself, the computer, the desk, the bed, the [thetransition.doc]
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furniture, the wall, the room, and world began to fragment into smaller and smaller distinct pieces, revealing some dark shadowy mist behind the disintegrating reality. He was moving. Rotating slowly around the axis of his navel, arms and legs outstretched, a rimless wheel. There was no physical sensation, just the visual impression of the fragments as they approached him and then retreated into the shadowy mist. “Is this one of my Floating Dreams?”. When he was young he would have difficulty breathing and falling asleep on hot evenings. He would then lie on his back and visualize himself getting lighter until he was floating above the bed. Softly drifting into sleep when the image became a Floating Dream. “This is no dream. I am too awake to be dreaming. Even in my dreams, when I am self aware I still know it is a dream.” The knotting of his stomach was the last physical sensation he had as it brought him to the realization, “Oh my god. This is It! “ >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> The Interview <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< He arrives. It is a large waiting room. The cathedral like interior looks like an enlarged Grand Central Station. There is row after row of benches with people sitting quietly. It is very quiet. ”There must be an information booth”, but he doesn’t see one. Without consciously selecting a seat he knows where he should sit. He does not speak to his neighbors; they did not speak to him; just sit quietly with hands clasped on his lap. He is still in his body in a way because his senses seem to be working. He can move his hands, walk, hear, smell and see his surroundings but there is something different. He feels weightless; no energy or effort is required to move. Instead of controlling his muscles he can make things happen and yet he seems to be under the jurisdiction of set of laws similar to the physical laws that have always limited him. He did not feel free or that he had new powers. “Herman Kaufman” Helm walks towards him. Without thinking about it, he knows the small bureaucratic bespectacled clerk is Helm, the Interviewer, who turns on his heels, without offering the acknowledgement of a handshake. He says “Follow me” and leads Herman into a corridor that was not visible from the waiting room. The lighting is diffuse, neither clear nor opaque, just sufficient to see the
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unmarked doors which are distinguishable even though the unmarked doors and the walls were the same color as the light. Helm knows where he is going as he leads Herman, without hesitation, into a small conference room with two chairs and a small table between and no space for any additional furniture. After they sit down the Interviewer adjusts his glasses and asks, “Do you know why you are here?” Herman could only focus on Helm’s face because now Herman is certain that Helm is not wearing glasses. He knew that a response was expected so he said ”I’m Dead?” and as he spoke he realized that speaking was similar to the previous experience with his computer monitor. The words just came out. He heard them but he did not feel the vibrations in his vocal chords. “You are not dead”, Helm insisted, adamant but still calm, “at least not yet! This is merely the preparation for your Judgment” , he said emphasizing the word, preparation. “You will receive a description of your present spirit state, the overall process, the Judgment process, and a brief preview of what happens after the Judgment.” Herman asked, “How long will that take?”. It is interesting to him that he can still feel a growing irritation with Helm. “That is one of the first things you will have to learn. You are now a spirit in the spiritual reality and time does not exist here.” “What do you mean? Didn’t you just take me from that waiting room and didn’t that take time!” Herman’s words shot out like shotgun pellets. Helm replied, “Herman, one, you were in the waiting room; two, you followed me here; and three, we are in this room. You see, there are only events; one, two, and three. And there is process, which is a sequence of events. “ The concept Time is something that was developed in your world,” he continued, “ and is based on the relative position of the Earth and Sun. Then it was used as a dimension applied to events. However, the Earth and the Sun don’t exist here. Herman, Time is not a dimension in our Reality.” “Baloney! I don’t believe it,” insists Herman, belligerently. “What time is it!” demands Helm without losing his calm manner.
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He looks at his wrist. “Damn. They have stolen my watch. Sylvia will kill me. I remember when we bought it. I just made vice-president and she wanted to celebrate by buying me something.” The occasion was memoriable. “You need something better than that Casio.” She insisted. “ A Movado”. “We went to Lord & Taylor’s in Princeton to shop for my new timepiece ; I wanted a chronograph; She wanted an Allia, a museum piece.” “I have always used a chronograph, since my Navy days. It is a waste to have a watch that only tells you the local meridian time and costs $830.” “But you’re an executive now; we are getting you a timepiece; and you save $250 because it is on sale”, The Law was handed down. “ She always got her way . I felt reborn into a new, greater being After that was settled we used the American Express card for the purchase. ” Herman snapps out of his reverie. “My credit cards!” He doesn’t think it proper to feel his pocket in front of Helm so he surreptitiously pushs back in the chair to feel the backpressure of his wallet. It is gone. “Damn, they stole my wallet also.” “Herman… Herman… Herman” Helm repeats until he sees Herman’s eyes refocus. “I asked you what time it was.” “ What time?” in a rising voice, “ You stole my watch.” Still louder. “ And my wallet.” Almost shouting, “What kind of a place is this? “ Herman is now shouting. Helm now had his attention. “Herman, that is exactly what I am trying to explain to you.” “Well I don’t believe you. All I know is that I got out of bed and something peculiar happened. And you stole my watch and my wallet. This could be a dream. Yea, How do I know that I am not dreaming?” “You don’t have your watch and you don’t have your wallet!” Mr. Helm announced conclusively.
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Herman knew the Helm was right. “Now, can we get on with it?” Helm asks as he adjusts his glasses and continues slowly, “ You are here to prepare for The Judgment, which is the next step and will determine the disposition of your spirit.” “Do I have to defend myself or do I get an attorney, or whatever you have here?”
Helm, a specialist in processing souls from Common Law societies, continued patiently, “This is not a trial. You see, your lifetime on Earth was the trial. There are no questions of fact to be determined. Everything is known. All your actions and all your thoughts are already in the record.” Herman has a rising feeling of anxiety. He remembers the time he deliberately killed a dog with his car because another car cut in front of him and his anger was uncontrollable. He was sorry at the time and he still regretted it. “Don’t I get a chance to defend myself. To tell them I’m sorry. It’s not fair.” “It’s not fair,” he said to Helm “you can’t do that.” “Herman, I am here to brief you on the way things are, not how you feel about the process. Before you can go to Judgment it is required that you be properly briefed.” “Well I don’t like it. I should get a chance to defend myself. To explain why I couldn’t drive Harry to the emergency room when he had that attack. I had an important meeting and who knew how serious the attack was. If I knew he was dying I certainly would have taken him when his wife, Muriel, called. “I’m telling you, this is not fair. Suppose I don’t go along. There must be alternatives.” As a response to his outburst, he was in a snowstorm. Herman could barely make any progress in the deep snow. Behind him the polar bear was steadily gaining, five big loping bounds to his single struggling step. He could see the snow as it fell off his boot with each difficult step as he slowly extracted one foot at a time from the suction of the snow. With each step he drew a painful breath. As the bear pounced he sank into the snow. Down. Down. It was now water. He could see the bubbles as they floated up in front of him. They were moving up so slowly, gracefully, while he was being
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pulled down so rapidly. He struggled to get control of his descent but his lungs were about to burst, to expel the spent air in exchange for the watery atmosphere. He did not want to drown. Instead of losing consciousness he was now swimming through the air inside the mouth of some very large monster. He could see the backside of the teeth on his left as he swam over the tongue. On the right there was there was a cavernous entrance to the esophagus. The jaws were slowly closing as he did a very strenuous breast stroke, rapidly fluttering with his feet to get through the jaws before they closed. He barely escaped the snap when he heard Helm ask, “Were you asking about alternatives?” Helm recognizes that Herman is coming out of denial and is ready to listen. “Let me continue the explanation about the spiritual reality. There are none of the dimensions of your material world. …” “What about me? I still have a body. ” “You are now a spirit” Herman knew Helm was wrong. “No I’m not. I’m talking to you. And I see you.” “Herman,” Helm contins, “ you are a spirit. You see me and communicate using your spiritual senses. But you are still thinking in terms of the material concepts. As you develop you will make the transition to the spiritual reality and use the appropriate concepts.” “OK. I am not convinced, there are a lot of points to clear up, but I’ll go along for now. Maybe it would be better to start with an explanation of the overall process.” Helm is relieved. He presses a button on the keyboard and a video display panel slowly rises out of the desktop. The screen shows earthly images of butterflies, babies, ocean scenes, various life forms. “A training film”, Herman thought. The screen shows how a new species is created. First design a Life Cycle to include growth, nourishment, and reproduction. And then build the ecosystem to support the life cycle. The first example was the Butterfly; showing the egg,caterpillar,pupa stages. Herman is about to doze off.
