I Wanted To Go Home And Sleep And Pretend Nothing

I wanted to go home and sleep and pretend nothing happened. We walked in and these man were bussing convo. I mean like proper laughing and ting. Dre cleared his throat and some next ugly punk looked up. He smiled at me and I nearly hurled. His face was not the only ugly thing on him. Judging by the colour and eroding state of his teeth, he didn't know what toothpaste was. I didn't even wanna smell his breath...I was scared it woulda brought back my cancer. We went and I was forced to sit down whilst they did some next hand shake, code taking bullshit. "Allow this nonsense" I said. Priceless forced himself not to laugh and it worked. From the corner of my eye I saw Dwayne's smile. I laughed. These people made me laugh. This was supposed to be scary and to me it was like some next beg of American Gangster movies. "What next? Scarface is gonna jump out of the shadows and say 'Say hi to my lil friend?" I said in mock Italian and laughed at my own joke. I was actually funny. Price laughed aswell. Shit I was actually a joker for real! I was still laughing and every one was staring at me. "You guys are begs!" I mumbled under my breath once I'd calmed down. "What do you want?" Dre asked. "Her" the ugly guy said licking his lips at me. "Sorry boss, I don't do fairytales" I said smiling at him. "Huh?" he asked. "You beast, I beauty, nah babes I don't do that..." I said to him laughing hardcore. I was on a role! I was hitting hard with my jokes. Dwayne lightly punched me to tell me to be serious. I cleared my throat. "What did I do?" I asked. "Mandy..." he stated. "WHAT ABOUT THAT BITCH?" I asked. "You took something from her" "No... I didn't." I replied back. "She said you did." "Well I didn't. I swear down, if I'm here because of her I will kill her...I wanna go home now please" I ordered. They all looked at me like I was crazed. I weren't joking. I wanted to go home and hug my babies. Get our passports and move to new country and start over again. With or without De-Andre. My children were my HEART and SOUL and my number one priority. I would sacrifice my happiness willingly any day to make sure they were safe. It was just like that. "Not so fast" Ugly said. "Sorry what's your name?" I asked him. "Don't watch that" "I am doh, what's your name?" I asked. He continued like I wasn't there and that hurt me. I didn't like being ignored. "Oi prick!" I shouted. Everyone went silent and he attempted to hit me but my baby blocked it jheeeze! The way De-Andre's open hand felt the impact of this guy's punch was kinda painful to hear. "Your gonna try and punch MY CHICK. In front on ME?" I got happier. I was his chick! I was his chick! In my head I was doing some celebrations mentally. "Okay, what did Mandy claim I took?" I asked. "A number" "HUH?" "You've got the sort code to an account" he stated. "No I really don't...go ask her again" I told them. "She's on holiday" they stated. "When she comes back" "I never knew it was possible to resurrect from the dead" Ugly said grinning. "Close your mouth please" I told him honestly. His teeth were rotten to the core. "So Mandy's dead?" I asked. He nodded. "Okay. cool, I aint got your stupid number." I told them. "I'm going now have a nice life" I said. "OI SIT BACK DOWN!" He shouted. I stopped dead in my tracks. Not because I was scared but because he shouted at me. No-one shouted at me. That was just rude! He weren't even my mum and he shouted at me. I was upset. "Nah, who the fuck do you think you are with your eroded teeth! I've had enough of you! I don't care if you're a fuckin murderer, don't fucking shout at me you wasteman! I don't care if you killed 2pac, don't fucking shout me! I cant believe it, your not even my mum! Watch when I tell her you prick! ARGH! I'm so upset" I commented. I watched them all silent. Then some one laughed. Everyone turned to look. My jaw dropped. This boy. "Erm what are you doing here?" I asked him. "I own it" he said smiling proudly. I walked over to him and straight up slapped him. "Rayne watch your self" he stated. "YOU! LIED TO ME!" I shouted. "Lemme talk to her a sec" he said to everyone and pulled me into some next dark whole. "Rayne I was gonna tell you..." "YOU WERE GONNA TELL ME WHAT?" I shouted in anger. "There's some things about me you don't know" he said. "Oh, I wouldn't have guessed." "Don't do that" he said lifting my chin. "Rayne, you know I hold nuff love for you" "SO YOU LIED TO ME YEH?" I asked him. I felt so damn betrayed. "Jordan I trusted you!" I began crying. "DON'T CRY" "You basically played me... acting like you liked me...when all the time you were tryna get some stupid sort code for an account. I fuckin hate you!" I said to him. "Nah, Rayne it was wayyy before that. When I met you I liked you as you but then the news came through and I found out it was you. I didn't mean to hurt you" he said. "So who the fuck is that white guy?" I asked. "My dad" he said. "SORRY WHAT?" I asked in shock. "I am mixed raced" he commented. I nodded. "But that's Sky's uncle" I said. "I know." "SO YOU AND SKY AND DWAYNE ARE RELATED?" I asked. He nodded. "I think I'm gonna be sick" I commented. "Rayne I'm sorry" "Go away. I don't wanna know you any more Jordan...I hate people lying to me and you did, see my instinct was telling me to tell you to fuck off... something inside me was telling me to tell you to go away. I should have listened" I said. "Rayne I am sorry" he said. "So what do you want from me?" I asked. "They want the sort code" he said. "They?" I asked baffed. "I don't understand what the hell is going on." "Okay, I'm just a mail man here... I get the message and I deliver... okay?" I nodded. "But unfortunately this time round I didn't deliver" he said looking into my eyes. "So what's gonna happen now?" I asked still clueless as to what was going on. I didn't understand any thing. My life was the weirdest life to live. I get pregnant, have the children, get my man's ex's tryna kill me... then WHAM I'm kidnapped by some next cult who's bad guy has eroding teeth. I thought about it. Some next fantasy...some next fairytale shit...it wasn't possible. It just wasn't. It was... o wow. I thought about it and actually realised the significance of the situation I was in. Someone was actually dead. I decided to maybe watch my mouth cuz I wanted to hug my babies. "Rayne..." he said. "Don't talk...you disgust me you fool!" I said to him. "Rayne please..." "No Jordan! I've had enough of people taking me for a prick! Enough of people telling me what to think, how to breathe. I'm sick and tired of it! All my life I've been played like a puppet! I AM NOT A FUCKING PRICK! YOUNG YES. UN INTELLIGENT NO! I can make it!" I said to him. "I know you can" he commented. "Don't you dare say that Jordan! you don't know shit about me!" I said to him, "Rayne..." he said attempting to touch

me. I moved away. "I don't know you...I never did" I said to him with tears in my eyes and walked away back to them. I couldn't believe it. The betrayal I felt hit my heart so deep it stung. Dwayne gave me that "What's wrong?" look but I wiped my tears and smiled. "Let her go" Jordan said. "But-." Ugly said. "No don't question me...I said she can go" he said looking into my eyes. He looked sorry but I screwed him cuz he had betrayed me. "I wanna see my babies" I said to De-Andre talking off the bullet proof vest. I walked off. I was exhausted and needed to see the twins. That was the only thing I wanted to do. To see them and tell them that mummy was back and everything was going to be okay. I wiped the tears that continued to fall from my face. "Rayne what's wrong?" Dwayne asked. I hugged him hard. "You need to see Jade" I told him. "I will as soon as we get back" he said. "Hurry up please, something's not right" I said. It was just this weird feeling I got. Something was NOT right. I couldn't figure out what it was but it wasn't right. I sat in the car as Price and Dre came in and drove. It was silent and they asked me questions I just didn't answer. "I just wanna see my babies" I said to them . About an hour later I was running down the road and knocking rapidly on De-Andre's door. "What's all the ra-." Indya stopped in her tracks. I barged her out of the way. "Where are they?" I asked shaking her. "Who?" "My children you moron!" I shouted. "In the front room" she said. I run into the living room and started bawling. There they were watching TV. "De!" I said. He turned around and smiled. "Leshhaaa!" I said also. They both smiled. I went and picked them up. "You've gone heavy haven't you?" I asked smiling at them still crying. "Daddy's been feeding you good...and you got fresh crep De! Lesha! Omygosh, I like your dress" She giggled and I held them both tighter. De kept staring at me like "where the fuck have you been" so I explained. I knew they understand. "Basically, your dad yeh, kidnapped me...don't worry, I'm okay...but yeh he kidnapped me for a good 6weeks, but guess what? Mummy's back and not leaving you ever! I love you soo much!" I said to them. I saw Indya standing in the door way watching. I turned to her. "Thank you for looking after them" I said to her. "Its okay" she said smiling. "I enjoyed their company! Lesha likes Maury a lot!" she said. "I know... she used to sit in front of the TV and just sit there watching. I was thinking do you understand what's going on." I said. She laughed. "I think she does. She threw her dummy at it when they were showing the 'Who's the father' episode" I laughed. Lesh reached out to Indya and she hesitated. "Nah, come take her then" I said to her. She reluctantly came and picked her up. "Mummy" Leesha said to her. She looked at me scared. I just stared and pretended I never heard. The front door opened and them man came in excluding Dwayne. He had gone to see Jade. I hope she didn't have a heart attack. "So you two are getting along" Priceless said. De nudged him and I laughed. "We're in the play room yeh?" Price said. I nodded. They walked off and I had to watch De. He was just so fucking sexy it was unbelievable. "You love him don't you" I asked her. The way her eyes lit up when she looked at him told me everything I needed to know. She was proper sprung on him and I felt for her. Somewhere in my heart, I knew what to do...I had to do it. Some things weren't meant to be. "Yeah" she said shyly. "I'm so sorry for all the trouble I've caused, I feel so damn bad" she said. Her accent was a lot! "It's cool..." I said back. I played with the twins for some time and we all agreed I would leave them and go home by myself. Price dropped me off and I watched from their living room as Indya played with De and Andre with Leesha. I smiled. They looked like the perfect couple. I walked to Price's car and we sat in silence. "What's up?" he asked. "Nothing" I replied back. "Just thinking." "You scared?" he asked me. "NOO!" I replied. He laughed. "You are the weirdest person I know" he said. "Why?" "You are scared of spiders." "AND MY MUM!" I said. "Yeh, but yet, people are getting killed, your wanted by a drug dealer, you've been kidnapped, abused and what not and your still not scared" "Well, erm...nah, I'm not!" I said. We got to my yard and he came in. I went to have a shower and when I came back this guy had cooked. Until then, I hadn't realised the extent of my hunger. Shit! My body was weak with the lack of food. I munched with him in silence. We were sitting talking about life and everything when I started falling asleep. "I'll leave you to bed yeh?" he asked. I nodded. "Good night Rayne" he said. I kissed his on the lips and he opened his mouth to accept. "Bye..." I said. He nodded and bopped off. With me and Price there would ALWAYS be something. It was like something I couldn't deny. It just was... I slept and thought about my extraordinary life and yet. Something still tugged in the back of my mind. I didn't wanna admit it but it was there. I could feel it...I really could. I tried to avoid it. But it there. A month after the whole fiasco I'd been jammin with Indya a lot and I could tell she proper loved De. It was night time when I took my house phone and called in a favour. "Thank you soo much!" I said to her. "Its okay, you know your basically my child...I'd do anything for you" "Omygosh! thank you so much!" I kept saying. She laughed. "Its okay..." she said. I started going college, can you believe? I'd missed so much shit it was unbelievable but I was catching up cuz Rayne was academically gifted like that. When I saw Jordan I would turn the opposite direction etc. V was back and the feds were baffled. I'd been called to the station so many times I'd lost count. They kept asking questions and I told them straight, I didn't remember. Jade had given Dwayne a black eye cuz he hurt her so much but they were still pretty much as solid as rock. I decided that I'd waited long enough. I dropped by after college to see De-Andre. "Hi!" he smiled and hugged me. I smiled back. "Wassup?" he asked. "I'm leaving" I said to him. He laughed. "So you came here to go home?" he asked. "No, De-Andre, I'm actually leaving..." I said to him staring at him dead in his eyes so he understood I was serious. "What about the children?" he asked. I took a deeper breath. This was hurting me so much. I promised myself I wouldn't cry but I did. "You can have them...take care of them for me..." I told him. "RAYNE? WHAT'S GOTTEN INTO YOU?" he asked looking over shocked. He looked like he'd caught me in bed with someone. "De-Andre I've been around you for a whole month and I see the way you watch her..." I said to him. "Who?" "Indya...don't lie to me...you love her" I told him. "No." he said. "Look me in my eye and tell me you haven't fallen in love with her" I told him. He didn't. "See..." I said crying harder.

