Greetings, newbies as other readers. Oh, I meant adepts and disciples, of course. Pose, pose! I included hyperlinkkind BOOKMARKS. Helps on longer texts... This file should be: ADULTS ONLY or whatever. I usually get insulted and accused anyway... Check last page for additional hints!
Supreme hogwash (PseudoSatanism) 2008Version with AddIns Fake: ArchIpsissimus, as abysmal lord of entropy and folly and (naturally), master above all masters & cloven, renegade red hierophant, by mortal name: © Andrè M. Pietroschek, all my rights here may go to hell
Daath. The abyss. Not always part, but antagonistic “state” or form of being. You should learn the truth about that, IF you indulge cabala?
Idiot which I must be, I can't help it. That tree of life looks like an old and boring boardgame to me. Well, boardgames work in the real world at least... Camelc*** sucking Satanist witch! Horsec*** sucking Satanist witches and Elephantc*** sucking Satanist witches I greet, too. Of course only those who suck my...will ever be called the “real powerful”... Blah Blah Blather! Yo Nuit, suck it!
Revelations without a “livid Lucifer” Ben Shakur in a time, where at best some 2 Pak Shakur is known at all? The purity of my incantation somehow didn't make me rich. I made another for “an ounce of pure cocaine” henceforth. Needless to say, I am still the sick and fat pauper I was as before. Hint of the day: This means, the devil or such didn't grant me, what drug enforcement agencies see as ...not completely legal. Oh damn. Now there is it. I am a pauper (Latin, plural => pauperes). Mentioned as blessed in certain books on our side of the frontier? Which side am I on? Did I fall from heaven because I read the wrong book? Will I get those Tiefling stats as if a roleplaying game became reality? At least a sulphurbathed creature manifesting out of thin air? Well, I am stupid. I am weak. I am degenerated. So how can it be that I simply do no longer make such mistakes? Oh, I am just envious? Ok, another satanic source of energy then. Drawing benefit from what is titled negative emotions. LaVey with thirty years of neither ever realizing the own mistakes, nor correcting them. Yet he claimed magister templi degree in his devils notebook. Countless others, trying so hard. On a party or some old school moralists posturing “orgy” it might have been something. Today? Another memorized cabala by another selfdeclared master. Shouldn't a master bring superior results? Even if I missed all the secret coding, which indeed I ignored. How is it that all those masters never have masterwork results when the topic is in any way related to or declared occult? Speaking straight surely is a weakness, especially among Satanists. Really. All those legends or lores of old show it. Satan, creepy and craven, declared war on god. God wanted to kill Satan, but Satan “did that old Jewish ritual” and henceforth big boss almighty just had no chance? Surely... Hm... power of cabala. Didn't protect the Jews from the crystal night. Well, maybe they all read the wrong books. Can't be, they wrote the cabala. Rabbi Ben Shalom, another outcast. Not unlike my own role. Oh what a blessing. Memorized crap made them masters. I am just the idiot who cared only for stuff working in the real world. Dirty tricks, sucker punches and critical thinking were all I found practicable in Satanism. Must mean I am the only unworthy on a planet full of selfdeclared masters.
Oh no! Holy virgin! Oh damn, wicked archwitch I meant. Just make sure I am the last who found that even two thousand year old translations mentioned the tree of life with angels and demons. The only difference was that they explained their meaning more properly. But staring at that cute intro (black and red instead of black on white) just makes me want to worship that one and only master. Did you see that Dracula parody with Leslie Nielson? Renfield getting rid of the master...oops! It's been quite a while and besides my own crapfile, my eternally inferior pdf, there was a clickable tree of life on the internet, even ten years ago. I remember it very important for posturing superobvious occult wanna be in any public internet café. That gratis file even mentions the same old Golden Dawn once more. Yeah, how much of a master Satanist can you be, when not Satanism, but hermetic magick is all you publish about? And is it publishing or practising successfully which matters? Depends on individual goals, now that could be my answer. Well, it is. How powerful can your Satanism be, when you need hermetic magick to bolster it? Of course, I am just too petty to ever understand. Those mutuallydeclared or selfdeclared masters are certainly not ever just deluded yokels or frauds. Infiltrators, assassins and intrigues. Those kinds of people at least turned their cowardice into a lethal way of life. They made use of usually negative emotion, drew strength from it. They lived, knowing or not, via principles which would be more of Satanism then proper application of bible or Koran. (Handle the Beast or the Beast handles you, thoughtchain) You may appreciate the song “Damien” performed by “Iced Earth”, it holds more truth, than most who want to dabble Satanism. I admit they didn't draw a tree of life there though?Oh infernal investments of friends Satan as Lucifer. Belial I could mention, yet that is just the nickname of some guy I met in a chatroom. Oh, I spoiled a secretivemysterious posture here. I can sense the power already. The most gorgeous women of the planet (in chorus please): Once he thought him to be just another ugly, fat skinhead from Germany Then by the powers of Hell, the will of Satan (as countless other numb labels) we decided he is the only person we want to bring pleasure & riches to If declaring oneself a superior being would be all which is needed, how could anybody still meet freaks and weirdos (or become one)? Because they, who they are greatest of all selfproclaimed masters and mistresses, confuse privileges or lucky moments with powers of magick or some such. The majority of people does not even handle the clichés about Satanism at all. Memorized words & futile postures instead of semantic and practical?
Taking bad examples for granted, as black leathers and some old symbols. Lots of talking about dark, infernal and how powerful their curses and rituals make them. If you are that strong, why then protective circles like those shiny white light esoterica fearfully hopes to work? Because all your might didn't heal you from your delusions or your, obvious or well hidden, fears? No, how can I dare. Just do it, that's how I dared it. Ok, it's a sideeffect. In truth, by the circumstances which destroy me, did I just do that kind of stuff properly. Hope remains a mistake in that equation though. Never surrender what is usually called ego, especially not for some writing which may or may not work at all? They assume it will grant them power to “walk in line”. It is not conformism but Satanism or “Setanism” (outnumbered and betrayed that Egyptian still crippled several of those 'good guys', it's one perspective they ignore), which was the topic? And what is the goal of those masters and mistresses? A mixture of need for attention, money and maybe bossing us little creatures around. Well, we have governments for that stuff.