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Then the specification for a new spiritual being is displayed. It is to be in the standard image but it should be capable of multiplying, reproducing. There was no such thing in the spiritual reality. Therefore a new reality has to be created to support a life form that could reproduce and make the transition to the spiritual realm. Thus ensuring a self-sustaining supply of the specified spiritual beings. “Wait a minute. Wait a minute.” Herman yells. “You mean we are just Angel larvae!” “Well that is not precisely true. But it is a reasonable analogy” Helm continues. “ There are many examples in your world of larvae being used as device to solve a life cycle design problem. One easy example is that of sponges or oysters. They are stationary and there would be a problem if they reproduced in place. Therefore their larvae can swim. “ “Well. I’ll have to chew on that a while. What’s next.”
“Now let me explain how the Judgment works. Feel free to ask questions at any point. The Judgment is handled by a staff specialist.” “Will I be alone?” Herman asked. “No. It is done as a continuous process. You will go in as part of a group; you will know when it is your turn; there will be a guide to explain the process; and you will be told to which region in the spiritual realm you are assigned. It is just that simple.” “Will they ask me any questions?” He felt that the briefing was coming to a close and he wanted to prolong it. Helm resumed, ”Rarely. Since everything about you is already known. Now after the Judgment your spiritual form will be dominant and the physical be carried interiorly. In each of the environments you are sent to there will be an indoctrination, the intensity of which depends on the state of your spiritual health when you arrive. “ “What do people do there?”
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“We call the populace, souls. They do the same as they do in all realities. They maintain it. You will have an appropriate function. But you will be getting more details in your indoctrination.” He was becoming apprehensive about letting the interview end. “How many people, I mean souls, are there?” Helm was very experienced and he knew all the ploys; he was polite and calm. “Well, from Earth alone I estimate 50 billion and there are other realities although I don’t know them all. So the total spiritual realm is much larger than 50 billion. You will not be lonely, Herman. Goodby”
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>>>>>>>>>>>>>> The Judgement <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< He is in another waiting room; sitting; thinking about the meeting with Helm. “I am lonely. What am I doing here? What am I going to do? Am I given an assignment or do I choose? Do they need engineers here? “ “I should have asked Helm if I get to go back to earth to see what is going on. Will I meet my grandparents? Or maybe Einstein or Plato? I should have asked more questions. How do I get in touch with them? Do they have telephone directories here?” “This is nothing like what I expected. It should be happier and it should be in Technicolor. More like the Wizard of Oz“ Herman reviews what he had read. The Bible refers to Heaven and Hell but gives very few details about them. Swedenborg, the Jehovah Witnesses, and novelists like Charles Williams give a lot more information about the spiritual world and what happens after death. But he doesn’t remember specific information about the process. The Tibetan Book of the Dead did describe something but he couldn’t remember anything but preparation in this life and Reincarnation afterward. “Now that sounds like a good idea. If I believed in reincarnation would I be sent back? I don’t think it fair to be judged for all eternity on the basis of one lifetime. Too bad I am not a Buddhist, maybe they go to a better place.” “Time may not exist here but I feel that this is a long wait. I wish Helm were here. I could tell him, ‘ you see, I feel that I’m waiting. Isn’t that a sense of Time? Therefore time must exist’.” He feels that he had a sound epiphenomenalism argument. “Maybe I should write a paper ‘The Persistence of Time in Dimensionless Space’”. “Just wait for the next event.” he thinks, “The next event” The thought triggers the memory of a meeting: “Ladies and Gentleman” said the chairman “the next event will be our guest speaker, Mr. Herman Kaufman, Manager of Production Support at Longthrap Motors of Long Island. His topic is Project Control.” It was the monthly meeting of the Memphis chapter of the ASME in a medium sized dining room of the Peabody Hotel. It was the standard boring social ritual of the professional engineering meeting. The talk contained very little new technical information and that was only to neophytes. The usefulness of the meeting was in reinforcing the image of Longthrap Motors, establishing professional contacts, and the affirmation of their individual professionalism. The dinner was bland, chicken something or other, but the spare ribs from Smokey Joe’s [thetransition.doc]
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across the street which he had after the meeting made the trip worthwhile. He flew in from LaGuardia that afternoon, just for the talk. After which he would spend the night at the Peabody, and in the morning take the American Airlines flight back to Laguardia. He realizes that the memory was a validation of his physical existence. “I wonder if my Daydreams are going to be about my previous life. I don’t know anything else. I wonder if I will have to start all over.” Herman remembs the various times in his life when he had to start in a new job or assignment… “Herman Kaufman” he hears his name. “Do they have a PA system?” He joined the group lining up at the big exit door.