"Rayne..." "Shhh...its okay...don't worry, I aint got a hard heart...I'm cool with it...I know you love me and I love you too but I know now that you love Indya and she give you loads of things I cant..." I told him. He stared at me blank. His eyes heavy with hurt. I cried harder. O wow. It was hard. I was giving up my WHOLE LIFE. "I'm going and I want you to know and I know you do but I love you! You're the 1st and last man I'll ever love like this. I cant describe to you how much pain I'm feeling...I can explain it but you need to move on with your life and so do I." "So where are you going?" he asked me. "Mums the word" I said smiling at him. "Rayne tell me!" he commanded. I shook my head. "Better you don't know...I want you to have a fresh start... tell the twins I LOVE THEM WITH-." I broke down crying as my heart continued to shred in pieces. "I love them" I concluded looking at the wall. I wiped my tears. "Rayne don't do this" "Nah, I have to." "But the twins..." he said. "I weren't a good mother to them I tried and I failed. They love Indya." I told him straight. "They see her as mummy now...its cool" I said. It wasn't cool but I had to go away. For everyone's sake. I needed a fresh start. I needed them to forget Rayne. They had to. I kissed him and he began to kiss all my tears away. I felt his heart. "I-love you" he said. For the 1st time since I'd known him, De-Andre cried and knowing I made him cry hurt me far more than any other thing. I walked out of the house not looking back. I got to my house and called a cab. My suit cases were packed. I left the key under the mat and wrote Dwayne, Sky and Jade a letter and posted it. The cab came minutes later and the guy helped me get my suitcases in. "Where to Ms?" he asked. "Heathrow airport please" I said with tears in my eyes. "You okay?" he asked. "Yup...hay fever" I saw his face but he didn't say anything after wards. I looked outside the window as my childhood played in my head like a movie. I wanted the best for my children and even though tough, I had to do it. They were better off with De-Andre. For now, I would concentrate on my education and get a good life...I just didn't wanna hurt anyone anymore... My phone rang and it was De-Andre. I didn't pick up but he kept calling and I picked up eventually. "Hello?" "Rayne, listen to me...come back so we can sort this out please" "No, its okay...stay safe baby" "No Rayne listen. You leaving is just gonna cause everyone more harm than good. You'll hurt Jade more..." "She'll live." "But will she forgive you? Or the twins...what if they grow up and want mummy?" "Indya will be good enough" I said with tears in my eyes. "Rayne your not thinking straight! Please just come back so we can sort this out. What are your parents gonna say?" "There's nothing they can really say is there?" I asked. "Please don't do this please don't." "Dre I have to" "You don't Rayne! Just please come back" "I love you" I said and locked off. I then switched off my phone. A few hours later, I was at Heathrow airport waiting to board a plane to Canada. Yes. Very far away from the UK. Going to stay with my aunt and start my education all over again. She knew what I had done and thought it was very brave of me. I knew it would come back to haunt me but I just needed to do it. After 9hours on the plane, I landed and shit, I was tired and my eyes were swollen from constant crying. I came out of the airport looking like someone just died. Someone really had died. My whole life. Everything that made me me. It was all gone. It felt like I'd lost my memory and had to start learning English from scratch. Oh damn. "Its okay dear a new life?" she asked. I nodded and she hailed a cab. She explained to me what I would be doing and that I'd be in grade 12 which was equivalent to college in the UK. She's arranged everything as she was a teacher at the school I was going to. I landed on Friday and was starting school on Monday. Everything was moving so fast, I didn't mind doh... New Life right? We got to her house and the taxi driver helped with my suitcases and stuff. She smiled at me and I smiled back. I got into the house and everyone was bare making noise. I laughed. There was this big banner that said "Welcome home Rayne..." I nearly cried. I hadn't seen them in 8years. She had two children both were boys. One was 20 and the other 18 so I would be in class with him. Marcel and Devawn. I was introduced to my bedroom and I unpacked, still crying. I had pictures of the twins but didn't put them up. New start! I almost slept throughout the day because of the jetlag. I woke up confused then remembered where I was. I began to cry. I eventually wiped my tears and went downstairs to find them all waiting for me smiling. I smiled back. I needed to get on with life... my life... One month later. I'd settled in good but had to start the curriculum from scratch but with my auntie being a teacher everything was kinda running smoothly for me. I'd stopped the crying. Not really. But I didn't cry as much as I used to. Devawn's bredrins were amazingly funny and I always laughed when they cussed each other. It was absolutely funny. I was in the "hood" jammin with my "gang" when a car rolled up. We all watched, obviously them man knew who he was cuz they were spudding him and ting. I just watched. O wow. He was beautiful. I could see me and him becoming very close friends. I laughed as I thought about it. I went into my new house and soon they all came in making up bare noise. It was weird because my accent was just THERE! Every time I spoke they looked confused because I used words like "innih" and they always stayed baffled as I laughed. "Sup?" the guy said to me when he came in the kitchen. "Nothing much..." I replied back smiling. "I'm Snow Man" he said. I