Goethe, a master from “Kraut” country? The only moments, when people all over the world talk really respectfully or admiring about Germany is, when they request our money. Not that new. And with all of us being dumb little Krauts, nobody ever got a better result than another realpoor copy of what Goethe made his Faust perform as ritual? Getting established is certainly often beneficial. Yet in higher society (where Satanism in truth admires the 'lower' realms) it is often just a way of sexgames or avantgarde celebration. When I read that “jump across the abyss” part, I just noticed. To me all people I disliked dabbled along. I found, a place they all shun, might be my paradise as well, as the damnation meets concentration camp mixture they claim it to be. caput secundum (superior magick blade). Didn't I mention that in the Bestialis...pdf nobody likes to read? Yes, more or less. Of course it does not concern me (as if I needed a permission)...could those masters of masters and grandmasters as grandmistresses perhaps at least stop publishing crap which is even outmatched by that bible? You know, the one purchased from the Jews and then declared a work of Christianity.
As a friend I ask your tributefree support (Incantation? Chant? Dark prayer?) God Almighty, Satan and Lucifer. Truthfully, as a faithful friend, I asked for your help. Give me more than I ever could define properly, including yet not reduced to: Make me instant rich, get all I want or have a whim or lust for precisely as I wish it to be. Make me forever go unscathed. Let me levitate, cast spells as if idiotic & well done fantasy games were real world occult.
And anything else needed to make all who doubted me, all who opposed, harmed or hindered me not only get sick due envy for my magic working for real, whenever I need it or want it, in the real world occult and preternatural powers, fullbore sorcery and improvements of body and spirit, mind and ego. Let me regenerate into a state of health, success and ... Blah, come on, even just typing such crap already makes me feel like a complete idiot. Yeah, I lost my job, received crippling damage through three fuckedup surgeries “BUT I DID THAT RITUAL”... moan, whine and dabble. Hogwash continues, I can't stop it. ... make anything I forgot or left out still work completely beneficial for me and let me outmatch the powers of the grail in the mundane world as anywhere else and neutralize all my enemies as anybody or anything which harms me. Or some such & more. Now would be the moment to gift me all this as all I needed to handle it in ways which I want it to be. Sermon and blather, not worth a keyboard, not worth a feather.
Occult selfcontrol No, I will not admit that this file is a frustrated prank. No, I didn't give petty hints besides playing the “loud mouth” or braggart. I will, in oh so very mystical, preternatural and magickal secrecy, not note that you can only acquire this file “which outmatches all scientific works on the topic & beyond ever” legally at www.estories.de (or www.e stories.org/) & www.esnips.com Not at all do I intend to return to www.estories.org/ where my gratis samples as that of many other authors once were. Surely I really consider myself a Satanist with superior sorcery and gifts in a world of cause and effect now. No, I am not even skilled at mockery or cynical remarks for until a moment ago I was a pauper and hobby author where now the blessings of ... blah blah blah. I wrote quite some stuff on Satanism, even in my active years. I often gave credits and such. It's just that, of course only to me from all on this planet, it is a dead end topic. Allegory: A dirty back alley where the healthy portion of your mind may rot away or some such.
The real trick I only wrote this to lure the most respected author of “Kabbala for Satanists” here. Instead of stealing his or her (who knows for sure) mental property, I decided for wasting some of his or her time, just as he or she did with that file upon me. ☺ The question is not, if I am assholy. The question had been: Did it work? ☺
Conclusion or delusion On the web such songlyrics are always free for download & display. Henceforth I should have the same right to display them as anybody else who already did. They remain © Music Industry and band though! Must be about money making or some such. This is what was titled “Damien lyrics” by “Iced Earth”: So the beast resides in me Deep down I always knew I never really did fit in So diverse from all of you Let him who understands Know the number of the beast It's a number of a man A number just for me As the boy becomes a man Father's minions pave the way Set in motion now, Armageddon, Final conflict, end of days I embrace the hounds of hell And the power they oblige For the task that lies ahead The Nazarene I'll crucify They'll see the raptures of our kingdom
They'll see the truth to mankind I'll show what hell truly is The monotony of their lives (Chorus) When the Jews return to Zion And a comet fills the sky The Holy Roman Empire rises And you and I must die From the eternal sea he rises Creating armies on either shore Turning man against his brother Till man exists no more (Bridge) Now Disciples of the Watch See your Prince of Darkness rise Through famine and destruction The Four Horsemen at my side I demand a victory, I demand a sacrifice Or spend all eternity In the flaccid gut of Christ!
Another cute one (of the same band) was “the hunter”. I was reminded of the scene in that old module of Phil Hanna where one, as a necromancer, has to kill a punisher from heaven, too! Hey, that is nearly satanic a thought for someone so low and unworthy as me? GIGGLE.
Ohm... did this bring me closer to the “most disgusting and unwanted pettyauthor of the planet” award??? ☺ Smiley is a skinhead, too.
My apologies for not placing another pentagram and not even trying these 666 feats. If mathematics are the “language of the universe”, or some such similar. I was very weak in mathematics, yet I guess this universe wants me to rot and die. Did god help me out, or did perceiving the facts simply make me understand? The time to hide behind ancient languages was useful when Navaho was used to keep Nazis from ever decrypting it. I always found it wasting time when spiritual matters seemingly arose. Don't worry, it's just my opinion and I am not important...blah blah blah.