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>>>>>>>>>>>>>> The Judgment <<<<<<<<<<<<<<< The group assembles at the exit door under the Judgment sign. The doors open to a huge room filled with desks. Not in any orderly arrangement but scattered in a random pattern. On each desk there are three computer monitors; and above each desk is a white plastic sign with a name embossed in blue letters. The signs hang from a ceiling that is too high to be visible. The room has the feel of a very crowded people-processing center. It is not what Herman expected. He was anticipating an impressive room like the United States Supreme Court, only more awesome. With God and Jesus and maybe some Angels sitting in huge thrones on a high dais. More like Saint John’s or Isaiah’s description. Herman heads toward the “Herman Kaufman” desk because he could not read the other signs, either they are too blurred or written with strange looking characters. As he approachs the desk a middle-aged beauracrat movs him with a downward motion of her left hand to a seat at her left facing the desk. He knows her name is Thompson. “How do I address her,” Herman thought as he sat down. “Do I call her ‘Miss’,’Mrs’, or ‘Ms’? I’ll just say ‘Mam’ or ‘you’.” he decided. “I have Helm’s report on your interview.” Thompson begs. “Your interactive classification is ‘Argumentative ’.” “I am not!” Herman snapped. Their eyes lock. She had blues eyes that are not unfriendly and yet not friendly, but seemed to be deep as though she knows everything. “Well,Mam, I just didn’t agree with what he said about Time not existing here; and I didn’t like the fact that they stole my watch and my wallet with all my credit cards.” “You will now receive an explanation of the region to which you belong.” She continues. Herman realizes that she is not going to be drawn into any discussion. She is all business. But he is not ready for her explanations. The discussion on the existence of Time has not been resolved to his satisfaction; He can think of more reasons which will prove the existence of Time; the larvae model is too strange; and he doesn’t agree with the whole process. “ There should be some sort of trial where I get a chance to explain. I’m entitled to some defense attorney. Isn’t Jesus supposed to be my [thetransition.doc]
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‘mediator’? After a lifetime of manipulating people, I’m accustomed to talking my way out of difficult situations, And with Jesus’ help I expected this to turn out pretty well.” “ …and therefore since everything you have done or thought is on the record, “ the Bureaucrate was saying, “the only thing remaining to be done is tell you to which region you have been assigned.” “Wait a minute.” He interrupted. “What record?; what regions?; am I ever going to get a complete explanation from you people of what is going on? ” “I can see why Helm gave you such a low rating in attentiveness. I just told you how the regions of the spiritual reality are classified but you were thinking about ‘Time’ and not paying attention. “ “How do you know what I was thinking?” Herman challenged. “Look at these screens,” Thompson pointed with her right hand to the three computer monitors on her desk. “The first one, on the left, is a visual of your exo-form in its environment; it is like a cinema of your life. The second shows your thought process in images or audio. The third, on the right, shows your endo-form , or spiritual state. This one may look like a bunch of expanding and contracting spirals to you because it takes specialized training to understand them, also they are being transformed from the spiritual to the material reality but more of that later. Please look at the first screen, the cinema, and tell me what you see.” “Me talking to you.” “Good. And now the second screen, the thought screen ” she indicats with her forefinger. The screen has system diagrams of monitors and central processing units with text boxes just like subtitles of the thoughts he has about the technology necessary to put together a system like this. The little cartoon bubbles has texts like: “what is the bit resolution of the screens”; “where are the cameras and recorders?’; and “what kind of chip drives a system like this”. The screen , in its special way, presents exactly what he is thinking as she is talking. “I have the audio turned off.” she interrupts his fascinated absorption. “ It is complicated to interpret actions simultaneously with their occurrence. Now with the controls on this panel I can bring up any event in your life. “ She manipulates the dials and the earlier portion of [thetransition.doc]
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the interview came up on the first screen. He could see Thompson and himself in the room. The image on the screen was clearer than the reality. The other tables were clearly visible in the screen whereas when he looked directly at them everything was in a blurry haze. “That’s because we use image enhancement “ she was reading his thoughts, probably on some other set of screens. “ but look at what the thought screen recorded during our interview“ and sure enough, there were images of the interview with Helm having the discussion on Time and he heard the speakers broadcasting his inner voice, ” There should be some sort of trial where I get a chance to explain. I’m entitled to some defense attorney. Isn’t Jesus supposed to be my ‘mediator’?. And with Jesus’ help I expected this to turn out pretty well.” “They do have a record of everything I thought and did.” Herman realizes. “OK. I agree. You have a record of my actions and my thoughts.” “Now I want you to look at the cinema screen again. Notice the other desks?” The other desks have interviewers very much like Thompson. She was wearing a light gray casual style jacket with a golden brooch on the left lapel. At the other desks the interviewers resembled her, not clones. But they looked related; and they were all dressed differently. Now that he looked more carefully he could see that, some the interviewees were dressed as though this was a costume ball. There were people from different countries so the outfits did not look out of place. There were people from different time periods: medieval clothes; Roman togas; even people dressed like Star Trek characters.. “Yes, they are ‘for real’.” She no longer waited for Herman to speak. “Remember, Time does not exist here, only events. Your Judgment event will continue until the process is completed. “Yes, the ‘guy’, we call them souls, in the toga is from Rome. “ She was still reading his mind. “And the soul in the Star Trek suit is from your 25th century. That should give you something to think about. But for now let’s get back to my explanation. I’ll start the replay and you watch the cinema screen. Her manner of speech made Herman realize that he better pay attention this time. “I wonder if that Star Trek guy is from some kind of parallel universe. And if they don’t have sex here, why is Thompson a [thetransition.doc]
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woman and Helm a man?” But he reengages his attention to the screen. The screen shows the following explanation of the Judgment process: First, the data of everything you ever did , thought, or felt is a matter of record. Therefore there are no questions of fact to be determined. The evaluation of that data determines where you belong in the spiritual realm. Where that is, is determined by your spiritual being. Your spiritual being , or endo-form, was developing as part the composite ‘I’ which your consuousness recognized as consisting your body. That ‘I’ also includs your spirit, whether you recognize it or not. Second, you are now in the spiritual realm. The dimensionality of your material reality does not exist here, only your endo-form, or spirit, has reality here. The former body, or exo-form, with which you were associated only exists as data or a memory. You do retain your memory and your world view or prejudices, , they are non-material you see,. There are some souls who do not believe in the material world or that the exo-form exists. There are also some souls who do not believe in the spiritual world or that the endo-form exists. Needless to say, those extremists have a difficult time adjusting. Third, in the interest of maintaining the maximum harmony and the minimum strife, you will be initially placed in a region of souls who have similar MDF indexes. The MDF (Magnitude Direction Factor) is an index based on the degree , intensity, or magnitude of your love for your belief and the degree to which that belief is directed to the Creator, God. Here are some diagrams to illustrate the MDF and how it used to determine the placement of the soul in the spiritual world.
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Spiritual MDF Positioning System
Spiritual Dimensions
Monday, October 27, 2003
There are two dimension in the spiritual world: 1. Spiritual health or magnitude of desire 2. Direction of desire. Every soul can be mapped to a point in the spiritual world based on the direction of its desire and its magnitude.
Direction of Desire
Direction of Desire
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The direction is toward God or against God and is deflected by the dominance of the mind or heart.
Brain, Mind Logical
Heart Intuitive
Spiritual Growth The spirit can change its position by changing magnitude or direction
Magnitude of Desire This is the dimension of strength or health of a spirit. It may be considered as analogues to height or stature.
Julien Green Monday, October 27, 2003 (c)
MDF: Magnitude Direction Factor 10/27/2003 Matures
Prematures
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Spritual Regions defined by MDF Indices Monday, October 27, 2003 Toward God
Indifferent
Indifferent
Against God
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Herman responds with all the energy of a compressed spring that is suddenly released. “What about Heaven and Hell? Where do they fit in? How come you are a woman and Helm is a man? You haven’t told me where I will go and what I will be doing. I don’t understand this MDF business.” “Wait a minute” “Gotcha!” , flashed through his mind. “I thought minutes, time, did not exist here.” It is possible for spirits to get angry and spirit power compared to material power is like an infinite line compared to a dimensionless point. Herman is pinned. He is in the grip of a force which immobilized him. There is no pain. It is as though time, which does not exist, has stopped. He is conscious of being inside a shell, like a deep sea diver in an under water suit. He can look out but can not control any motion or communicate. Even in his predicament there is a feeling satisfaction for having gained a small victory. “Herman”, the jailor continued, “ you will require a very extensive indoctrination period. You cannot learn anything if you ask a new question before the explanation of the previous question is completed. I will answer your questions, in order. “ Heaven and Hell are worldly concepts of regions that do exist in the spiritual reality. Hell is the area labeled “Against God” on the map. The souls there are turned away from God. Their hatred , jealousy, and anger at the other souls is a continuous torture. They have no peace. “I am a spirit, not a woman. It is a coincidence that in my previous exo-form , in the material world, I was a woman. Helm was also a woman. What you see is the result produced by our personal identification signal on your exo-form thought transformation matrix. You will learn about that during your indoctrination. Just understand that you have been conditioned to identify certain characteristics as ‘Feminine’ and others as ‘Masculine”. That conditioning will determine how you translate the visual signals for a while. As you develop your spiritual senses you will learn how to use them to interpret the spiritual reality. “Lastly, where are you going? The position is “0.6@45 ”. Your magnitude is 0.6 . One point zero is the minimum for a mature spirit, capable of taking care of themselves and being schooled. You are a [thetransition.doc]
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spiritual child, a ‘premature’ and will require special nursery care. On the other hand your spiritual direction is not bad. On the border line between looking toward God and your own reason. “Now the Transition to the spiritual reality is completed. You have been informed of the Judgment and you are ready for your indoctrination.”