looked at him like "really" he laughed. "You boo, can call me Omari." He said showing me his gold tooth. I took him in. "I'm Rayne" I replied "Sexy name for sexy girl" he said winking again. I laughed. We continued talking and talking and he took down my "cell" number. "So how come I haven't seen you before?" I asked him. "Vacation." He stated happily. Them man laughed. "Huh?" I asked confused. Some next private joke. "State penitentiary" he said simply. My eyes widened. No wonder he was just so hench. Shit! I watched him as he ate. Weird I know but I just couldn't help myself... it wasn't in even a sexual thing. I'd been put off sex for no reason. I didn't know why I felt that way but I'd RECYCLED my VIRGINITY, So I was a virgin with no virginity. I laughed at the paradox I created. "What's funny?" Snow man asked. I grinned at him. "My personal joke" I said back. "Would you like to share it with us?" he asked licking his lips. I bit my bottom lip and smiled. "Nope..." "Uh-huh, maybe you'd like to tell me...alone...in private...one room...--." "AHEM!" Marcel said. We all laughed but he looked serious. I got up and went into the kitchen to get more wine for them alcoholics. I'd also discovered WEED was universal, only round these bits, it was "PURPLE HAZE" "Cuzzi!" "Marcel, go on..." I said turning to smile at him. "He straight up hood!" "I know" I replied back smiling. "Its no joke" he said back looking annoyed. "He a player" he added. "Don't worry...nothing's gonna happen" I said looking into his eyes. I really weren't giving up my recycled womanhood too fast. Anyone who wanted it had to work for it. I'd learned a lot from my past life. I closed my eyes and the tears threatened to fall. I am not going to cry. I whispered to myself. "Aww come here" Marcel said hugging me. I broke down and cried on him. "You all cried out?" he asked. I sniffed and laughed then nodded. "I love you like I've known you all my life" he said. "I love you too Marcy!" he gave me some look. "Oh, ha-ha, I like Marcy better than Marcel" I said. "Ima call you Rainy." He said and buss out laughing. Rainy was the local junkie who tried to move to me, I hated him soo much! This prick actually knocked on my aunts door and asked for sugar! I slammed the door in his sugary face. SUGAR! Like the 99cent store wasn't around the corner. Anyway, I screwed Marcel cuz him calling me Rainy was painful. "I got nothing but love for you!" he said. I laughed. "AHEM!" we both turned around to see Snowman grinning bare teeth. I laughed. "TURN ON THE FUCKIN AC! IT'S HOTTER THAN A MOTHERFUCKER" he complained. I laughed. It amazed me how Americans and Canadians talked the same and ting, but yet hated each others guts. I'd mistaken one guy called Ryan's accent as Canadian when he was American...he didn't talk to me for a couple of hours still. It was just stupidness but I dared not say anything. Snowman exited and I got them their alcoholic beverages and returned to the living full of boys. I didn't even feel uncomfortable. They were like fam. Fuck. They WERE fam. I sat down and my eyes wandered and strayed to suttin nice. He had his top off and he was engrossed in their virtual games. I watched his dark chocolate skin. Shit! He had loads of tats. Fuckin loads... I already found a name for him. I smiled... my eyes strayed to his chest and abdomen. God made us, God sculptured him. He was in shape...shit! You could count his pacs like that...it was sending shock waves to my heart. I assume he felt my stare on him because he turned to me and gave me warm smile. It was like he knew I needed it. It was the kinda smile that said "everything's gonna be okay". I closed my eyes and leaned back. De-Andre and Leesha! Images of them played, paused, replayed, rewinded in my head. It wasn't going away. I decided to hit the bed early. I said bye to everyone and went in bed and cried my eyes out. I immediately began having second thoughts...maybe I made a mistake...maybe I needed to go back... but. No I couldn't...it was over...I'd messed things up enough. Rayne and the UK didn't mix...I would rather a new life excluding baggage and stress than the old one with love, stress, heartache...fuck! I was having serious withdrawal syndrome. I was going home. I was back in the UK. Two years since the hype, silliness and immaturity and I was still with De-Andre and my mum wouldn't let me move in with him cuz she suspected we would just fuck and continue to fuck all day and night. I couldn't blame her because she was right. That chick that had been after him had got it, cah karma fucked her up for me. She was walking with someone else's man when a car licked her down nicely. I weren't gonna lie, I saw it happen and that shit was funny. She proper dun a 360 before bouncing on the floor. I was creasing, and was shocked to find no one else found it funny. That made me laugh harder. Everyone I told I laughed and they looked at me and told me I had a cold heart. But when I was sad the image of her getting knocked the fuck down cheered me up each and every time. Real talk. My A-Levels were over and I had had a MASSIVE argument with my parents about going to uni. They wanted me to go straight after college and I didn't want to go because of De-Andre and my babies. I wanted to wait a year to see how things were planning out then go. They said NO. Although 18, they were still my parents and they had helped me thru a lot of shit, the least I could do was pay them back by going Uni to do my degree in law. They wanted me to go to Oxford, which was a HYPE. I was NOT leaving my children and trekking miles and miles to a uni no matter how good it was. I was aware that my intellectual grades surpassed some and I was branded into the category of "gifted and talented". I decided that I was either going Kings College so I could visit home ona regs, or I was going to

University of London. At first, they were pissed off then I showed them the world ranking of Kings College and my dad got excited. That bastard even went as far as suggesting we move to the US to go Harvard cah it was a sick place to study law as in effect it was a law school. DEAD. I told him no and so did my mum! For once, she didn't suck on his batty. So in the end we came to a conclusion that since the twins would be going nursery anyway, I would go uni externally but at times, I would stay on campus and do whatever. I weren't happy but at least it was a compromise. Surprisingly, Andre supported me, he was just so perfect he just said we would have less and sex and more convo. Which made ma laugh. He was so caring. Jade and Sky nearly drowned me after they found out I was going uni. "From year7 I knew this girl was going somewhere in life!" "Isit?" I asked proper grinning teeth. "Yeh, from since you knew about The Ottoman Empire in year7 I knew you were a genius! Rayne you actually don't understand how proud we are!" Jade said in proper excitement. She was glowing. I knew the signs, and I asked straight away. I think Sky clocked it aswell. "Jade are you pregnant?" "Um, yeah!" she said bare shy and biting her lip. Now it was my turn to suffocate her with my hugs. "Does he know?" I asked referring to Dwayne. She shook her head and screwed. "What happened?" Sky asked. "Major argument about this chick he works with, he keeps flirting with her!" "Hmm, what exactly happened?" I asked. Jade had tendency to see things no one else saw and I knew somewhere along the line she jumped to conclusions and being pregnant didn't help either. After she explained even Sky clocked she was full of shit. She had actually jumped to conclusions and Dwayne being the gentle man he was just let her yap on until she was finished then laughed which pissed her off. So basically, she had shouted at him it weren't even an argument. "Jade your so stupid." We laughed at her and forced her to call Dwayne she said sorry and they started flirting on the phone. YUCK. She was going to break the good news to him when she saw him. I wanted to be there cuz my bessie was going to be a daddy! I felt myself crying, soon, we were all crying. It was too emotional. "I love you arseholes! And I wish the best for all of you! I don't wanna loose none of you cuz you all mean so much to me." I said in tears. I loved them all too much! "Hell no! your gonna see me when your graduating saying bare loud in front of all them posh peoples. THAT'S MY FUCKING SISTER!!!!!!!!!!" We laughed huddled up and cried harder. This was our last summer together cuz I weren't gonna be seeing them much and Sky was on some adventurous tip and was travelling around the world with Geren. My Egyptian breddah! I felt like I was losing something important in my life but at the same time I was excited about the new things I would be experiencing and the pressure! I was ready to kick ass. One late August, Dwayne was having a barbeque to celebrate Jade's pregnancy. I had never seen him so excited. Every second he would hug her and put his hand on her belly. I started crying again. It was too emotional. All our friends were there and Priceless had come with my god daughter Rayne! She was adorable and I swear down Lil De was tryna flirt with her. I decided to hook them up in 20 years time. I laughed at my dumbness. I looked around at everyone, seeing how they had all matured, how responsible they had all become and it amazed me that 4years ago, they were the same ones in secondary school, in class bussing joke, making fun of the Art teacher that looked like a transsexual. Rah! I thought about how young we all were, with the hair, thinking contacts were the shit, the shubz, cinema's, water fights, silly lil notes being passed around and the "mandem". I remembered when the "manz" were coming up, young immature just on the lash and dash tip or as Dwayne would put it beat and dip. I looked now and saw mature men and women. Who had settled down, focused on what they wanted and going and working hard to get it. Wow, I was so impressed and proud! I felt like a mother. Jordan was there aswell, he had made really good friends with De-Andre and they were now tite now brothers. Him and Dwayne dissed each other aswell. Everytime they would argue bare heads would crowd and laugh cah it was that funny. He had moved on from me and found a girl, I didn't talk to her but she looked nice enough... O wow, a new life...new start with my baby. We'd been through a lot of shit. A whole lot of it and still stayed strong. I loved this guy with all my heart and soul. He'd gone out of the drug game, bought a proper nice house out in the country, waiting 4more years for me to finish school then we were moving in. I felt so emotional... In the back of my head however, I wondered if this was the end. If this was all over. I went back into the empty house to wash my hands because Leesha had poured ketchup all over it. "Mummy loves you baby!" "Love you mummy!" she said before darting away in her lil dress. I laughed. I finished washing my hands then heard some weird noises coming from Dwayne's room. I grinned and decided to see wag1. I could hear the sound of laughter outside. This was a complete contrast to the silence in the house. I open the door and it creaked and opened. I gasped as I recognised who was sitting there he grinned at me and I couldn't even scream because my body was that paralysed.