A sign of respect While i disliked it from the start, certain people have a talent. Those nutjobs as frauds really doing anything wrong, when it comes to the occult. They really could make that “an artform”. For as satire or persiflage, it could even be very entertaining. Further, while I will never be invited to their cocktail parties, they were helpful. I just doubt that they were helpful due their efforts. The relativity of helpfulness. This becomes clearer, when we are not thinking along: thesis, antithesis and synthesis. Instead, like day and night (or light and dark) have their “interaction as part of our reality” so may those struggles separate, separate what would otherwise escalate. Maybe, with more competence, it really becomes as easy living it, as it already is thinking it. The discrepancy between theories and practice is not for the first time underestimated though. Maybe this is not only true for me. I got an echo, kind of thanks for the music hint. No problem, this file was clearly labelled folly. I am out of most practice for over nine years now, the habitual stuff excepted. I didn't try to deceive on it anyway. Because it gains me nothing, but trouble. Cocaine. Besides a drug from southern America (Columbia? Yeah, in truth it comes form your drug dealer...supersmart.) it is a song. Kokain is German for cocaine and precisely that “Kokain” is an old song from “Rammstein”. As if I would be a pauper when I had money for a luxury drug. Oh, now I resent my blessing of poverty? May those, who find it blissful, have to suffer it eternally. A mindless urge to hurt other people, as the complete absence of competence. For a moment I was worried. Worried, that the Americans could declare me their next president. Hypocrisy it is not. It is simply due poverty, that I restumble into “subcultures” (overstatement) which indulge what I had quitted years ago. I have few choices left, especially not many pleasant ones.
Excuse me now, I was only temporarily motivated for this here, I got a sample for fantasy ready. More than 25 din A4 pages and I feel it has not even really started... My humble regards and the apology to those (except the one master targeted) who's time this file might have wasted. Would evil intent really be wrong in a file on Satanism???
License & Lie sense One person I am always allowed to quote (license & copyright context), that is me, as long as it is legal. Peculiar, how legal varies in different countries & same on “moral” for different cultures. As a repetition, I made a screenshot from one of my other files. In truth, I just wanted one more page here, before I attempt to place comma and correct grammar, at least as far as I could. WARNING: This quote from my anathema file, on next page, is quite vulgar and could be heretical to faithful Christians.
Links and filemap With the myth of the “book, which doesn't allow itself to be read”,I decided: Only those people, who find my files and sense themselves, which of those include beneficial information will make it. On date of writing I could be found at: www.peo.de www.esnips.com/web/pietroscheksotherstuff www.esnips.com/web/pietroschekswebresearch www.pdfcoke.com www.estories.de as www.estories.org/ that last slash is for a reason. Lazy&dumb readers.
P.S. (oops, post scriptum sounds so much more cultivated) D. Kraig? The hypocrite who made on each following page, what he labelled a sign for deluded frauds just one page earlier? Suiting choice, master of the templewanna be.
Hierarchy of Sins Completely meaningless, yet if you do not repeat any idiotic mistake, which those who published before you had made, then the freak legion does not buy your stuff? 1. Doubting my eternal superiority. Naturally this makes you pseudoterrorists, at minimum! Usually torture to death is a proper punishment against you. Because the first sin was trust. 2. Forgiveness. Considering such dire mental disorder to be a virtue is Christian, henceforth stuff of the bible, which we purchased from the Jews. I write here: Crowleys book of lies was honest in comparison. 3. Faith in entities. Have faith in your own abilities, they are all you have to live your life anyway. Interpretation is only evidence that you did not understand at all. 4. Hiding behind rituals or ceremonial when you are just afraid or otherwise deluded, as if you could succeed masking your true motives. 5. Granting human rights to cloven. This includes supporting a culture which does that. And too proper grammar. Too proper grammar is of the enemy? God is perfect, we don't want to be god. 6. Falling to delusions which you have been clearly warned about in words or gestures or deeds, which you had a real chance to understand. If you admit it or not. 7. Declaring money futile, before by your deeds you de facto helped to cure us from capitalism as those communism parasites who think us their slaves. 8. Not spending money on making me rich, right now as any time later! Of course your survival depended on designer clothing, a third car and harlots every day of the week, haha. 9. Daring to taint by stealing idiocy formally labelled occult or esoterica (as similar) to sabotage prowess. This is especially true on what we call Satan, Oblivion and Sorcery.
Targets of Worship Worship is stuff to be admired and struggled for. That ships for battle would be warships.
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Competence. Being wellskilled with stuff we like, is often fun (or satisfaction).
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Rightfulness. Not surrendering to the mainstream is a trademarkequivalent of cliché Satanism. Succeeding with it, would make it even more worthy.
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Intuition and Dreams. Just in case we make an alliance with Samsara or other paradigms later.
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Solitude. For people who freak out after being left alone for some days just can't be disciplined and strong of self.
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Society. For that is the modern hunting ground, even though we are not allowed to burn witches (or the competition) yet.
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Semantic. That may be what Binah meant on the tree of life. It doesn't even look like a tree and imagination is a tool for magick, so why should we treat that crap as if prime ticket to ascension?
Xeper –> Become undone! That lord of hogwash prefers Egyptian villaingod to the cliché crap of the competition. Cute. Words of power demand understanding and become is deranged and weak. For it includes all, which nobody of us ever wants to become, too. Xeper, become meaningless & harmless!
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Become a cripple in a wheelchair?
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Become the serial killer who gets locked away? Become it's next victim?
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Become a drone in any selfproclaimed occult wannabe order or lodge? If you want to make them rich, what is the sense in not admitting it?
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Become the next person send to Guantanamo Bay, without any crime committed or any evidence at all? Besides the torture (xeper crippled, yes, means become crippled) you would be locked away with terrorists. The best choice of neighbours? Curse of the Gitmomancer, a console game?