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>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> The Nursery <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< The room is large. You could not see the enclosing walls. The rows of cribs and equipment extend beyond the horizon. The light was the distinguishing first impression. It is bright but not blinding, encasing the furnishings to purify their white or metallic texture. Over the entrance is engraved, “Prematures-Reception-Section” “Is this the Preemies-Reception-Section” asks the Caretaker as she comes into the room. “Yes. And you are the new Caretaker Grade III?” replies the professional looking Senior Grade. “Uh huh. Just graduated and raring to go.” “Well. Good. We’ve been short handed. The whole reception center is feeling the pinch but our load has increased because there is a larger percentage of prematures coming in.” “I know.” The Caretaker replied quickly, eager to show her knowledge she spoke in short staccato sentences barely letting the Senior finish the sentence. “Especially Preemies. The statistics we saw in the Backgrounds class are staggering. That’s why the crash program to retrain Mature-Level-Caretakers was started. I was caring for Matures but I was only a Caretaker Grade II, so this is a quick promotion for me.” The Senior started to maneuver the Caretaker in a slow dance toward the cribs. “ Matures are easier. They don’t need much to get cleared
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through because they can communicate. The Prematures are so difficult that we have been losing 32% at last count. The only thing that works, of course, is love.” “I know. “ Caretaker , trying to impress the Senior said, “ In the Principles class we not only get the statistics but we learned the importance of proper preparation. Why can’t people ever learn about the importance of proper preparation?” “Well that’s the eternal question. We certainly have sent the message in every possible way. Not only in Sacred writings but we also inspire secular writers. Plato is a good example, in The Republic he points out that spiritual nourishment is an essential part of the education provided by the state. However we prefer the official Sacred writings that …” “I know.” The Caretaker interrupted. “There is a judgment for every living soul; the soul that sins shall die; there is eternal life for those whose sins are forgiven. I got all that in my Practical class. I even knew it before I passed through. But I never understood about eternal life until I got here. How about filling me in on the process here so I can get started?” The Senior carefully prepared his words , “You’ve been taught the theory that the soul when created has an exo-form, called the body, and an endo-form, the spirit. The purpose of the first creation is for the body to nurture the spirit, because when the soul gets here, assuming it passes through the Judgment, the spirit becomes the exo-form and the body the endo-form. That is because this is the spiritual reality where… Oh. You’ll get that in philosophy, you know.”
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“But what happens when the soul passes through and arrives here?” asked the Caretaker . “Well, as I was about to say. The soul is first evaluated to determine the indoctrination needed. We get the whole gamut: “The Matures in ten levels. They include the souls who were aware of the need for spiritual nourishment and worked on their spiritual development to those who, while aware of their spirit, did very little to develop it, you know. The state of their spiritual health when they arrive here depends on the nourishment the spirit received while still dependent on the body. But at least they can all talk and can start their spiritual training immediately at the indoctrination center. “The other category is the Preemies, in ten levels, also, you know. These had the spiritual strength to merit eternal life because they believed in a Creator or at least a ‘higher power’ beyond the material world, But they did nothing or so little to maintain their spirit that when the soul gets here, poor thing, it is barely alive, and certainly they do not know how to talk. We have to …” The Caretaker, interrupted again. “Nurture by love, songs and prayer until they are self sustaining and then, to teach them how to talk by verse training. My favorite is, ‘The reverence of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.’ Now, what about the one-third of the preemies that don’t make it? “ “Well. That’s difficult “ the Senior adopted the lecture mode he used in training classes. “The recycling process has been evolving. We tried sending them back in some animal body but that didn’t work because it was not adapted to nourishing the spirit. Generally they came back in worse shape.
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“Then we tried soul recycling and that was misunderstood. It became known as reincarnation and it completely screwed up the message. Besides, according to my way of thinking, why should they do any better the second time? Since there is a feedback system between the body and the spirit, the spirit in the new soul life will have the same effect on the body as in previous soul lives. I always say , ’ If a soul has a bad spirit you might just as well trash it’, but this is not the official policy so you don’t have to agree with me.” “As for the current process.” He continued “Well, I have been so swamped here that I haven’t kept up with the changes to the recycling process. I do know that they don’t get here unless they pass The Judgement and that the promise of eternal life holds, you know, so I just ship them off to the recycling center. Now, aren’t you eager to get started?” the Senior asked hopefully. “Oh yes. But I’m getting a part of the picture I never understood before. I came as a Mature-Level-IV, and did not have any contact with Preemies. But I think that we should work on prevention for the Preemies. Be more proactive. Get a better message. What do you think about that?” The Senior considered very carefully how to reply without displaying the rising impatience building up within. “ You are making a good point. They should know that spiritual nourishment starts before they pass through. The message that they are physical material bodies, with a spiritual part within or attached, has been given from the beginning of human creation. I mentioned Plato but in addition there is the Vedatic literature , secular writings about spiritual life, including fiction, and most important our official inspired writings. In addition to all the writings there is Creation itself for all to see as evidence of a Creator or at least a creating force. [thetransition.doc]
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that do not believe, because they never get here. We are concerned about the souls that do, because we want them to be healthy functioning robust beings when they get here.” The Senior moved toward the cribs. He smoothed out a sheet and tucked the loose end back into place. Then he paused to emphasize his closing point. “ Therefore they have been given many writings and have received messages through Prophets that they can expect continued existence and what they must do to prepare for it. Also, since they live in a material world, most but not necessarily all, the information has to be received by the soul’s physical senses and then fed to the spirit. So the means, method, and opportunity are there and it only needs the soul to open the way to its spirit. Does that answer your question?” “I see. It’s awesome.” “OKl. Then get to work on that new group just being delivered.” the Senior said with relief.