"Hello Rayne...babes I missed you" he said and got up and shut the door... "RAYNE!!!" I opened my eyes to find Marcel staring at me intently. "You were screaming, I think you had a nightmare" he stated. I nodded and cried. "Awww shhh come here" he said rubbing my back. "I miss them M...I really do" I said crying into his chest. "Shhh...what was the dream about?" he asked. I told him and he frowned. "that's the weirdest dream ever" he said and I laughed. "Who was the guy who made you scream?" he asked. "Umm, I don't wanna think about it" I replied. He nodded. After a couple of minutes I pretended to be asleep and he silently walked out. I began crying again. "God why am I suffering so much?" I asked him. I expected an answer but at that present moment when I asked that question, it was like the answer was there all along. It was like my heart knew it but wanted my mind to voice it...it made sense. It was the simplest answer ever. It wasn't suffering... it was LIFE I just needed to hang on for the rollercoaster ride. I realised that there would be ups and downs and at that present moment in time I was experiencing the cons of this ride. I just needed to "ride the storm." I prayed everything would be okay for my children because my heart hurt every time I thought of them. I slept again. I woke up the next morning I felt like a new person...I smiled a REAL smile. For the 1st time in years, I felt my age. I decided to LIVE for me and no one else. Go Rayne! I whispered to myself and laughed. New me. New life... I didn't need a new love... my heart hadn't recovered fully. One week later... I'd done something really foolish. I'd taken the train and SLEPT. Now, I was lost, it'd gone to the last stop and I got told to kick! I excited the train station and it was raining. Some weird weather! And I thought the UK was bad! I was in some next endz... it looked like some slum. Shit. I paged Marcel. He didn't call me. I paged everyone I could and no-one replied back. then I realised that everyone was at school...I'd gone to the doctors because I had high blood pressure... I decided to page someone. He called me. "Shawty!?" his deep voice rumbled through my "cell". I smiled. "Erm I'm lost" I said to him. "Where?" he asked. I told him. "Ite, stay on the phone I'll be right there" he said. "Okay." "Explain to me exactly how you ended up in the East Coast." He said laughing. "Huh?" "We're in the west coast Vancouver, girl you in the East coast Halifax! How yo ass end up there?" he asked. "Your gassing!" I said. "Huh?" he asked. Then I remembered. "Oh ha-ha, your shitting me" I said. "Say what?" he asked. "Omygosh! are you chatting shit?" I asked. "Serious az hell" he replied back. I waited for a good hour and he made me go in diner and tell some next man I was waiting for him and that it was "all on him". I hated code talk. He finally came and I watched his swagger. Fuck me! I went outside to him and he put me in his car while he quickly went inside to talk to the man. He came back and we started driving. "So Rayne...tell me about you." He stated. "17, moved from UK, living my life" I stated. "That's all you shawty?" "Yup! That's all me" I said smiling. "I like that" he said. "You aint got no choice" I said back. He laughed. We got back to my bits and we drove in some next direction. "Where we going?" I asked him. "Mines" was all he said and drove faster. I hugged the seat belt. He saw this action and banged on his steering wheel with laughter. "Please concentrate on the road" I said. "Huh?" he pretended not to hear and looked at me. "Don't look at me look at the road!" I shouted scared. "Huh?" "OMARI I WILL KILL YOU" I shouted at him. He laughed. "Gimme a kiss..." "Huh?" "Give a Nigga a kill before I crash this shit" he stated still looking at me. I looked at the road and gulped. "Your bluffing" he was wasn't he? "Ite, baby I am" he said and put both hands on his head. "Oh shit, okay I'll kiss you." I said. "Ite." He leaned in to me. "Erm stop the car please...I mean stop it first" I said to him. The car stopped immediately. He licked his lips expectantly. I pouted and screwed him. "It aint a thang" he whispered his lips coming closer. I moved in to him and he laid his soft lips on mine. Shit! O wow... o shit! His soft lips contrasted the rough way in which he kissed me. I loved it. I run my tongue over his gold tooth. Somehow, this guy unbuckled my seat belt and put my on him using just one hand. That turned me on even

more... I straddled him and we continued to kiss. Hearing myself moan was the wake up calling I needed to break the kiss. I stared at him and he did the same. Lust filled in his eyes. He dropped me back into my seat and I sat there out of breath. Barely able to move... he even had to re-do the seat belt for me. He laughed as we hit the road again. "What's so funny?" I asked. "It was on cruise control" he said laughing harder. "Pardon?" "The car...it was on cruise control" he said. I knew what cruise control was! Omygosh the prick! "YOU ASSHOLE!" I said to him and he laughed. "You liked that doh didn't you?" I remained silent. A couple of minutes later he parked infront of this house. "Why are you called Snowman?" I asked him whilst he opened the door to his yard. "Know what snow is?" he asked turning on the lights. "Nope" I replied. "Lemme school you in the drug game..." he said. Then all dropped like a flippin penny. "You sell drugs?" "Used to... well, your boy has to once in a while...and they not drugs! They recreational sweets with strong addictions" he said laughing. "And ma, it aint drugs I sell, its coke" he said smiling and taking off his clothes. "Your back!" I gasped. "Oh that" he said not bothered. "Can I touch it?" I asked going closer. He nodded and chuckled. It was bare scarred like... "What happened?" I asked. "Prison..." he stated calmly. "Does it hurt?" I asked still shocked. "From time to time" I nodded. "O wow..." was all I could say staring at him. "Spider man!" I said. "Say what" "Spider man!" I said excitedly. "Explain" "Cuz when you 1st took off your top that's what came into my mind, all your tattoos..." I stated. He laughed. "You have so many" I said. "Hey you have a tear." "Three." He said casually. "You've killed three people?" I asked in shock. "Nah, well...lemme explain...teardrops don't mean that." He said. "I lost my ma in a shoot out" he said touching the 1st one. "Killed the sucker who done it in the second one" he said touching it also. "Third is a dot. That's my gang sign" he said. "Erm ..." I said. "You scared?" he asked. "Hell no!" I replied jumping on him. He laughed. "You like danger huh?" he asked brushing his lips against mine. "Danger is my middle name" I said back kissing him fully. So much for no to allowing myself to like or love someone... Snowman came in my world and let the whole damn thing rain! So now Snowman and I had been doing a ting for about a month and we hadn't fucked but he was used to getting pussy and I'd gotten used to no dick so he was sexually frustrated and I always teased him. It was fun. Marcel had this talk with me about "watching" my back. I always pretended to listen but I didn't care. What he did in his spare time was of no interest to me. Unless he was cheating, I didn't give a shit! I was in my bed doing my work when someone slapped my bum. I turned around ready to cuss when I saw that gold tooth. Argh! It turned me on!!!! "Baby girl wassup?" he asked sitting on my bum. "Get off!" I managed to breathe out. He laughed but got up doh. He lifted me up effortlessly. Damn, his strength was another thing that drove me crazy. "How was school?" he asked. "Hard...which is why I'm doing my work" I commented. He sat there in silence as I went through my work. I eventually finished. "Done?" he asked. I nodded. He got up shed his jacket and locked my bedroom door. "What you doing?" I asked. "Nothing baby" he said smiling at me. He picked me up again and lay me on top of him. I straddled him and started wining on him. He held my waist tighter and I grinned at him. "Bad girl..." "Pussy boy!" I said to him and I laughed. I was seriously a funny person. I'd contemplated starting my own comedy show. "When we fuck I'll show you what paradise means" he said trying to get into my jeans. I slapped him and he didn't stop just reversed the roles. He was now on top of me and I kissed him. He took off his top and shit! O lord, his body. The sheer size of his chest! Fuckin hell. He took off my top and I let him. "Is Marcel here?" I asked. "Popped out to Northern". I nodded. Northern was their Tesco. No-one else was home. "Damn ma!" he said biting my nipples thru my bra. I moaned and he took off my bra. He took of my jeans and I dunno why I didn't stop him. "Omari damn..." I muttered as he begun to finger me. He switched it up again. He got off me and allowed me to stand up. "Explore" he said bare smiling. I took of his jeans and saw his dick poking out of his trousers. I grinned at him and he grinned back. "Lemme see what I'm dealing with" I said to him. "A big boy" he replied back. "Hmm, I can tell" I said. We were both just grinning at each other for bare long. Then we burst out laughing realising how corny we both sounded. Regardless, his boxers came off and I slowly pushed myself down unto his dick. Lemme tell you if there was a gateway to heaven, riding his dick showed me paradise. Shit. I was in sub consciousness whilst doing so. He switched up roles without having me come off his dick. My guy had mad experience. It reminded me of someone...hmm...but my mind couldn't remember who the person was. Fuck that! I was enjoying my time with Omari. We continued for bare long and he buss on my bum and thought it was extremely funny. I hopped in the shower and came back to find him gone. I laughed. He belled me to apologise because "bihnezz was poppin" I loved the way he said business. Just sounded so damn hood. I sat down with my work and continued where I left off. It'd been a couple of months since I'd been in Canada and Christmas went by really fast. I'd never felt that at home before. I'd done my Seasonal Exam and knew I passed. I just didn't know how good the pass was. I had to