Change, where improve is needed? My notes on Melmoth were along that thoughtchain, too. Chains can enslave or be abused as weapons, remain vigilant! Change once more is all, which you don't like to be or to happen, just as much or more! They mean improvement, yet dabble change. By promise of “false prophets” they jump into the trap, like lemmings. Remember the “who controls the controllers”? Are you really immune, to let's formulate it: NSA agents going assassin on you? Am I the only one who can and will die, sooner or later? Is hubris really a flawless source of power? Improvement would mean, things get a notch better. Even when your enemies or villains improve as well, you did, too. Henceforth at worst, the balance of forces in the universe would have been intact. Change can fuck things up, where improve would show a minimum of prudence. Just more evidence, that they are deluded slaves of a mad godhead (or psychotic president). Let's write it for mortals: A corporate office. If they are aware of it or admit it or not, they only can be distinguished from medieval courtiers due their technology and clothing. It needs no judgement to realize, that the human mind is not developed half as fast and efficient, as seemingly technology managed to “become”. Most of us would prefer to kill, instead of losing job or losing chance for promotion (more money and better bitches, to rap around as the nonrapper I am). Before you can be a magus, it is simply necessary, that magick works at all. Daydreaming is not magick enough. And if magick would work for any loudmouth who claimed to be superhigh rank, then there would be more evidence, than any of us would ever need to join. With Gandalf, H.P. and Saruman was admitted, that they were glorified for FICTION, at least.
My words on Daath – the abyss As most proper cabala teachings, you should get used to what seems like multimeanings. Some would, on first glimpse, consider it hypocrisy or contradictions. It often is only improper translation or the authors own failure to understand. Then, some cliché is based in truth. There are agents of the other side of the frontier. Nobody is friends to all creatures in life, grow adult. Some hate me for my publishings, some despise me for being fat and ugly. Or for not feeling weak due it. Others hate and envy, what our society would declare virtues. I wrote before, that I doubted Crowleys qualification and sanity, no matter, if my own is lacking or even more absent. Sects and cults have been terrorists and culprits many times before. I have no reason or instinct which makes me trust them. It's not about me being better, it's about responsibility. Besides the mentioning of a test, magick is the wrong source of information about Daath. For magick is hostile to Daath and henceforth clouded judgement cannot be completely prevented. Test? With as far as I remember adeptus exemptus level of competence, you have to prepare for jumping over or crossing the abyss. An allegorybased, encrypted lore. If you only need knowledge and do not practise anything, then just take, what WIKIPEDIA (that respect deserving newer Internet database of lore) offers. They even have nice summaries on the Argentum Astrum or that oldies. By name Golden Dawn and ordo templi orientis. To really think that daath is hell, would be like thinking Osama Bin Laden the president of the United States of America. While I polarize here, we are talking a dangerous topic, at least, for the otherwise often quite violent free occult cliché. I gave a warning, I admitted that I am not really competent enough for that topic and I mentioned sources where you can get more information, hopefully better information. It's never enough, yet this was a sign of respect from me. Binah (semantics, proper understanding) is crucial. Personally I do not know, if you just read, or have to face the struggle which decides if you continue life as a psychopathic murderer as equivalent or an enlightened being as equivalent. As so often, both sides (simplified & polarized) tend to suspect, sometimes accuse or attack the other side for being the wrong and evil. Life is not always that simple. A true intention can cause flawed as even dangerous results? Confession: I never managed to get practical revelations or find de facto working information about Daath, as written by Daath or minions of it. Personally I guess, for a smallscale hobby author, I was not the worst on simplified and summarized experiences with topics of universal (cosmicscale) meaning. I, as certainly, was not the best either. In unconditional love, the author.
Dante's Inferno As far as I remember, that is a piece of literature. Even classic literature to many people. While I do not doubt it's quality as a piece of reading, it is not about real world occultism of any form. The same truth is normally fact with all books, scrolls and notes, even pieces of human skin scrawled notes upon in seemingly or real human blood. The inquisition was thorough. In Europe you couldn't publish and what today is America was still tribal lands in that ages long past. Faith is a prime topic of Christianity. Faith might be of use or a sign of degree or competence in what I remember as Theosophy (Helena Blavatsky, by roots). While I agreed on Benjamin Rowe that imagination has a key role in practical, applied in the real world magick and equivalents, imagination alone is not magick or similar. Otherwise fantasy roleplayers would long reign all the universe and there would be orcs and elves. What sounds like a futile remark of me is hint at a quite dangerous masshysteria turning psychosis or such, all over our planet Earth. Just because people claim or want to believe, or are deluded to consider it fact, it must not be the case. A prudent and talented type of person can for all their life, remain completely unskilled in any spiritual topics, which include magick and it's offspring. Einstein was a genius of complex physics and relativity, he was not half as good in everyday behaviour, as American sources reported. Ouch. Einstein was a Jew. I am German (or lack of) and shouldn't ever speak truth about certain topics. When we do it, we get called Nazis. That flag would still be our nations flag, if half of us really were on that old path of racist evil once more.
Words in proper context. In case you read the included song lyrics. The Roman empire is long dust. Do not mistake for prophecy (if it exists at all), what is an old hat from people who lived ages before us. Such mistakes of thinking and learning made plenty of minefields for the mind & spirit already.
A symbolic kind of vampire/dark sorcerer hunt began Thanks to what is called Witchcraft. After ten years in the void of incompetence which was fuelled by La Vey, as the first church of Lucifer and my own failed researches. The first information which I needed.