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>>>>>>>>>>>>> The Transition <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< He woke up. Got out of the bed and walked to the computer workstation. It was before sunrise and the early morning light dimly lit the room. He could see his way without turning on any lights. “I’m feeling good this morning. “ Last week he had his annual physical examination and the usual complaints: The continuous backache, swollen ankles, shortness of breath, low water pressure when he pee-ed, and lack of energy. Dr. Margoles usually dismissed them as part of aging and usually advised, “You should do more exercise. And try and lose some weight.” But they both knew it was hopeless. But this time the doctor added, “ Your PSA is very high. We’ll have to watch that. I’ll give you a prescription and we’ll check your blood in three weeks.” “Prostate cancer now. Oh boy. What next.” he thought as he left the doctor’s office. But this morning as he got up to work there was a different feeling. “The pain in my back is gone.” “I really feel like working. This is going to be a good day.” He clicked the mouse and the monitor screen lit up. He brought up his email. “5 unread messages” it blinked. “Nah. I don’t feel like doing the mail. Let’s get to work. I’m feeling good this morning. My head is really clear. Should it be the program or my story?” “The story.” He opened Word and when the blank document appeared he started to type: ‘H’, ‘ e’, ‘Space’, ‘ w ’, ‘o’, ‘k’, ‘e’, ‘Space’, ‘u’, ‘p’, ‘Period’, ‘Space’, ‘G’, ‘o’, ‘t’, ‘Space’, ‘o’, ‘u’, ‘t’, ‘Space’, ‘o’, ‘f’, ‘Space’, ‘t’, ‘h’, ‘e’, … The characters flowed on to the screen. He was not a touch typist and was surprised by the way the text unfolded. The rhythm and speed was not his. Then an unnerving feeling began. “This is too easy. What’s going on?” And the realization came to him. “ I’m not doing the typing. Something else has taken control. What is happening?” The image on the monitor screen began to fragment as though it was doing a screen change in a slide show, where the image breaks up into smaller and smaller pieces that then reassemble themselves into the next picture. This time the fragmentation did not stop at the screen image. The monitor screen itself, the computer, the desk, the bed, the [thetransition.doc]
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furniture, the wall, the room, and world began to fragment into smaller and smaller distinct pieces, revealing some dark shadowy mist behind the disintegrating reality. He was moving. Rotating slowly around the axis of his navel, arms and legs outstretched, a rimless wheel. There was no physical sensation, just the visual impression of the fragments as they approached him and then retreated into the shadowy mist. “Is this one of my Floating Dreams?”. When he was young he would have difficulty breathing and falling asleep on hot evenings. He would then lie on his back and visualize himself getting lighter until he was floating above the bed. Softly drifting into sleep when the image became a Floating Dream. “This is no dream. I am too awake to be dreaming. Even in my dreams, when I am self aware I still know it is a dream.” The knotting of his stomach was the last physical sensation he had as it brought him to the realization, “Oh my god. This is It! “ >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> The Interview <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< He arrives. It is a large waiting room. The cathedral like interior looks like an enlarged Grand Central Station. There is row after row of benches with people sitting quietly. It is very quiet. ”There must be an information booth”, but he doesn’t see one. Without consciously selecting a seat he knows where he should sit. He does not speak to his neighbors; they did not speak to him; just sit quietly with hands clasped on his lap. He is still in his body in a way because his senses seem to be working. He can move his hands, walk, hear, smell and see his surroundings but there is something different. He feels weightless; no energy or effort is required to move. Instead of controlling his muscles he can make things happen and yet he seems to be under the jurisdiction of set of laws similar to the physical laws that have always limited him. He did not feel free or that he had new powers. “Herman Kaufman” Helm walks towards him. Without thinking about it, he knows the small bureaucratic bespectacled clerk is Helm, the Interviewer, who turns on his heels, without offering the acknowledgement of a handshake. He says “Follow me” and leads Herman into a corridor that was not visible from the waiting room. The lighting is diffuse, neither clear nor opaque, just sufficient to see the
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unmarked doors which are distinguishable even though the unmarked doors and the walls were the same color as the light. Helm knows where he is going as he leads Herman, without hesitation, into a small conference room with two chairs and a small table between and no space for any additional furniture. After they sit down the Interviewer adjusts his glasses and asks, “Do you know why you are here?” Herman could only focus on Helm’s face because now Herman is certain that Helm is not wearing glasses. He knew that a response was expected so he said ”I’m Dead?” and as he spoke he realized that speaking was similar to the previous experience with his computer monitor. The words just came out. He heard them but he did not feel the vibrations in his vocal chords. “You are not dead”, Helm insisted, adamant but still calm, “at least not yet! This is merely the preparation for your Judgment” , he said emphasizing the word, preparation. “You will receive a description of your present spirit state, the overall process, the Judgment process, and a brief preview of what happens after the Judgment.” Herman asked, “How long will that take?”. It is interesting to him that he can still feel a growing irritation with Helm. “That is one of the first things you will have to learn. You are now a spirit in the spiritual reality and time does not exist here.” “What do you mean? Didn’t you just take me from that waiting room and didn’t that take time!” Herman’s words shot out like shotgun pellets. Helm replied, “Herman, one, you were in the waiting room; two, you followed me here; and three, we are in this room. You see, there are only events; one, two, and three. And there is process, which is a sequence of events. “ The concept Time is something that was developed in your world,” he continued, “ and is based on the relative position of the Earth and Sun. Then it was used as a dimension applied to events. However, the Earth and the Sun don’t exist here. Herman, Time is not a dimension in our Reality.” “Baloney! I don’t believe it,” insists Herman, belligerently. “What time is it!” demands Helm without losing his calm manner.
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He looks at his wrist. “Damn. They have stolen my watch. Sylvia will kill me. I remember when we bought it. I just made vice-president and she wanted to celebrate by buying me something.” The occasion was memoriable. “You need something better than that Casio.” She insisted. “ A Movado”. “We went to Lord & Taylor’s in Princeton to shop for my new timepiece ; I wanted a chronograph; She wanted an Allia, a museum piece.” “I have always used a chronograph, since my Navy days. It is a waste to have a watch that only tells you the local meridian time and costs $830.” “But you’re an executive now; we are getting you a timepiece; and you save $250 because it is on sale”, The Law was handed down. “ She always got her way . I felt reborn into a new, greater being After that was settled we used the American Express card for the purchase. ” Herman snapps out of his reverie. “My credit cards!” He doesn’t think it proper to feel his pocket in front of Helm so he surreptitiously pushs back in the chair to feel the backpressure of his wallet. It is gone. “Damn, they stole my wallet also.” “Herman… Herman… Herman” Helm repeats until he sees Herman’s eyes refocus. “I asked you what time it was.” “ What time?” in a rising voice, “ You stole my watch.” Still louder. “ And my wallet.” Almost shouting, “What kind of a place is this? “ Herman is now shouting. Helm now had his attention. “Herman, that is exactly what I am trying to explain to you.” “Well I don’t believe you. All I know is that I got out of bed and something peculiar happened. And you stole my watch and my wallet. This could be a dream. Yea, How do I know that I am not dreaming?” “You don’t have your watch and you don’t have your wallet!” Mr. Helm announced conclusively.
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Herman knew the Helm was right. “Now, can we get on with it?” Helm asks as he adjusts his glasses and continues slowly, “ You are here to prepare for The Judgment, which is the next step and will determine the disposition of your spirit.” “Do I have to defend myself or do I get an attorney, or whatever you have here?”
