Keno Ai Nirbashon Dhondo By Taslima Nasreen

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p¡qp£, fÐaÉu£, B−f¡pq£e, c¤l¿¹, c¤¢he£Ña

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l¡S¡l Ah¡dÉ q−m n§−m Qs¡−e¡ qaz −cnp¤Ü ®m¡L

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W¡yC ®fm¡j, c£OÑ hR−ll A−fr¡l LÓ¡¢¿¹ ®T−s n¡¢¿¹−a ü¢Ù¹−a

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HL¡L£−aÅl ¢ehÑ¡p−e d£−l d£−l jªa¤É H−p O¡yf¢V −j−l h−p b¡−L, a¡l p−‰ hlw fС−Zl Lb¡ h¢mz fÊ¡−Zl Lb¡ hm¡l Bj¡l ®a¡ ®eC ®LE Blz B¢j h¡wm¡−L q¡¢l−u¢Rz ®k h¡wm¡−L ByL−s d−l B¢j h¡yQ−a ®Q−u¢Rm¡j, ®k h¡wm¡l j¡¢V L¡j−s B¢j f−s ¢Rm¡j, ®pC h¡wm¡ ®b−L Bj¡−L a¤−m, j¡−ul ®L¡m ®b−L ¢nö ¢R¢e−u ¢e−u R¤y−s ®g−m ®cJu¡l j−a¡, ®g−m ®cJu¡ qmz B¢j Bj¡l j¡−L, ®k j¡ Bj¡−L S¾j ¢c−u¢R−me, q¡¢l−u¢Rz ¢e−Sl j¡−L ®k¢ce q¡¢l−u¢Rm¡j, ®p¢c−el L−øl ®Q−u BS−Ll Lø ®a¡ ¢LR¤ Lj euz Bj¡l j¡ M¤h Q¡C−ae ®ke HL¢ce ®c−nl ®j−u ®c−n ¢g¢lz ®c−n ¢gl−a B¢j f¡¢l¢ez LmL¡a¡u f¡L¡f¡¢L h¡p öl¦ Ll¡l fl j¡−L j−e j−e h−m¢Rm¡j,

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®cu¢ez k¢c SeN−Zl ja ®eJu¡ qa, S¡¢e

A¢dL¡wnC Q¡C−ae B¢j h¡wm¡u h¡p L¢lz ¢L¿º NZj¡e¤−ol j−a ¢L Bl NZa¿» Q−mz NZa¿» Q¡m¡u n¡p−Ll¡, n¡p−Ll p¤¢h−d ®ki¡−h qu, ®pi¡−hz B¢j p¡j¡eÉ j¡e¤oz ¢e−Sl j−a¡ L−l h¡p L¢l, ¢e−Sl ¢hnÄ¡−pl Lb¡ ¢e−Sl j−a¡ L−l ¢m¢Mz L¡lJ A¢eø L¢l e¡z L¡E−L WL¡C e¡z ¢j−bÉ h¢m e¡z ®L¡eJ Apaa¡ BS Ah¢c L¢l¢ez Bj¡l j−a¡ p¡d¡lZ ®mML, l¡Se£¢al p¡−af¡−yQ ®k ®eC, l¡Se£¢a ®k ®h¡−T e¡, a¡l Jfl ®k l¡Se£¢al AaÉ¡Q¡l qm, a¡−L ®ki¡−h O¤¢V Ll¡ qm l¡Se£¢al, a¡−a p¢aÉC ®L¡eJ c−ml ®L¡eJ −i¡−Vl m¡i q−h ¢Le¡ S¡¢e e¡, a−h Bj¡l r¢a qm ph−Q−u ®h¢nz ®j±mh¡c£ n¢š², ®k n¢š²l ¢hl¦−Ü B¢j A−eLL¡m ms¢R, a¡−L A−eL ®h¢n n¢š²j¡e Ll¡ qmz HC Bj¡l ¢fÐu i¡la, ®k i¡l−a h−p B¢j j¡eha¡, j¡eh¡¢dL¡l, Bl e¡l£l A¢dL¡−ll Lb¡ hm¢R, ®pC i¡l−a B¢j kMe Bj¡l ¢hnÄ¡p Hhw Bc−nÑl L¡l−Z Bœ²¡¿¹ qC, aMe ®L¡eJ l¡S¯e¢aL n¢š² Bj¡l f−r HL¢V në EµQ¡lZ L−l e¡, ®L¡eJ Al¡S¯e¢aL cm, ®L¡eJ e¡l£h¡c£ pwÙÛ¡, ®L¡eJ

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ja fÐL¡−nl f−r

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®N±lh Ll−h¡ h−mC qu−a¡ BlJ ®h¢n L−l ®hy−Q b¡L−a Q¡Cz Baa¡u£−L A−fr¡ Ll−a hm−a Q¡Cz −p¢ce j−l ®k−a qu−a¡ Bj¡l ¢àd¡ q−h e¡, ®k¢ce ®cM−h¡ AeÉ¡−ul Hhw Aå−aÅl ¢hl¦−Ü l¦−M EW−a S¡−e i¡lahoÑz B¢j Bl L¢ce ®hy−Q b¡L−h¡, i¡lahoÑ−L ®a¡ ®hy−Q b¡L−a q−h q¡S¡l hRl!

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