In German I already dedicated two more files on my struggle to get rid of a psychic vampire. If you lack better sources, take the chapter “Not all vampires suck blood” as written by Anton Szandor La Vey nonetheless. I am once more on the trail to finding out truth. It did cost me ten years. To me getting rid of a psychic vampire is futile, until it gets punished beyond any chance for ever recovering. With the new information, I may give it one more try. Sorry, I never bathed in satanic successes of my past, as I had too many failures, too. Spiced up that is by a practise which not all styles of Satanism may know of: Using the appearance of somebody else for your psychic assault (simplified bullying or intimidation or mobbing or discriminating against) or psychic vampirism. It does not need Wiccan allegiance and what they called Athame did I know as soulblade, even before I quoted that caput secundum, in my gratis file “Bestialis – Street Shaman under the cross of Christianity excerpts.pdf”. I remember the words of my favourite hierophant, which were a positive surprise back many years ago: “I will fight and succeed with you, or die in the trying!” This time, at minimum, I may at least get some insights which could bring further results to publish about. The thought would be of justice, that the false friend who harmed years of my life, would be source to money which allows me to compensate most of the loss. Health and time cannot be replaced that easily, if at all. Sad but true. If I get any results from personal experiences, I may attempt to share them with you, my dear and paying readers. If this file makes enough money to fund my needs of software and hardware... I do not expect to get rich due it, that I admit. Seems I still have some mettle.
1st AddIn: Medieval PseudoLore – My satanic demon steed © Andrè M. Pietroschek, all rights reserved Contacting this author (usually futile):
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[email protected] (temporal account) This file now ventures without plan. Or to www.peo.de I am not looking for occult, esoteric or otherwise beneficial contacts. Neither by this file nor otherwise. I do not expect to get in contact with women (ever again) as an author. Yet if it happens I will deal with it. If a woman, due whom I feel fascinated, will delve in occult or otherwise not appreciated stuff, this may make me seem hypocrite? Ok. This file is a very short insight of me on a topic clouded in superstition, greed for money (typical guru and equivalent types) as occult weirdism. I only write my own insights here. The same remains true on all those hollowheaded „experts“ on history. I once mentioned that no historical source ever in the media had even one quote or essay from either the witches or the inquisition => on witchhysteria. I am on equal terms with horses. I don't like them, they don't like me. That's fine. The last time I considered riding having to do with those wonderful creatures, I was twelve and short of making my mother and sister laugh by crashing to the ground due a gentle trick of the horse which was under me just a moment before the pain exploded in my mind. ☺ I am a pauper, I suffer a sickness which is scientifically evidenced to be lethalending (my father died due to it) and I am a fat skinhead. I have great interest in eating lots of pizza, turkish Döner Kebap (or vegetarian alternatives) and making the best out of the remnants of my life.
If I had lots of money or would earn them as „the author who outmatched Harry Potter and Sacrilege with just one PDF“, then I would see a very competent dentist very soon, do lots of recovery and stop bothering the world with more publications outside of my own website. Read „Echoes of the Soul – Paupers dreamscape.pdf“, if you want to know more autobiographical data on me. On the fog covered road short of the farm (of our imagination)
We are all assuming to be dumb, mentally unstable medieval Christian faith peasantry right now. Role Playing stats on demand? ;)
It is the dark of night and we never heeded the warnings of our fellows. We knew that old crone was just a wicked old woman. Of course we heard lots of prejudice tainted pseudolore about witches. They traffick with the devil (including sexual intercourse) and always have that black cat and deserve to end on the pyres. Yes, yes. We are the good ones. We are the ones who turned neighbours over to the inquisition. We can be proud for the priests said we have done the right thing. As if god would not deal with freaks, villains and heretics. No, we have blind faith in the church and that is the politically correct course of our age. We can be proud. We are not just vicious shrewd sadists who gang up on old women or participate in a weird form of dealing with other faiths or the mentally ill. No, we do good for god. We are faithful. The priest reconfirmed us. Some of us were even mentioned during a mass in church. It's just one of those nights after we murdered not. We didn't murder like the vile fiends we are, we did good for the church. It's one of those nights when strange sounds disturb our slumber. Oh yes, the devil always lurks. The devil is a constant menace, but we faithful oppose it. No matter what. The sounds grew louder and the wife just demanded we go and take a look. We are not them afraid be'ers. We grab our torch and cross ourselves, ready to take on the devil itself. We charge out of our peasant hut or farm and look what dares to cause trouble at those time of night. Valiant us. And it is here once more that evil takes form. We just made some steps and raised our torch to see more of the area when down that trodden path charges a creature of blackest evil. The demon steed is clearly seen in our torchlight. We all know what this means... Shining red eyes stare at us and the black, oversized horse stomps the ground while we smell what must be sulphur and we know. We know... Demon Steed crafting for the Poor
My humble greetings once more. This is the gratis version. It's short. To participate in this wonderful course, we either need an albino horse or alchemist tools of the devil. This is based on the fact that red contactlenses (for horses) were not yet available in medieval Europe. We are crafting our horse into a more spooky cliché of itself. If given an albino horse, we need a form of black paint. This should be rainresistant for durability. Yes, we make that white horse black. Now we either burn some incense or due the process of trying to dry that black paint under the pressure of time, we cause that sulphursmell as a byproduct.