Helm, a specialist in processing souls from Common Law societies, continued patiently, “This is not a trial. You see, your lifetime on Earth was the trial. There are no questions of fact to be determined. Everything is known. All your actions and all your thoughts are already in the record.” Herman has a rising feeling of anxiety. He remembers the time he deliberately killed a dog with his car because another car cut in front of him and his anger was uncontrollable. He was sorry at the time and he still regretted it. “Don’t I get a chance to defend myself. To tell them I’m sorry. It’s not fair.” “It’s not fair,” he said to Helm “you can’t do that.” “Herman, I am here to brief you on the way things are, not how you feel about the process. Before you can go to Judgment it is required that you be properly briefed.” “Well I don’t like it. I should get a chance to defend myself. To explain why I couldn’t drive Harry to the emergency room when he had that attack. I had an important meeting and who knew how serious the attack was. If I knew he was dying I certainly would have taken him when his wife, Muriel, called. “I’m telling you, this is not fair. Suppose I don’t go along. There must be alternatives.” As a response to his outburst, he was in a snowstorm. Herman could barely make any progress in the deep snow. Behind him the polar bear was steadily gaining, five big loping bounds to his single struggling step. He could see the snow as it fell off his boot with each difficult step as he slowly extracted one foot at a time from the suction of the snow. With each step he drew a painful breath. As the bear pounced he sank into the snow. Down. Down. It was now water. He could see the bubbles as they floated up in front of him. They were moving up so slowly, gracefully, while he was being
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pulled down so rapidly. He struggled to get control of his descent but his lungs were about to burst, to expel the spent air in exchange for the watery atmosphere. He did not want to drown. Instead of losing consciousness he was now swimming through the air inside the mouth of some very large monster. He could see the backside of the teeth on his left as he swam over the tongue. On the right there was there was a cavernous entrance to the esophagus. The jaws were slowly closing as he did a very strenuous breast stroke, rapidly fluttering with his feet to get through the jaws before they closed. He barely escaped the snap when he heard Helm ask, “Were you asking about alternatives?” Helm recognizes that Herman is coming out of denial and is ready to listen. “Let me continue the explanation about the spiritual reality. There are none of the dimensions of your material world. …” “What about me? I still have a body. ” “You are now a spirit” Herman knew Helm was wrong. “No I’m not. I’m talking to you. And I see you.” “Herman,” Helm contins, “ you are a spirit. You see me and communicate using your spiritual senses. But you are still thinking in terms of the material concepts. As you develop you will make the transition to the spiritual reality and use the appropriate concepts.” “OK. I am not convinced, there are a lot of points to clear up, but I’ll go along for now. Maybe it would be better to start with an explanation of the overall process.” Helm is relieved. He presses a button on the keyboard and a video display panel slowly rises out of the desktop. The screen shows earthly images of butterflies, babies, ocean scenes, various life forms. “A training film”, Herman thought. The screen shows how a new species is created. First design a Life Cycle to include growth, nourishment, and reproduction. And then build the ecosystem to support the life cycle. The first example was the Butterfly; showing the egg,caterpillar,pupa stages. Herman is about to doze off.
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Then the specification for a new spiritual being is displayed. It is to be in the standard image but it should be capable of multiplying, reproducing. There was no such thing in the spiritual reality. Therefore a new reality has to be created to support a life form that could reproduce and make the transition to the spiritual realm. Thus ensuring a self-sustaining supply of the specified spiritual beings. “Wait a minute. Wait a minute.” Herman yells. “You mean we are just Angel larvae!” “Well that is not precisely true. But it is a reasonable analogy” Helm continues. “ There are many examples in your world of larvae being used as device to solve a life cycle design problem. One easy example is that of sponges or oysters. They are stationary and there would be a problem if they reproduced in place. Therefore their larvae can swim. “ “Well. I’ll have to chew on that a while. What’s next.”
“Now let me explain how the Judgment works. Feel free to ask questions at any point. The Judgment is handled by a staff specialist.” “Will I be alone?” Herman asked. “No. It is done as a continuous process. You will go in as part of a group; you will know when it is your turn; there will be a guide to explain the process; and you will be told to which region in the spiritual realm you are assigned. It is just that simple.” “Will they ask me any questions?” He felt that the briefing was coming to a close and he wanted to prolong it. Helm resumed, ”Rarely. Since everything about you is already known. Now after the Judgment your spiritual form will be dominant and the physical be carried interiorly. In each of the environments you are sent to there will be an indoctrination, the intensity of which depends on the state of your spiritual health when you arrive. “ “What do people do there?”
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“We call the populace, souls. They do the same as they do in all realities. They maintain it. You will have an appropriate function. But you will be getting more details in your indoctrination.” He was becoming apprehensive about letting the interview end. “How many people, I mean souls, are there?” Helm was very experienced and he knew all the ploys; he was polite and calm. “Well, from Earth alone I estimate 50 billion and there are other realities although I don’t know them all. So the total spiritual realm is much larger than 50 billion. You will not be lonely, Herman. Goodby”
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>>>>>>>>>>>>>> The Judgement <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< He is in another waiting room; sitting; thinking about the meeting with Helm. “I am lonely. What am I doing here? What am I going to do? Am I given an assignment or do I choose? Do they need engineers here? “ “I should have asked Helm if I get to go back to earth to see what is going on. Will I meet my grandparents? Or maybe Einstein or Plato? I should have asked more questions. How do I get in touch with them? Do they have telephone directories here?” “This is nothing like what I expected. It should be happier and it should be in Technicolor. More like the Wizard of Oz“ Herman reviews what he had read. The Bible refers to Heaven and Hell but gives very few details about them. Swedenborg, the Jehovah Witnesses, and novelists like Charles Williams give a lot more information about the spiritual world and what happens after death. But he doesn’t remember specific information about the process. The Tibetan Book of the Dead did describe something but he couldn’t remember anything but preparation in this life and Reincarnation afterward. “Now that sounds like a good idea. If I believed in reincarnation would I be sent back? I don’t think it fair to be judged for all eternity on the basis of one lifetime. Too bad I am not a Buddhist, maybe they go to a better place.” “Time may not exist here but I feel that this is a long wait. I wish Helm were here. I could tell him, ‘ you see, I feel that I’m waiting. Isn’t that a sense of Time? Therefore time must exist’.” He feels that he had a sound epiphenomenalism argument. “Maybe I should write a paper ‘The Persistence of Time in Dimensionless Space’”. “Just wait for the next event.” he thinks, “The next event” The thought triggers the memory of a meeting: “Ladies and Gentleman” said the chairman “the next event will be our guest speaker, Mr. Herman Kaufman, Manager of Production Support at Longthrap Motors of Long Island. His topic is Project Control.” It was the monthly meeting of the Memphis chapter of the ASME in a medium sized dining room of the Peabody Hotel. It was the standard boring social ritual of the professional engineering meeting. The talk contained very little new technical information and that was only to neophytes. The usefulness of the meeting was in reinforcing the image of Longthrap Motors, establishing professional contacts, and the affirmation of their individual professionalism. The dinner was bland, chicken something or other, but the spare ribs from Smokey Joe’s [thetransition.doc]
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across the street which he had after the meeting made the trip worthwhile. He flew in from LaGuardia that afternoon, just for the talk. After which he would spend the night at the Peabody, and in the morning take the American Airlines flight back to Laguardia. He realizes that the memory was a validation of his physical existence. “I wonder if my Daydreams are going to be about my previous life. I don’t know anything else. I wonder if I will have to start all over.” Herman remembs the various times in his life when he had to start in a new job or assignment… “Herman Kaufman” he hears his name. “Do they have a PA system?” He joined the group lining up at the big exit door.