wait until February to get my results. Omari was on some next big time drug contract thing and he was telling me about it. I knew what he was doing was wrong but who was I to come out no-where and tell him to end it. It was his job and I weren't looking to make homie redundant. Everything was actually going well. I'd made more friends and came across more other people that were "feelin me" but I was fuckin going out with a King Pin and it was funny to see mandem were shook to holla at me cuz they knew Snowman for his reputation. We made such a cute couple we really did. I loved taking pictures with him. He was just so big. Everything about him was menacing and he was just fucking hot. We were in his car and he'd tried to crash the car again but this time I knew it weren't on fucking cruise control and I was shook out of my head. His gold teeth shone in the darkness. "Where are we going you fool?" I asked. "Baby just wait and see" he said and continued driving. We drove for a good 15miles more and he stopped in this urbanised area. "What is this?" I asked. "Shhh..." he said. "Put this on" he said throwing a blindfold at me. I gave him that "really" look. "Baby girl just do this for yo man" Ahh jheeze. His accent was mad. I loved everything about him. He was not the most perfect person but I loved everything that came with him all the same. I put on the blind fold and he held my waist directing me places. After a bit we stopped. "Step" he said and I did. "Am I going on a plane?" I asked confused. It felt like an air space. "Shhh, you talk too much ma" I stayed silent. I was made to sit down and he took off the blind fold. "What's this Spider?" I asked. Yeah, I'd taken to calling him Spider. He hit his cheek and laughed. "Your so hard to please." He laughed. "What is it?" I asked. "You'll see soon enough ... a friend of mine done me a lil favour" he said winking. We were on a jet and I was getting kinda scared he was gonna kill me and dump me in the ocean. I dared not express what was running through my head or he would have probably done it knowing how mad he was. "Where are we going?" I asked after like an hour in the air. Shhh. He said kissing me. "We're nearly there" he whispered and I nodded and gulped. He was probably working for Jordan and they'd teamed up to kill me. I asked just in case. "Do you know someone called De-Andre? American/Spanish guy, blue eyes that turn black from time to time, long hair, tall, amazing smile?" "Nah but I know Omari Trey Palmer Hueton, big ass dude, nice arms, tall too boo...amazing smile and hung on a chick called Rayne" he said. I smiled. "I like him a lot" I replied. I was gonna kiss him when he jumped. "What?" I asked kinda scared. "We're here" he said happily. I nodded and held on tight to him as the plane well, erm jet landed. We got out and walked to a car. I groaned. "AGAIN?" I asked. He shook his head. "Its for you boo" he said grinning. "Huh?" "Its yours baby" he said folding his huge arms across his chest. I felt to jump on him and eat him there and then. He was just so sexy. "The car?" I asked. He nodded. I didn't know or care what make it was fuck, it was a peng car. White on the outside with red interior. Cars did not get any better than what was staring at me. "Aww, thank you Spider" I said hugging him. "There's a slight problem" I said to him. "Hmm?" "I cant drive" I said to him. "Ima teach you!" he said lifting me on to the hood of the car. I opened my legs and he came inbetween them. "Wanna know why I brought you here?" he asked. I nodded. "See this space?" he asked. I nodded. "I bought it." He said. I nodded not really comprehending what he was saying. "You don't understand do you?" I shook my head and he laughed. "Ima build us a nice house" he said smiling. I had tears in my eyes. "This is the nicest surprise ever" I said hugging him. "Look up" he said and I did. What I saw took my breath away. Every single star in the sky was out. It looked so amazing. It really did. It was nothing special but it was the perfect night. Just what I needed and I loved it. I hugged him. He'd done something for me I never knew he could do. He'd found the keys and fixed up, nah this guy had healed my fucked up, broken, earth quake aftermath heart. He'd fixed everything and was making me happy. Everything was back in place like a puzzle finally fixed. Damn, wow, for the very first time in my life I could confidently say I was on cloud 9 and I knew for definite I wasn't not coming off that cloud anytime soon. One year later. I was now 19... and Snowman was still in my life adding to the constant drama positively. Even my auntie loved him. My mum and dad had come to see me and my mum had slapped me a couple of times and brought back my PAST life. For the most amazing reason, I didn't listen. I mean I did but I felt nothing. No pain, no regret. Just happiness. I had left them in good hands. They would be around two going on three years old. Damn! She'd gone and seen Indya and was pleased and so was I. My dad was going mad with happiness after he saw my certificates and saw I'd gotten a full scholarship to go to Uni. I knew I was smart but omy... a scholarship. Bun that! A full scholarship. That just made me feel like I was a budding Eistien. I'd finished school was had done a 6month course at the university. Miraciously, I'd passed that course aswell. On a full time course I was doing 3years of law. Shit! It was all hard work and some play for three years and I was excited about it! I was with Spider walking about the hood and once again everything felt right. He dropped me off home and I went straight to sleep. I woke up the next day and went to clean myself. On my way back, a conversation stirred my heart. I immediately got scared and run into Marcel's room for an explanation. "What happened?" I asked close to tears. "O shit" they all muttered. Loads of his friends were in his bedroom. "Snowman got caught up in a shoot out" I was confused, angry. Everything. No, I didn't know what I was. What was I? "Is he dead?" "Naw" they replied. "What hospital?" I asked. Silence. "WHAT HOSPITAL?" "Well..." One guy called Jeremiah started to say until Marcel screwed him. "CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?" I asked almost crying again. "Um, he's been arrested." Came a reply. "Okay. When's he coming out?" I asked. "He's not" "Sorry

come again" I said. "He's not...not for a very long time." "How long?" I asked. I listened in astonishment as they explained what had happened. Basically it weren't his fault and someone had set him up and he'd gotten shot. It was that distorted. Everyone was saying different things. For the rest of the week I was in a foul mood and didn't want to talk to anyone. I missed him so much! I werent even allowed to visit him. He was in a police cell until he went on trail and I found that just stupid! I wanted to see him so bad. To touch him. Everything. Now he was in the inside some dickheads who were too scared to try it before were now making advances at me, touching me in places and expecting me not to react. I hold my fucking own and I werent gonna let anyone except Spider touch me that way. I stayed quiet doh because there was a lot of buzz on the street. To make matters worse I was leaving for uni during that week and I weren't going to see Spider. I was even afraid that lectures would mean I would miss his trail. Everything was so fucked up for me. My blood pressure went up again that week and I was warned to stay stress free if I wanted to live to 20. I was silent in the car as we drove to British Columbia university. I was going to live and breathe that place for a good 3years. I would graduate at 22. I prayed to God for a successful piloting throughout my time there and for my baby. I really missed him so much! We got there and there were loads of people like me exploring the place and what not. I looked up then around and made up my mind. I was putting my all into EVERYTHING from then on. No distrations...not even Spider. I was doing this for the both of us. Therefore, the fruits of my labour would positively outshine the negativity of previous labours... I liked my logic. Smiled and stepped inside. "Welcome to your new world" Marcel whispered kissing me on my cheek. I nodded and took another deep breath. 2months later. I regretted going to Uni and picking Law. Nah. I lied. I loved it. I loved everything about it and everyone there. I hardly paid for anything because I'd made influential friends. One was a part time hairdresser called Andrea, that was my hair sorted. Free of charge. Another, my room mate whom I loved to death because she was so damn funny, Karina was doing a fashion major, clothes sorted. She would just randomly hand me clothes cuz like, I was sick like that... Spider was still in pen. I'd spoken to him and felt better. He'd gotten a year and a bit, which was quite lucky because there were witnesses there and a whole loada politics. I missed him loads! Studying law is one of the hardest things I'd ever had to do in my whole life. Imagine my horror when I was given a 1000+ book to read and told to remember 20cases and go into specific detail in 3months. I actually gave up until Karina went into full swing on how my life would end out if I dropped out. Believe she went deep and I picked up the book straight away. She grinned at me. We went clubbing one Friday and Lord, I danced everything away. I'd never actually danced that hard before and people thought I was drunk. I hadn't even taken a sip of alcohol because of my blood pressure. I was just letting all my emotions out, in the weidest way. It felt good. A couple of months later we'd broken up from Uni for a whole 4months. 4months to do what? Oh I know! Study! Plus we were going on holiday to Brazil since it was like around the corner. I laughed at my own joke. Around the corner! I was actually funny... I got back to my home and everyone had grown up! I was shocked and surprised. I smiled at them and questions came at me from all angles. My baby was coming out in a month and I would be there to meet him. I was so excited. I'd even gone lingerie shopping just for him. I was proud of myself...cuz I'd gotten some seriously sexy underwear that I knew was gonna drive him crazy. For the rest of the month as I waited for my baby to come home, I cleaned up the house found myself a job babysitting spoilt children. HEY! The money was all good so I werent even complaining. It was Friday and I didn't even know when he was coming back because he said Satuday and Marcel said Sunday so I was a bit confused. I went to bed and wore his t-shirt. I inhaled in his scent. Damn, I missed this guy. I was sleeping in his yard cuz it was that bad. I was deep in sleep when I heard noise. I got shook straight away and got up, running to the door. I carefully opened it, it was silent again. I got more shook and walked slowly down the stairs in the darkness. I could hear my own heart beating. I got to the bottom and stood motionless. "Bo!" I heard from behind. I screamed. "Shhhh" he said lifting me up. "Fuck you scared me" I sighed loving the feeling of being in his arms. He dropped me gentley and I jumped on him. He laughed. "You missed me huh?" "Yes!!!" I exclaimed. "You lied to me, said you were coming tomorrow" I said to him. "Wanted to surprise you" he winked in the darkness. He carried me up the stairs. "Wait here...I need to shower real quick" I nodded. As soon as he was out of the room I turned on the light and began searching for the lingerie. I heard his foot steps coming down the hallway and jumped on the bed. The door opened. "You okay baby?" he asked looking around. I nodded. He came in and took off his top and picked up a towel. I watched his chest in amazement. His body was just so amazing and cuz he'd been pen aswell, he looked like he'd worked out every fuckin day. He saw me looking and laughed. "After I shower baby" he winked and walked off. I got back up and got naked and wore them sexy knickers and bra. I looked in the mirror and it looked rah. If I were a boy I would fuck me aswell because I looked as hot as hell. And that was saying something. I quickly found the candels and started lighting them. I mean allow planning something for weeks and having to do it in a couple of minutes. I placed the candels everywhere in the room and went to turn of the light. I was walking back to the bed when my foot hit something. "Ouch" I groaned hopping on my leg holding