Metal is rare and the smith usually remembers what he sold to whom or what has been stolen when. Bones are available. Poultry, dogs, cats or birds and of course babies (a tough period in the age of pregnancy abortion and not my topic here). Little scales or plates made of bones can rattle. Producing an unnatural noise. Even better, granted some skill, some leather and bones: We can mask the horse. Forming the leather like lips and embedding the bones formed like razorsharp, big teeth and fangs! Spooky? Given that ambition, who forgets we could disguise ourselves and ride it? Not me. Yet with quite common tools we can make a spooky cliché turn against the superstitious. Those were still plenty in the dark ages and given what they baked bread with (lots of grain which had hallucinogen sideeffects, scientifically evidenced), it becomes even easier. Now maybe one or two of us aren't the selfdeclared good guys. Maybe one or two of us medieval peasants strive for justice? Maybe we didn't like our family members murdered on that pyres. Or maybe god forgives, but us doesn't yet? So we have found out who betrayed our family, gathered in that forest or grotto and prepared a counterstrike. We abducted the traitor, tortured him or her in the way Christians expect satanic crimes to be. And now, with our especially prepared horse and disguise we ride to the little church of (or close by) our village and throw his or her corpse off with some additional warning, perhaps? That far it all works without devils or witchcraft... Such or similar early guerilla tactics are really nothing special. They don't need more than a functional mind, courage and some tools. The first „guerillas“ had nothing but the decision that force wouldn't make them surrender. What is terrorism on one side is often seen or depicted as fighting for freedom on the other. The dark ages were cruel and the war among the faiths of the realms was not always as pleasant, as Hollywood makes it seem. I listened to some ambient music while writing, just that I guess the main points of this file are written straight enough? Dedicatory Inscription:
1. To those who did right, no matter if they were outnumbered or proclaimed to be villains or worse. 2. The concept that made us realize that evil as madness come in many forms and that not what others think or believe makes us guilty, but what we really did or restrained from. ●
Once more thanks to the band Man'O'War for „Bridge of Death lyrics“ and to the band Savatage for „White Witch lyrics“ and „Believe“. Lyrics are available for free on the Web, type bandname and title into the proper field of a search engine?
The privileged dabble about democracy (based on the medieval state of being demon crazed?) being the best form of (hated, superfluous or appreciated) government we have. That's true in a way. Just that they make the less pleasant parts and interpretations of democracy prosper, to further their career and whatever nutjob agenda want to be elite university suggested. Living Democracy is more than selfishness and greed or thinking you could off anybody in the way. If you think about Democracy, remind yourself, that democracy is what we make of it? We have much to improve! Death itself does not care about skin colour, agenda, memberships, race, religion or lack of any. We are still learning to deal with it and criminals as lunatics trying to tweak it for benefit as terrorists & killer poultry sure do not make it any easier. When I check for what sucks, there is something good to be sucked from and therefore not everything is messed up. When Machiavelli said only those who profit from it make the bad sides remain in business, he was true. Yet that fool had no idea how to solve the problems and that is the crucial part which so many want to be smartbutts never get done.
Why this topic came up In 2007 three files brought something else instead of the cliché blather you may read in really most books and files which are labelled: “Wiccan, Magick or Satanism”. 1. This file here is the smallest, yet the most unique. In a time where common sense is seemingly fading. Where only the marketing gets media and several people have, I dare to type it, obviously severe allergies versus the truth. 2. Supreme Hogwash (PseudoSatanism). For a spontaneous reminder, I already mentioned quite some truth, based on practical expertise, by the way. 3. The English dire version of “Bestialis – Street Shaman under the Christians cross”. The sanctimony of wrath which came up from within me, on one hand I should edit it out. Contrary to that, it's only words and some people can not only handle it, some people (secretly or public) appreciated some of it. There is a dedicated “satanichistorian or sataniclibrarian” at www.pdfcoke.com
2nd AddIn: Notes on Melmoth © Andrè M. Pietroschek, all rights reserved Greetings, this is not the real moment of Muse. I start this file and it's German version lacking sleep, after a rather disgusting temper tantrum (political situation and the way it impacted my perception of mortal life in Germany, 2006). My notes are (surprisingly to myself) based on two classics and one fictional work. I wrote notes for the first glimpse thought that made me write this file is comparably short and easy to understand. Sources I read/accessed before this text: ● ● ●
Charles Robert Maturin (17821824) wrote > Melmoth the Wanderer Honore de Balzac wrote –> Melmoth Reconciled The Melmoth as a villainous, freaky clan (one of 13 bloodlines) Nosferatu Vampire I remember from the fictional PC game “Vampire Redemption”. Dedicated to:
Those who share my ways of handling insomnia as muse? Maybe, to those who find they came to similar conclusions by their own thoughts, as those “great minds”... This is neither a scientific work, nor my attempt to display greatness. It is, as labelled, just my notes. If you dislike it or “find it lacking”, do your own file?
Muse and Madness The flexibility among readers, this unique and yet cultivated ambivalence! I wanted it to be clearly mentioned. Straight at start, for those with a short attention span. ☺ I read a cute little academic work about “great authors” of philosophy recently. Sometimes I feel compelled to try getting back to university. As if it would improve my life. The first reading of Melmoth the Wanderer, was peculiar and to me a dedicated work. Yet unfinished. After a genius clarity on the eternal seeming experience that so called preternatural, occult or diabolical truths in life often are accompanied by or maybe symptoms of madness. The asylum ending wretch type of madness, not the usually funny or even beneficial one.