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>>>>>>>>>>>>>> The Judgment <<<<<<<<<<<<<<< The group assembles at the exit door under the Judgment sign. The doors open to a huge room filled with desks. Not in any orderly arrangement but scattered in a random pattern. On each desk there are three computer monitors; and above each desk is a white plastic sign with a name embossed in blue letters. The signs hang from a ceiling that is too high to be visible. The room has the feel of a very crowded people-processing center. It is not what Herman expected. He was anticipating an impressive room like the United States Supreme Court, only more awesome. With God and Jesus and maybe some Angels sitting in huge thrones on a high dais. More like Saint John’s or Isaiah’s description. Herman heads toward the “Herman Kaufman” desk because he could not read the other signs, either they are too blurred or written with strange looking characters. As he approachs the desk a middle-aged beauracrat movs him with a downward motion of her left hand to a seat at her left facing the desk. He knows her name is Thompson. “How do I address her,” Herman thought as he sat down. “Do I call her ‘Miss’,’Mrs’, or ‘Ms’? I’ll just say ‘Mam’ or ‘you’.” he decided. “I have Helm’s report on your interview.” Thompson begs. “Your interactive classification is ‘Argumentative ’.” “I am not!” Herman snapped. Their eyes lock. She had blues eyes that are not unfriendly and yet not friendly, but seemed to be deep as though she knows everything. “Well,Mam, I just didn’t agree with what he said about Time not existing here; and I didn’t like the fact that they stole my watch and my wallet with all my credit cards.” “You will now receive an explanation of the region to which you belong.” She continues. Herman realizes that she is not going to be drawn into any discussion. She is all business. But he is not ready for her explanations. The discussion on the existence of Time has not been resolved to his satisfaction; He can think of more reasons which will prove the existence of Time; the larvae model is too strange; and he doesn’t agree with the whole process. “ There should be some sort of trial where I get a chance to explain. I’m entitled to some defense attorney. Isn’t Jesus supposed to be my [thetransition.doc]
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‘mediator’? After a lifetime of manipulating people, I’m accustomed to talking my way out of difficult situations, And with Jesus’ help I expected this to turn out pretty well.” “ …and therefore since everything you have done or thought is on the record, “ the Bureaucrate was saying, “the only thing remaining to be done is tell you to which region you have been assigned.” “Wait a minute.” He interrupted. “What record?; what regions?; am I ever going to get a complete explanation from you people of what is going on? ” “I can see why Helm gave you such a low rating in attentiveness. I just told you how the regions of the spiritual reality are classified but you were thinking about ‘Time’ and not paying attention. “ “How do you know what I was thinking?” Herman challenged. “Look at these screens,” Thompson pointed with her right hand to the three computer monitors on her desk. “The first one, on the left, is a visual of your exo-form in its environment; it is like a cinema of your life. The second shows your thought process in images or audio. The third, on the right, shows your endo-form , or spiritual state. This one may look like a bunch of expanding and contracting spirals to you because it takes specialized training to understand them, also they are being transformed from the spiritual to the material reality but more of that later. Please look at the first screen, the cinema, and tell me what you see.” “Me talking to you.” “Good. And now the second screen, the thought screen ” she indicats with her forefinger. The screen has system diagrams of monitors and central processing units with text boxes just like subtitles of the thoughts he has about the technology necessary to put together a system like this. The little cartoon bubbles has texts like: “what is the bit resolution of the screens”; “where are the cameras and recorders?’; and “what kind of chip drives a system like this”. The screen , in its special way, presents exactly what he is thinking as she is talking. “I have the audio turned off.” she interrupts his fascinated absorption. “ It is complicated to interpret actions simultaneously with their occurrence. Now with the controls on this panel I can bring up any event in your life. “ She manipulates the dials and the earlier portion of [thetransition.doc]
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the interview came up on the first screen. He could see Thompson and himself in the room. The image on the screen was clearer than the reality. The other tables were clearly visible in the screen whereas when he looked directly at them everything was in a blurry haze. “That’s because we use image enhancement “ she was reading his thoughts, probably on some other set of screens. “ but look at what the thought screen recorded during our interview“ and sure enough, there were images of the interview with Helm having the discussion on Time and he heard the speakers broadcasting his inner voice, ” There should be some sort of trial where I get a chance to explain. I’m entitled to some defense attorney. Isn’t Jesus supposed to be my ‘mediator’?. And with Jesus’ help I expected this to turn out pretty well.” “They do have a record of everything I thought and did.” Herman realizes. “OK. I agree. You have a record of my actions and my thoughts.” “Now I want you to look at the cinema screen again. Notice the other desks?” The other desks have interviewers very much like Thompson. She was wearing a light gray casual style jacket with a golden brooch on the left lapel. At the other desks the interviewers resembled her, not clones. But they looked related; and they were all dressed differently. Now that he looked more carefully he could see that, some the interviewees were dressed as though this was a costume ball. There were people from different countries so the outfits did not look out of place. There were people from different time periods: medieval clothes; Roman togas; even people dressed like Star Trek characters.. “Yes, they are ‘for real’.” She no longer waited for Herman to speak. “Remember, Time does not exist here, only events. Your Judgment event will continue until the process is completed. “Yes, the ‘guy’, we call them souls, in the toga is from Rome. “ She was still reading his mind. “And the soul in the Star Trek suit is from your 25th century. That should give you something to think about. But for now let’s get back to my explanation. I’ll start the replay and you watch the cinema screen. Her manner of speech made Herman realize that he better pay attention this time. “I wonder if that Star Trek guy is from some kind of parallel universe. And if they don’t have sex here, why is Thompson a [thetransition.doc]
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woman and Helm a man?” But he reengages his attention to the screen. The screen shows the following explanation of the Judgment process: First, the data of everything you ever did , thought, or felt is a matter of record. Therefore there are no questions of fact to be determined. The evaluation of that data determines where you belong in the spiritual realm. Where that is, is determined by your spiritual being. Your spiritual being , or endo-form, was developing as part the composite ‘I’ which your consuousness recognized as consisting your body. That ‘I’ also includs your spirit, whether you recognize it or not. Second, you are now in the spiritual realm. The dimensionality of your material reality does not exist here, only your endo-form, or spirit, has reality here. The former body, or exo-form, with which you were associated only exists as data or a memory. You do retain your memory and your world view or prejudices, , they are non-material you see,. There are some souls who do not believe in the material world or that the exo-form exists. There are also some souls who do not believe in the spiritual world or that the endo-form exists. Needless to say, those extremists have a difficult time adjusting. Third, in the interest of maintaining the maximum harmony and the minimum strife, you will be initially placed in a region of souls who have similar MDF indexes. The MDF (Magnitude Direction Factor) is an index based on the degree , intensity, or magnitude of your love for your belief and the degree to which that belief is directed to the Creator, God. Here are some diagrams to illustrate the MDF and how it used to determine the placement of the soul in the spiritual world.
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Spiritual MDF Positioning System
Spiritual Dimensions
Monday, October 27, 2003
There are two dimension in the spiritual world: 1. Spiritual health or magnitude of desire 2. Direction of desire. Every soul can be mapped to a point in the spiritual world based on the direction of its desire and its magnitude.
Direction of Desire
Direction of Desire
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The direction is toward God or against God and is deflected by the dominance of the mind or heart.
Brain, Mind Logical
Heart Intuitive
Spiritual Growth The spirit can change its position by changing magnitude or direction
Magnitude of Desire This is the dimension of strength or health of a spirit. It may be considered as analogues to height or stature.