the other. "Rayne?" I turned around and saw him, chest bare towel across his waist. He looked at me with some hungry look in his eyes. I laughed. He came closer and I stayed still only breathing. "You missed me huh?" I nodded and gulped. He did suttin to me I could never find words to explain. "You missed me too?" I whispered. "Hmm, lemme show you how much" he said lifting me up with one hand and dropping me on his bed. I sighed. I swear, his sheer strength another thing that turned me on about him. It just seemed so damn primitive to me. The way he talked and the way he just walked around like he owned shit. I moaned, oh gosh. He could do anything he wanted to me and I wouldn't even complain. "So baby got all dressed up" he stated and I nodded and he took off his towel. I swear down if I was a year older with high blood pressure I woulda had a straight up heart attack. He was like expensive shoes... you save up a lot for it and hope it lasted you for ever. He came directly on top of me and slowly kissed me. Gosh! My panties were wet already. "I missed you ma" I nodded. "I missed you too." I replied taking of my bra. He stopped me. "What's wrong?" I asked confused. "I've waited for this a year baby, lemme do my thang" I gasped as he slid his fingers inside of me and starting slowly moving them in and out. "Ah shit, Spider" I whispered. How could I possibly say anything else when he was doing everything to me. He slowly went down on me kissing and touching me everywhere. Combination of his tongue inside of me, doing things I never imagined could made me just sigh in pleasure. I was babbling in languages I never knew possible either. At one point I think I was speaking Hebrew. Real talk, this guy made my speech universal on the build up to sex and he hadn't even sexed me yet. Damn. After a very long time, he came back up with a grin on his face. I watched that twinkle in his eye. I bit my lip, and he watched me get my energy back. He'd drained me to the fullest After about a minute, he continued to tease me and it was pissing me off. He would put it in then take it back out. I cannot tell you how painful that was. It was annoying! "Please..." I begged. He just kissed me and didn't reply. "Please what?" he asked. "Please put it on me" I said. He chuckled. "I definitely will" he grinned and pushed himself into me. I closed my eyes. "Open your eyes baby" he whispered against my lips. I did and wow... I began crying. Not because it hurt, but because it felt so damn good. "Why you crying?" he asked looking concerned. "Cuz it feels so good" I said back tryna stop myself. The tears carried on coming. He smiled a warm smile and completely dedicated himself to showing me the meaning of good love. We weren't having sex but making love. I mean, not the kind of love you come across and are able to let go off. For the first time in a long time, that night I knew something I'd been trying to avoid. I loved this guy but was scared to tell him. He continued to do it to me for a long time, until he had me screaming at the top of my lungs begging him not to stop. O wow. A long time after, I was standing naked staring out of his window with a lot of things going on in my mind. I wanted to tell him. I really did. I couldn't. What if he broke my heart? I thought to myself. But then I realised living life without mistakes is not living at all, because although I was breathing in and out, and my heart was working, I was dead inside because I wasn't allowing myself happiness. I turned to him and spoke the words on my heart and mind "I love you" I whispered I meant it and I'd said it and it made so much sense. He froze. "You do?" he asked looking unsure. "Yup" I replied. "Come here" he said. I walked over to the bed and he put me on top of him. He then put my hand on his heart. "Can you feel it?" he asked. I nodded. "What do you feel?" "Its beating really fast" I replied and he smiled. "It's all you. You make my heart do that...I love you too baby" he replied. I felt tears in my eyes again. "Don't cry" he said. "This is happy cry" I replied smiling. "Oh okay" then he said smiling aswell. I put my head on his chest and fell asleep. Wow, he loved me! I couldn't have asked for anything else. I wondered if my past would ever catch up to me... I mean, it was only a matter of time... We spent the next week being silly and having sex in the most public of places. I was trying on some expensive but nice pair of Dior jeans when he came in the changing rooms. "Go away" I whispered to him tryna make him get out. "Nah, boo, continue" he said slapping my exposed bum. "Ouch" I said. He slapped it harder and I pushed him. He laughed and leaned back against the mirror eyeing me. I put on the jeans... "Do you like it?" I asked him. He nodded, staring at my bum. "Try the top" he said grinning. "Okay..." I said hesitantly. He had that smile on his face. The one that told you he was up to no good. I took of my current top and was about to it on when he suddenly came behind me caressing my breasts. I tried not to moan. "Spider...stop" I said trying to make him stop. He didn't and smiled. He turned me around so I was facing the mirror watching what he was doing to me. He took of the jeans and my panties aswell. "What if we get caught?" "Then we goin jail" he whispered laughing. I turned around and he quickly undid his trousers and we kinda got jiggy. "Shhh" he said sexing me. "I cant help it!" I said tryna hold in my moans. "I cant believe this! I was a good girl until I met you" I said kissing him. Hmmm. "Bend over" and I did and O LORD, did things really start going on. "Hurry up!" I said to him. He laughed and continued. "Spider pleaseee! Someone could be coming" I said to him. He stopped and put on his clothes and I groaned. "Why did you stop?" he laughed. "Cuz you asked me to" he said simply. I looked at myself in the mirror. Hair messy, looking flushed and shit. He helped me put back on my clothes and I was scared to go back out. "Bad girl" he said smiling and lifting me up. I put my arms around his shoulders. "Hmm, maybe its cuz I'm rolling with a bad boy" I kissed him. He put me back down and pushed me out. I half closed my eyes. The people that worked there gave me a knowing look as Spider paid for what I got. I walked out feeling embarrassed as hell. We got in his car and he wasn't heading home. "Where are you going?" I asked. "To finish what we started" he replied eyeing the road. We drove to some next deserted place and he dragged me to the of his car and we finished what we started.

On the way back, I couldn't stop smiling. I was so happy for no reason and he noticed that. "Why you smiling?" "I'm happy" He chuckled "Sure you are baby" and winked. My heart went all mushy again. O gosh! I loved this guy. "I love you!" I said kissing his cheek. "Don't make me crash my car now" he said. I laughed and sighed as he used his free hands to hold mine. I'd never felt this content before. He made me happy! I was back at school and found the work overwhelimg. I actually broke down and went back home. I knocked and Marcell opened with one shocked look on his face. "What's happeneing?" "I cant do it" I replied crying. "Its too much work" I added. He let me in and I run inside crying. "Cum'on Rayne you can" "No, I give up. I cant" I said sobbing. I walked into my room and shut the door and continued crying. How did I think I was? Superwoman. I thought I could do it but I obviously couldn't. everything had just pilled up over time and gotten to me. There came a knock at the door. "Come in" I sobbed. I run to hug him as soon as I saw his face. "I'm so scared" "Of what?" he asked. "Failure..." "Well, you giving up now is failure" "Spider I cant do it!" I said crying harder. "Shhh... calm down baby" he said making me sit on his lap like a little child. I didn't mind because I felt safe with him, like nothing could touch me. "Rayne you've worked so hard for this and now your giving up? If you didn't deserve to be there why would they let you in on a FULL SCHORLASHIP? I mean who gets that?" "I dunno, clever people?" "And you are clever! And I know you can do this, hell, I need my boo to be a lawyer because I got so many charges hangin on me" he said making me laugh. "So you going back?" he asked kissing my cheek. I nodded. "Thank you Spider" "Thanks what my web is here for" he replied smiling. I laughed. He made me laugh with his silly lil jokes. Another year gone and I had a couple more months till I graduated. I was working on my final pieces of cases when I got a call. It was nearly midnight. It was Spider. I smiled and picked up. "What up baby?" he asked. "Working" I replied sighing. I loved hearing his voice. "Just a couple more months!" he announced. "I know but I miss you so much!" I said to him. "You gon' see me soon anyway" "I know but...I cant help missing you." "You know what they say about absence..." "My heart is definitely growing fonder." He laughed. "You're my everything." He said randomly. "I see...you're almost my everything" "Why's that?" "Cuz if I give you everything that I am, when you leave you'll take everything with you and I'll be left empty." I said to him. He stayed silent on the phone. "But I'm not going anywhere." "We're all human and we make mistakes..." "And humans are also very faithful creature." "We still make mistakes." "Oh yeah, I forget to tell you..." "What?" I asked him. "I'm not human I'm a vampire and we live forver...I think ... so my love is eternal and we are very faithful creatures" he said. I laughed. He made me laugh he was so... unique. "Just don't bite me baby" I played along with him. "Uh-uh, only biting will be in places you love." He said his voice lowering. "Is that so baby boy?" I replied. Then my door opened and my roomie stared at me with a smile on her beautiful face. "Fuck off Karina!" I said tryna sound harsh. I failed and she laughed. "Tell lil mama I said wassup." Spider said in my ear. "Umm Rina?" "That's my name baby! You just keep on saying it." She said. I laughed. "Not even, Spi--, I mean Omari said hi." She run to me got the phone and started talking to him. I just shook my head and lay back. She gave the phone back and I yawned. "Baby you tired?" he asked. "Nahh" I lied. He laughed. "You cant lie to me...I'll leave you to sleep and call you tomorrow." He said. "Nooo!" I protested. "Rayne?" "Yeah?" "Go to bed and sleep okay?" "Okay." I replied like the obedient child I was. "I love you Spider." "Yeah, love you too Rayne, now close your eyes think of me and sleep" he said softly and I locked off. I got changed and dropped in my bed. I fell asleep instantly. I got a first class degree. Yes! I'm that sick! But I was over the moon and so was everyone. I felt slightly sad that the people in my past life weren't there to celebrate it with me. But hey, life goes on and Rayne must take lead. Everything seemed to be going good for me. I had a job amazingly and everything was just going good. Life was perfect for the first time in a long time. My mum and dad were on some next showing off tip and were broadcasting my gruadaution all over Ghanaian radios! (CAN YOU BELIEVE?) I laughed as I thought of it. A letter came in the post and I shredded it when I saw the stamp was from the UK. I didn't want to go back to that life and I didn't want ANYTHING to disturb the life I was living. It was a nice July night and there was not a single cloud in the sky. My baby had taken me to dinner and I really had to dress up for it aswell. He looked so sexy wearing his all white Hugo Boss suit. Made me want to jump

on him and have some fun. I bit my lip and watched him watching me. It was just so darn romantic. He was now 100% out of the drug game and was on construction and rea