I was greatly reminded of the late Benjamin Rowe (that is Magick, not classical literature). Both authors had clear insights only to fall back or degenerate back into the hollow dogmatism of their normalcy. The first types meaningless “detailism” as I want to label it and the second gives us the dumb cliché stuff he himself recognized and declared to be signs of weakness on the oh so wellpaid and highly respected path of occult prowess. Melmoth here has a cute description of damnation and impeding doom which one (as the target) seemingly cannot evade. The Irish and English setting as the visit to Spain and the description of Christian zeal (church wise), may be not my taste, yet clearly good authorship. A bit low on cute porn scenes, a vulgar joke, I know signs of the puritan times and such. Then comes an abrupt end. Of course, sometimes authors or their muses fade away before they finished their works. Yet, it seemed that if there is destiny, then one sign of greatness was starting or spreading what began with “Melmoth – The wanderer”. Mr. Balzac, having the benefit of a work to contemplate and edit, skillfully spins forth the tale. It may be found in modern gothics (dear satanists you had to see them so often, make use of it), nearly the same justified or crazed habit of just declaring the infernal to be “good”. Of course different personalities handle situations differently. Further, the power of the infernal or diabolical is rarely doubted in the context of those works. Sometimes it is the complete lack of common sense in the protagonist or the author (oops, can be me too then) which makes me sense a certain friction. On first thought being rich, getting all we want and living eternally does not sound the worst offer? Really not. Seeing the “greater picture” looking through the temporal illusion of allelseexcluding importance which mortal ego as whim have a habit of bathing us in... that's a more difficult topic. Balzac decides to put the role first on an aging French rogue. A disgusting and criminal asshole, selfish and too arrogant for the own good. My words may have a slight reflection of my opinion here. Of course, it's on purpose. Trapped in consequence of his failing embezzlement scheme, the easy way out is the offer of the perceived as mysterious stranger. That one closely reminded me of my notes on the wellclad Tremere in “Poison what you can't conquer.pdf”. Balzac seems to credit the more modern people with more adaptability and sense when it comes to get rid of the devils gift. Where the original Melmoth protagonist was desperate and had no escape, ended in an asylum and had to see a truth we have when we remember that scene in the cell by Stephen King in his movie of Good against Satan (forgot the title)? The devil paying a visit pointing out facts where all the “hero” has is a rebellious stubbornness we quickly call faith and a yummy or such rat for a meal.
Balzac decided to do his own solution, yet thereby going far away from the originals intent, as it seems to me. He makes quite a sharpminded description of the insight that being emotionless, inwardly dead, spoils much of what the new gained power offers. Balzac knows that one day planet earth may end and being caught here instead of a chance to travel on (spirit wise) or getting access to paradise; which is simply not a place to reach but a cosmical transformation denied without the grace of god in this context. The words I read had a serious good approach. So in Melmoth reconciled a simple trick gets the job done. One gets the power and the money and quickly offers the “deal” (or curse) to someone willingly taking it, before the unpleasant consequences can even impact once life. That is in theory, quite prudent. Personally I doubt, that a devil being that easily transformed from near eternal villain into harmless fellow giving you loads of money and superpowers though. How could such a cute little devil ever provoke god, not to speak of surviving wars against the almighty lord as (at least in context) we would have to expect it? Even a god as the selfregulating powers of the universes, even such quite complex principles would be needed to be understood and properly handled. How should a devil outwitted by people who just failed in the life they know be powerplayer enough in it? Balzac, to me, would be hint that surrender just because of despair might be an overreaction. He offers no solution though and I remember that Goethe at least tried to go into detail with his “Faust”. That is, if reading more than the often perceived as the entire work, yet being just part one. Satanists will, I guess, at least as fast as me notice the complete absence of any knowledge or imagination about divine powers? This is not the file for details on ceremonial, glamour, ritual or instantcurse. If in context the devil exists and magic works (though for a chosen few), why does the author not mention the faithful opposition? I mean they are called the masters of the written word, not newbies. Charles Robert Maturin handles damnation as serious business. Balzac considers it seemingly to be, what one makes of it. There are limits to this second approach. People in India have a certain definition of death as an illusion, which is true and perhaps genius in context, yet doesn't make them or us de facto immortal! Maturin didn't pick the best symptoms of damnation, that is one of the reasons I take that fictional undead wretch into the equation.
Melmoth, the Nosferatu. In the game a blackmailing, antisocial and always evil, craven villain. No reason for nice words, as ugliness is privilege to all Nosferatu (in WoD context) and by their power, ugliness in all it's possible meanings. The impossible meanings, for their neighborhood of madness belong or are accredited to, the Malkavians (insane Vampires). Not morals, too blind for the own good! This Melmoth is the vampire, many players want to be. He is undead, has several superpowers and so on (all this glorified parasite vampire scene stuff). A little problem along: Melmoth was caught before and thanks to clan Toreador lost most eyesight after committing crimes against them. His chance to live eternally, bitterly influenced by being a crippled, nearly blind villain. Of course free from redemption, driven by the same impulse which already made him get caught and punished! This is a blend of damnation with madness (in this case it seems to go into “compulsive_criminal” forms), which spices up my little Melmoth contemplation. Truth is, he was one of few skinheads in the old version besides the white trash and I played him in Multiplayer once. ☺ I am afraid of letterbombs due it though. Crippled beggar hiding from persecutors or superpower gaining lord or lady of the night, do you think there is a difference? I did when writing this here.
The relativity of Melmoth's truth to individual us Logically all readers may find some resemblance to their own situation or personality in the classics. If it helps... Melmoth reloaded Now the protagonist would defeat the infernal agent, get a sexy woman and win. Just to be the only superhero in a world of normalcy. That could result in damnation, yet better than slavery? In dreams it would make sense. First, in a dream the woman is what we can't accept or don't dare to realize about our selves. So feminine rounding gets tainted by sexism in that context. Yet enjoy the tour? People and scenery fading or shifting are certainly not new to all who research or do lucid dreaming, as my generation labeled it. Maybe it has another name in this modern time. A truth which remains in a dream is that when we wake up, we (usually and hopefully) are one individual. Maybe with new insight or a better attitude how to live our life.
Melmoth the Necromancer ? Being afraid of death or deluded could make it flawed. The experience that a soul which can so to say reincarnate may find that the real meaning is no longer where the old incarnation lived. To a necromancer, being afraid of death, would mean a flawed understanding of the own master or power source? A deranged newbie henceforth? Symbolizing as people what in truth is universal principle has a habit of enhancing misunderstandings. As an author, even with my few readers, it already happens manifold. Now guess how many people may have completely different reasons, agendas and opinions about a bestseller? When I noted that spirits may be more in the way people like Shakespeare and Goethe used the term, than about ghosts, I may have written truth.