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MDF: Magnitude Direction Factor 10/27/2003 Matures
Prematures
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Spritual Regions defined by MDF Indices Monday, October 27, 2003 Toward God
Indifferent
Indifferent
Against God
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Herman responds with all the energy of a compressed spring that is suddenly released. “What about Heaven and Hell? Where do they fit in? How come you are a woman and Helm is a man? You haven’t told me where I will go and what I will be doing. I don’t understand this MDF business.” “Wait a minute” “Gotcha!” , flashed through his mind. “I thought minutes, time, did not exist here.” It is possible for spirits to get angry and spirit power compared to material power is like an infinite line compared to a dimensionless point. Herman is pinned. He is in the grip of a force which immobilized him. There is no pain. It is as though time, which does not exist, has stopped. He is conscious of being inside a shell, like a deep sea diver in an under water suit. He can look out but can not control any motion or communicate. Even in his predicament there is a feeling satisfaction for having gained a small victory. “Herman”, the jailor continued, “ you will require a very extensive indoctrination period. You cannot learn anything if you ask a new question before the explanation of the previous question is completed. I will answer your questions, in order. “ Heaven and Hell are worldly concepts of regions that do exist in the spiritual reality. Hell is the area labeled “Against God” on the map. The souls there are turned away from God. Their hatred , jealousy, and anger at the other souls is a continuous torture. They have no peace. “I am a spirit, not a woman. It is a coincidence that in my previous exo-form , in the material world, I was a woman. Helm was also a woman. What you see is the result produced by our personal identification signal on your exo-form thought transformation matrix. You will learn about that during your indoctrination. Just understand that you have been conditioned to identify certain characteristics as ‘Feminine’ and others as ‘Masculine”. That conditioning will determine how you translate the visual signals for a while. As you develop your spiritual senses you will learn how to use them to interpret the spiritual reality. “Lastly, where are you going? The position is “0.6@45 ”. Your magnitude is 0.6 . One point zero is the minimum for a mature spirit, capable of taking care of themselves and being schooled. You are a [thetransition.doc]
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spiritual child, a ‘premature’ and will require special nursery care. On the other hand your spiritual direction is not bad. On the border line between looking toward God and your own reason. “Now the Transition to the spiritual reality is completed. You have been informed of the Judgment and you are ready for your indoctrination.”
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>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> The Nursery <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< The room is large. You could not see the enclosing walls. The rows of cribs and equipment extend beyond the horizon. The light was the distinguishing first impression. It is bright but not blinding, encasing the furnishings to purify their white or metallic texture. Over the entrance is engraved, “Prematures-Reception-Section” “Is this the Preemies-Reception-Section” asks the Caretaker as she comes into the room. “Yes. And you are the new Caretaker Grade III?” replies the professional looking Senior Grade. “Uh huh. Just graduated and raring to go.” “Well. Good. We’ve been short handed. The whole reception center is feeling the pinch but our load has increased because there is a larger percentage of prematures coming in.” “I know.” The Caretaker replied quickly, eager to show her knowledge she spoke in short staccato sentences barely letting the Senior finish the sentence. “Especially Preemies. The statistics we saw in the Backgrounds class are staggering. That’s why the crash program to retrain Mature-Level-Caretakers was started. I was caring for Matures but I was only a Caretaker Grade II, so this is a quick promotion for me.” The Senior started to maneuver the Caretaker in a slow dance toward the cribs. “ Matures are easier. They don’t need much to get cleared
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through because they can communicate. The Prematures are so difficult that we have been losing 32% at last count. The only thing that works, of course, is love.” “I know. “ Caretaker , trying to impress the Senior said, “ In the Principles class we not only get the statistics but we learned the importance of proper preparation. Why can’t people ever learn about the importance of proper preparation?” “Well that’s the eternal question. We certainly have sent the message in every possible way. Not only in Sacred writings but we also inspire secular writers. Plato is a good example, in The Republic he points out that spiritual nourishment is an essential part of the education provided by the state. However we prefer the official Sacred writings that …” “I know.” The Caretaker interrupted. “There is a judgment for every living soul; the soul that sins shall die; there is eternal life for those whose sins are forgiven. I got all that in my Practical class. I even knew it before I passed through. But I never understood about eternal life until I got here. How about filling me in on the process here so I can get started?” The Senior carefully prepared his words , “You’ve been taught the theory that the soul when created has an exo-form, called the body, and an endo-form, the spirit. The purpose of the first creation is for the body to nurture the spirit, because when the soul gets here, assuming it passes through the Judgment, the spirit becomes the exo-form and the body the endo-form. That is because this is the spiritual reality where… Oh. You’ll get that in philosophy, you know.”
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“But what happens when the soul passes through and arrives here?” asked the Caretaker . “Well, as I was about to say. The soul is first evaluated to determine the indoctrination needed. We get the whole gamut: “The Matures in ten levels. They include the souls who were aware of the need for spiritual nourishment and worked on their spiritual development to those who, while aware of their spirit, did very little to develop it, you know. The state of their spiritual health when they arrive here depends on the nourishment the spirit received while still dependent on the body. But at least they can all talk and can start their spiritual training immediately at the indoctrination center. “The other category is the Preemies, in ten levels, also, you know. These had the spiritual strength to merit eternal life because they believed in a Creator or at least a ‘higher power’ beyond the material world, But they did nothing or so little to maintain their spirit that when the soul gets here, poor thing, it is barely alive, and certainly they do not know how to talk. We have to …” The Caretaker, interrupted again. “Nurture by love, songs and prayer until they are self sustaining and then, to teach them how to talk by verse training. My favorite is, ‘The reverence of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.’ Now, what about the one-third of the preemies that don’t make it? “ “Well. That’s difficult “ the Senior adopted the lecture mode he used in training classes. “The recycling process has been evolving. We tried sending them back in some animal body but that didn’t work because it was not adapted to nourishing the spirit. Generally they came back in worse shape.
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“Then we tried soul recycling and that was misunderstood. It became known as reincarnation and it completely screwed up the message. Besides, according to my way of thinking, why should they do any better the second time? Since there is a feedback system between the body and the spirit, the spirit in the new soul life will have the same effect on the body as in previous soul lives. I always say , ’ If a soul has a bad spirit you might just as well trash it’, but this is not the official policy so you don’t have to agree with me.” “As for the current process.” He continued “Well, I have been so swamped here that I haven’t kept up with the changes to the recycling process. I do know that they don’t get here unless they pass The Judgement and that the promise of eternal life holds, you know, so I just ship them off to the recycling center. Now, aren’t you eager to get started?” the Senior asked hopefully. “Oh yes. But I’m getting a part of the picture I never understood before. I came as a Mature-Level-IV, and did not have any contact with Preemies. But I think that we should work on prevention for the Preemies. Be more proactive. Get a better message. What do you think about that?” The Senior considered very carefully how to reply without displaying the rising impatience building up within. “ You are making a good point. They should know that spiritual nourishment starts before they pass through. The message that they are physical material bodies, with a spiritual part within or attached, has been given from the beginning of human creation. I mentioned Plato but in addition there is the Vedatic literature , secular writings about spiritual life, including fiction, and most important our official inspired writings. In addition to all the writings there is Creation itself for all to see as evidence of a Creator or at least a creating force. [thetransition.doc]
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that do not believe, because they never get here. We are concerned about the souls that do, because we want them to be healthy functioning robust beings when they get here.” The Senior moved toward the cribs. He smoothed out a sheet and tucked the loose end back into place. Then he paused to emphasize his closing point. “ Therefore they have been given many writings and have received messages through Prophets that they can expect continued existence and what they must do to prepare for it. Also, since they live in a material world, most but not necessarily all, the information has to be received by the soul’s physical senses and then fed to the spirit. So the means, method, and opportunity are there and it only needs the soul to open the way to its spirit. Does that answer your question?” “I see. It’s awesome.” “OKl. Then get to work on that new group just being delivered.” the Senior said with relief.
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