l estate where he bought and sold houses. Oh, did I mention, the dream house he invisioned for us was now a reality? Yup! This guy had gone and made all his dreams come true and made me happy in the process. So now, we lived together and a big ass house with Spider's dog called "homeboy". He refused to change the dogs name and I didn't understand why the hell someone would name a dog "homeboy". "What you thinking about?" "Nothing...I was miles away." I replied smiling at him. He laughed. "Have I ever told you I love you?" he asked me. "Yup, but say it again, feels nice to hear it." He looked into my eyes took my hands and told me he loved me. Three words, which I cherished and adored. He made me sane. I can honestly say that if he weren't in my life, I would go crazy. "I love you too Spider! You mean the world to me... I love you so much!" I said with tears in my eyes. I was understanding how much he meant to me and wow, I felt on top of the world. Nothing could stop me. Or so I thought... After dinner, we went to a hotel and I didn't understand why. He led me to a room and it was like a dining room. It was dark. "Turn on the light!" I said to him. He chuckled and turned it on and omyGod, I cried. Everyone was there. Even my mum and dad! And that made me cry harder. A big banner went across the room that said "Congratulations on your graduation". I hugged Marcel who was smiling at me. I couldn't stop crying. It was just the most thoughtful thing anyone could ever have done for me. It felt like life kept getting better and better. I migled, danced and laughed my way through the night. At one point Spider forced me to go up on stage and I made this 'lil speech' which had all the females bawling and the mans looking baffled. I was about to walk off when Spider held me back. It didn't even take him that much effort with all his muscles which had me wishing we were by ourselves. He spoke and thanked everyone. "I know you all came to support Rayne but there's another reason why I done this. About 4years ago I saw an angel..." he said smiling at me. I was grinning hard cuz hey! I was an angel to me and he was angel to me. He continued to talk and I just listened whilst staring at him, hoping my face showed all the love I was feeling and told him I loved him more than I could ever love anyone. "So I'm here, in front of all your friends, and my friends and family asking you to be my wife...Rayne Nelson, will you marry me?" he said going on one knee and opening a velvet box. I tilted my head, trying to hold back my tears. I couldn't. "What about my mum?" I whispered. He grinned. "Already talked to your folks..." he said. I nodded. "So? You're kinda scaring me by not answering." He said making me laugh. "SAY YES!" my aunt shouted making everyone laugh. "Yes baby! I'll marry you!" I said. I don't know anything about rings but this one was VERY SHINY and looked expensive. I was scared to even wear it; regardless, he slid the ring on my finger. I sighed and he got up and kissed me. I had to hold back cuz my dad was somewhere in the crowd watching. For some random weird reason. I had a flashback. A very bad moment for one aswell. "Its okay. Love is blind remember that." "What's that supposed to mean?" "It means that you could fuck 100man and I would still stay with you. I love you and I want to marry you. I want you to be my wife till I cant fuck anymore. I want you to be my wife until my very last breath. I want to be with you until the end of time."

De-Andre's words. I never thought anyone could move me in the way he did but Spider had. And I needed to move on. And I had. So why was it that thoughts of him bordered my mind? I quickly shrugged off my thoughts of De and came back to the present. My future hubby. "I got it!" I shouted dumbfolded still looking at the paper. "Spider I got it!" I said again. "For real?" he shouted coming down the stairs. "Yes! For real! This is so amazing, I don't believe it!" I finally saw his big chest infront of me and his beautiful face smiling down at me. "I'm so proud of you." He said, still smiling. "I'm so proud of me! I cant believe it! I mean why me?" "Because you deserve it! That's why." I hugged him again. "Mmmm." I commented breaking the hug and staring at him intently. He had a mysterious look on his face. "What's mmm?" "You, you look edible." I grinned. "Come eat me then baby." He said lifting me and carrying me up the stairs. "Spider?" "Uh-huh" "Did you have anything to do with me getting that job?" "NO!" "Liar. Remember you told me the manager was your uncle." I said to him. He dropped me on the bed and scratched his head. "No way Omarion! Why! I told you not to threathen him." I said to him. "I didn't threathen him!" he said grinning. "Yes you did boy!" I said to him. He laughed. "What did you tell him?" I asked. "If he didn't hire you, I would do everything in my power to make him bankrupt." He said. I laughed. "I love you, just don't do that again." He started kissing me and I couldn't help but sigh. He was so perfect! Afterwards I was resting my head on his chest and I was just feeling so darn uilty for having to lie to my man. He was everything I wanted and needed but yet I was jeaopardising any possible future with him by lying. I really wanted to tell him the truth but my mouth wouldn't form the words and the brain was not allowing me to open my mouth either. "Spider?" I asked taking my head from his chest and looking into his eyes. His eyes! The way he looked at me made me feel like I was the most important thing in the world. It made me feel un top of the world. Like no one could touch me. Like I was nvincible! "Rayne." He stated smiling, until he saw the tears run down my face. "What's wrong baby?" he asked lifting me up effortlessly and laying me on him so I was staring directly into his loving eyes. Why me? I asked myself. Always me! I found something perfect and ALWAYS had secrets. "Nothing." I lied. He sighed because we both knew I was lying. Regardless he brushed my hair away from my face and kisses away my tears. "I love you, I really do, I don't know what I would do if I lost you. I'm sorry for anything bad I've done to you." I said to me. He chuckled. "You haven't done anything bad to me, before I met chu my life was fucked! Like hardcore over, then I saw you sitting there smiling at a Nigga. Damn, your beautiful smile had me thinking about making you my wife, your everything good in my life Rayne. Don't forget that or let anyone tell you different. I realise that I may make mistakes and me gon' fight but I'll always love you and all I want in this world is to make you happy. Do you believe that?" he asked. I stared at him speechless. He was so... I know I said it before but he was over perfect. The men in my past treated me good but with him I felt like he gave me everything he was. He hid nothing from me and I liked that a lot. 'No secrets' he would always say. Hypocritically I would agree and at the back of my head I was cursing my self for having one. "I believe you Spider. I love you too, you mean everything to me." And so do my children. I thought in the back of my head. A day didn't go by that I didn't think of them. All I wanted for them was happiness. I was well aware that I'd ultimately fucked up as a mother. Straight up fucked up! But I still loved the children I carried 9months in my womb, and in another fucked up way, I still hadn't let go of their father either. All of a sudden I wanted to test him. I wanted to know how well he knew me. How much he loved me. "Tell me something about myself" I said calmly sitting on him him whilst he got up with me holding on to him. I

loved his strength! It was such a big turn on and -. "When you want something you stare at me and bit your bottom lip for about 5minutes then kiss my cheek. After your done you make a Nigga feel bad." He said. I laughed. "Something else." I said to him. Wanting more. Cum on Spider! How well do you know me?How much do you love me? Are you everything you claim to be? I know it was stupid but I really wanted to know. "March 16th" He said quietly. I sat there shocked. How did he know? He knew all along. March 16th was the day the twins were born. "W-what?" I stuttered. He put me to the floor and I held on to him because I felt dizzy all of a sudden. "I said March 16th." "Why?" "Cuz you always depressed when it comes, you cry, call my phone and tell me how much you love me, then continue crying and always apologise at exactly midnight." He said softly . I looked at him stunned. He really did love me. Why? Even though we said no secrets, I'd been hiding something from him and he knew that and didn't pester me. What kind of man was he? "What are you? You know I'm hiding something and yet you don't ask what it is." I said soflty. He smiled and kissed me. And boy did he kiss me. I came back for air breathing hard. "Its just that I know how it feels to incomprehensibly love someone so bad that you are willing to do whatever it takes to see them smile, to make them happy. If that means letting you keep that little part of you a secret, its cool wit' me cuz I know that when the time is right you gon' tell me wassup." I nodded and got on my tip toes and kissed him. "I know I say this all the time, but I really do love you." I said to him. "Shh, it sounds and gets better everytime I hear you say it." He said. I touched the tear tattoed on his face. He smiled and just like that. I forgot everything we were talking about. He was a magician like that! I was working now, making and supervising contracts and what not. I was working for Spider's uncle and he loved me if I say so myself. But he really did like me a lot. Not because I was his nephew's wife to be but because I was a perfectionist and I was working bloody hard. My body was talking to me and I knew what it was saying. I was happy and confused as to what it was telling me. I walked down the stairs into Omari's study where he was on the phone sipping on some Cognac. Alcoholic. I thought to myself laughing. He looked up and smiled. Within a few minutes, he came off the phone. "There's something I wanna tell you." "I got something to say." We both said at the same time and laughed. "You first." He said motioning for me to sit on his lap. I shook my head and blurted. "I'm pregnant!" He looked shocked. I laughed. "You kidding?" he stated looking shocked. "Nope" I replied. "I cant believe this!" he said in shock. I got scared now, didn't he want the baby? I was thinking to myself. He was silent. "Spider...don't you want it?" I asked scared of his reply. He walked towards me and lifted me up. "Course I do! damn! A baby with you is everything I ever wanted." He replied smiling. I kissed his cheek. He put me down and went to fetch his drink. "Now you're gonna have to tell Marcel." He choked on the cognac and began coughing. I laughed. "I'm telling him?" he asked arching his eyebrows. I nodded. "Why me?" he asked. "Because you fertilised my egg." I said back smiling. He laughed. "Then you have to tell my auntie, uncle...possibly mum and dad." He looked like I'd shot him. I laughed harder. "Yo rents?" he asked. I nodded. He put the drink to the side and walked towards me and lifted me up again. "Aint you scared?" he asked me. "Of?" I asked. "This is your first baby..."

Guilt. It dropped on me like a tonne of bricks. I'd been lying to him for a good 4 to 5years and I was still lying... I just didn't know how to tell the truth! I looked into his happy eyes and felt so damn guilty. I began crying. "Why you crying boo?" "Happy..." I lied. He nodded kissed me and spun me around, making me dizzy laughter and temporarily forget about my guilt. He made me stay in bed all day. Not that I was complaining... his sex was too damn good to even think about anything else. I thought about it. "What did you want to tell me?" I asked in the darkness. "You're my enemy." He said laughing. "Not funny." I slapped his chest. "Your gonna have to convince my company to sell our assets to Pc and Morgers." He said. "You tramp!" I said getting up. He laughed harder. "Spider but your not going to sell!" I said to him. "Who said?" he asked back. "But your evil" I said to him again. He laughed harder. "I'd do anything to make you happy." he said. I got happy. Basically, my company was negociating with his to sell of some land he owned, but he wouldn't budge or compromise and since he was the CEO of his company, I had to work really hard to get him to at least compromise. "You have your work cut out." He said laughing. "Not funny." "Very funny." "I don't like you anymore." I said to him. He laughed harder and put his arms around me. Resting his fingers on my stomach. "My baby is about to have our baby." He said softly. "I know! I cant wait. I know its gonna be a boy." I said. "No, its gon' be a girl." He said. "No, your only saying that so you can spoil her." He laughed and we both knew I was right. He would just uneceesarily buy her stuff like he did to me. He spoiled me no joke. He bought me things I just didn't need, but wanted. Anything I looked at and complimented, he would buy it for me. My closet was overflowing with clothes and shoes. He even had to build another closet just for my shoes! Hey, a girl must love her shoes! "I spoil you too boo." "I know! And I don't even give you anything back" "Yeah you do. You give me your love and attention and that's all I'm asking for. Money cant buy happiness." "Philosopher." "I be motherfuckin' greek god." He said making me laugh. How do you tell your mum your pregnant? AGAIN! Well, I was kinda facing that dilemma and it was killing me. I was 2months pregnant and it didn't show but I wanted her to know before she found out, and that would be really bad. Nah, I mean really really bad if she found out instead of me telling her. "Mum?" I asked whilst doing her hair. "Hmmm." "Umm, there's something I wanna tell you." "I am listening." "I'm err..." "WHAT NOW?" she shouted out of no where scaring me and making me jump. "Mum, I'm pregnant." Silence.

Then she got up slowly and shouted in my face. "AGAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNN!?" I nodded. She started pacing and kept quiet. "Does he know?" she asked. "Yes." "No, does he know about the twins?" I shook my head and she smacked the right side of my face. "Ouch." "Hmm, he doesn't know that somewhere over the Atlantic ocean, you have two 7year old children?!" "No." "How do you feel about him not knowing?" "Bad. I want to tell him." "What's stopping you?" she asked. "I don't know, what if he dumps me?" "What if he doesn't? He's going to be your husband so better get round to telling him, speaking of which , they've grown." "Mum please. Don't." I begged. "Leesha is so beautiful, looks so much like you, so much! And her brother, looks like he's your little brother instead of your son! So handsome. Beautiful children." "Mum. Please." "I even got pictures if you want." She said going into her bag. Why was she doing this to me? Why? I continued crying and eventually finished her hair. She left and left a big brown envelop on the coffee table. I looked at it for a long time and sat there just staring at it. The front door opened and I jumped out and reached to get it and find somewhere to hide it. In my haste, I tripped up and knocked the envelop into the fire place. I watched in horror as the flames ate up the brown paper. I began crying and I felt him behind me. I turned around and he looked confused. "My documents just went into the fireplace." I lied. "Aint you got back up boo?" "No." I lied. He scratched his head. "I can help you work back on it." He sighed lifting me up. I hugged his body close to mine and prayed for divine intervention. We were in the his office, me, his lawyer and a few members of his and Pc and Morgers trying to get his big ass to budge. He wasn't having it and kept smiling at me. I wanted to kill him! "It's a 15million dollar profit" I repeated exhasperated. He was such an ass! "And a 10 year loss, if we sell, we loose, we want something in return, or else Ms Heuton, the door is over there." He said poiting to the big oak door. I had to smile when he changed my second name to his. People started whispering. He laughed and said. "Yeah fella's that's my boo right there, and cuz she so damn good, I'm willing to sell but I still want a 20% share of it." He said. Yes! 20% was more than enough for us. We took that deal and quickly signed the papers before he changed his mind. I was happy! 4 months later. I was now 6months pregnant and my belly was big and I was always hungry. We were in the hospital for a routine check up and the doctor was talking about stuff I already knew about. "I don't want to take folic acid." I said.

He nodded and we both agreed that I shouldn't. We were in his car silent when he said something that made my pulse jump. "You sound like you been pregnant before, you knew everything he was saying." "Umm, y-y-yeah, research. Loads of it." I lied. He laughed. I was at work when I got called into the bosses office, I waddled over there and he laughed when he saw me. "Sit down Rayne." I did. O shit, he was going to fire me! I thought. "I've been monitoring you closely since you started working here." Here it goes, he was going to fire me? For what? That was just one time. How did he know? Spider had sneaked in my office for a lil quickie on my desk. Maybe he found out and had been saving it. "You've been working really hard and our profits are on the up." He said. I nodded and sat there confused. "Because of this, we all agreed that you would be the perfect candidate for our over seas clients..." I was lost. What was he talking about? "You look confused" "I am." He laughed. "I need you to go over to our office in London and check everything is going okay, this includes an increase in salary of course..." I couldn't even hear him any more. LONDON? UK? DE-ANDRE JADE DWAYNE. Why me? "Does Omari know?" I asked stupidly. I hoped he was against it. "Yeah, he suggested it and I agreed and so did the board of directors." He said smiling. I struggled to get one of my face. My mouth had gone dry all of a sudden. I thanked him and walked out and cried and prayed. I got home to find him smiling. "He told you?" I nodded. "You happy?" I nodded. "You don't look it." He said sadly. I tried to smile, and what do you know, it worked! He hugged me and I spent the rest of the week in some serious depression. London here I come. A week later and I was at the airport pretending to be all smiles and crying deep inside myself. I looked at the big announcement board and saw that our flight was leaving in 30minutes. This was all my fault cuz I was so scared I locked my self in the bathroom and cried for a good 2hours and came out blaming it on

my hormones. He nodded and took it all in his stride. I boarded the plane nervous as fuck. I couldn't eat but he forced me to drink and sleep. 1st class was a luxury I wasn't enjoying. I drifted off to sleep. "Rayne?" his voice softly called. I opened my eyes to see him smiling. I smiled back. "We're here." He said. "We are?" "We are." He stated holding me up. I sighed. A day later, I was sitting on my bed finalising some work and what not when he came in with a question in his eyes. "Rayne, I want to ask you something, well its more of a telling statement." I nodded. "Do you mind having the baby in the UK?" he asked. "Huh? Why? I thought we were here for a month, I'm here to work and so are you." "No, you work for a month and relax okay, its reached that time where you need to stop working and focusing on being healthy and looking after our baby girl." "Its not a girl!" "We gon' see when she gets pushed out." He said making me laugh. This conversation went back and forth for some time and in the end he won. Excellent! I was now going to spend about 9months of my life living in my past. Just a couple of minutes drive from my old life. Life was good! Well, that was what I thought before all this shit. Apart from that drama, I was having fun baby shopping with Spider. He loved London! He really did and the girls loved him. And I had to screw a couple of them still. We went everywhere and he kept buying stuff for me when I had a lot of stuff already. This guy was relentless. He made me laugh a lot. He really did. O how I loved him! I had to book an appointment with the doctor and he came with me. I sighed. He just wouldn't give up! "Is this your first time having a baby?" he asked. "Yes." I lied. After the appointment, I was stressed. "I left something in the doctors office" I lied. "Ite lemme go get it." "No, its cool!" I shouted. He looked at me weirdly. "I need as much exercise as I can get, lemme go get it." "I'll be in the car then" he said laughing. I nodded and turned back around. I knocked on the door. "Come in." "Umm Doctor Williams?" "Is there something you forget to ask?" "No, umm, when you asked if this was my 1st time having a baby... I kinda lied, it isn't." I said to him. He nodded like he understood. "Thank you for telling me, I was about to look through your medical records anyway." I nodded. "I'm sorry for lying its just that--."

"You don't have to explain yourself to me lil one, its okay." He said smiling. "Thank you!" I said and walked out. He was waiting in the car and my belly was talking to me. "I'm hungry I announced as I tried to get the bloody seat belt all the way round. He laughed and done it for me. "What you wanna eat?" he asked. "Food." I replied. "Like." "Mc Donalds! I want Burger, Ketchup and Milkshake." He grunted. I had many nasty eating habits whilst I was pregnant and the worst one was my burger ketchup and milkshake one. I would pour loads of ketchup into the milkshake, (vanilla preferably) and dip the burger in. He would always watch with disgust on his face not saying anything. It made me laugh. We drove up to Mc Donalds and he had to find somewhere to park and I didn't have time to wait for him so I got out. "RAYNE!" I turned around. "Where you going without no money?" I laughed and remembered I hadn't changed my Canadian dollars in pounds yet. I smiled and went back to get his wallet. I went into the Mc Donalds with a motive. TO EAT. "Mummy I want kahchup." I heard someone say. I smiled at the pronounciation. I ordered my food and was waiting when someone tapped my foot. I looked down. "Excuse could you get me kahchup please." I looked at her stunned. "Leesha don't do that! It's a stranger." Another voice interrupted. I looked to see a boy. My words caught in my throat. "C-could I have ketchup please?" I asked the man behind the counter after he handed me my food. He gave it to me and I handed it back to her with her brother slyly screwing her. "Mummy said don't talk to strangers." "Thank you." She said. "I'm really sorry about the-." Another voice interrupted. I didn't have to turn around to know who it was. I could recognise that voice anywhere. "OMYGOD, YOU!" she said in shock. I looked back tears in my eyes, food on the floor. I bit my lip as we stood there in silence staring at each other. "Rayne?" I heard Spider's voice ask. I looked to see him behind her. She looked at him then at me. "Mummy I'm hungry" Leesha said. "Baby go eat, mummy's coming." She replied.

"Am I interrupting something baby?" he asked. "Nah, I'm cool." I replied smiling at him. "This is an old friend..." I said. Almost whispering. "Wassup? I'm Omari." He said smiling at her and offering his hand. She took it. "I'm Indya." "Yeah, she's Indya." I said sighing