Melmoth the Trickster In the kingdoms of poverty I made a little experience. Those mysterious beggarprophets are often just rogues. Their trick is to attempt their move on anybody, until someone falls prey to it. That may result in money making, exerting sexual favours or the psychic vampirism, as we know it from Satanism. Of course accredited importance suits our selfimage better than realizing that we stumbled into a social trap or failed in mind. It can really be an unpleasant struggle. Yet the passing of time or other functions of this world of cause and effect just don't seem to care, if we want to be smart. Further, on Balzac, does this mean that ageing criminals are seen as noteworthy by the majority of readers? By the same majority of readers who would be target (or even victims) to precisely those ageing criminals they mindtweak into charming villains? Should one really be that naive, just because it is labelled a “great piece of literature”??? I could call it misplaced meaning or context. Melmoth for President ? You are just another woman from elite university, caught in a customcrazed sexist society. Yet than comes Melmoth W. Bush from Texas and makes you a secretary of State. Isn't it, in a way not even meant disrespecting, quite a possibility of the classics constellation? I didn't write exclusive or suiting on real world persons!
Want to share in on a thought? The prudence with which classic sources wrote, what still is manifold truth in modern times, is appreciated. Even more, for any who notices and learns from it, is somehow prudent himself or herself, too. I know it is not my strongest aspect, yet I still have faith in humanity and even when I do not admit it too often: I still have faith in the American Way. Seems a mistake though whenever I check the world news.
Just Thoughts Now come some thoughts on business in this field. Do not expect them to be perfect or finished yet. Further, I am a pauper for now. Not a rich entrepreneur or overpaid thoroughly corrupt politician. They remain my mental property. Temporal (one time, less than six hours overall needed) ritual or innate ability to support solution: Base price = effort & paraphernalia x own degree of de facto competence x 25 € for each. Easy attunement or translation into mundane ways is here, too. Simple telepathic or teleempathic sending, transmission, too. ● ●
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A Celtic cross tarot spread is between 50€ and 100€ at esoterica specials here in Germany (19% taxes we have 2007), not even just recently. Teaching a personal trainer way on meditation (especially when it is needed for further steps) could start with a fee of 20€ plus 20€ per hour of instruction and attunement to the individual client or customer. Orientation from the point above this one may be a bit too low when you are demanded to scan for flaws and mistakes in someone's practical application, especially if the individual customer or client indulges what you do not know. No, it needs more than adding research costs, it means doing that research and producing the results as per contract (clearly defined as far as possible).
Specified instruction or service (like one ritualminimum instructed, done on demand [maximum of one month effort] or trained): Base price = effort & paraphernalia x own degree of de facto competence x 50 €. Bearable attunement or translation into mundane ways is here, too. Several or repeated telepathic or teleempathic sending, transmission, too. Sensing traps of madness, glamour or sects and cults would be here by effort, often is dangerous and needs you to be licensed as private investigator, cop or member of the lawoffice or equivalent. So called initiation (complete basic training or special training): Base price = effort & paraphernalia x own degree of de facto competence x 750 €. Dangerous (own life at stake, if you dare) attunement or translation into mundane ways is here, too. Salary: For simple kinds of duty, orientation at proper jobs should be made, for easy adaptability with tax office and law. Given that 2 years of education and 2 years of field experience make up our lower ranks, don't allow yourself to be cheated on the payment. Some years ago we were called lunatics, now we have million $ industries made real (straight from what they labelled worthless folly). Becoming greed personified (guru cliché) is the other extreme, balance your expectations with the facts, demands and your competence for each situation or contract. In Europe I would say a monthly minimum of 1500€ as advisor, investigator or equivalent should enforce, that we are not dumb labour (if anyone is at all). Dirty Jobs: Doing what only due the incompetence or deficiency of scientists cannot yet be defined as criminal, often called black magic, should be paid in full awareness, that the possibility of backlash is not a fairy tale.
This is mostly sickening, confusing, driving insane or outright crippling & killing by our own means (called curses, psychic assault/vampirism or such, usually). Laws like mobbing, laws against discrimination and what soon may be make this finally no longer the simple solutions to all problems (which perceive themselves as lifeforms). In general, expect people to pay for the results, not necessarily for delusions, fragile (or outright fraud) promises and your delusions of grandeur. Effort measure will further demand clarity. Stuff which nearly all of us can do as innate ability or like mundane skills, may still take several months to become reality. Customers and clients have a right to know this beforehand (before any contracts are signed, see laws). Paraphernalia: Simply keep the bills and hand attested/authenticated copies to clients and customers. This helps for the tax office and administration. If it is just the stuff you “need to feel well” (favourite incense or music and similar) then customers and clients could even purchase or acquire it themselves. If you are doing some form of empathic or illuminated selection on ingredients, then never allow them to meddle. As certainly, never cheat them on costs. “But a luxury whore and several ounces of pure cocaine make me really feel better before doing this three card tarot spread?” It's illegal, quite much! The own path versus traditions: A lot of harassing or discrimination here is a petty attempt to lower your prices. This doesn't make it proper, welcome or legal though! If you ever got anything done for real and on your own & if you are capable of teaching it, then you should ask for the price your efforts are worth. Get used that no matter who you are, there will always be claims, that someone as qualified is much cheaper. Did they only contact you to tell you this? Or came this astonishing insight, prescience or premonition just when they decided you are not worth what they waste on mundane folly anyway? Teamwork: Always an option for the results, always more strenuous when it comes to taxes and payment. Sad god doesn't just bless us into perfection for those moments, I could nearly note. Discretion: If you gonna be a pro, do what you know. Professional business behaviour may not always be easy or even known yet, it improves with experience though. For most of us. Allegiance: It's not a secret. It has several benefits, yet tends to cloud our perception for the facts. For there is this habit of “interpreting” the facts into the direction which benefits our career or agenda. So much on the perfectly controlled ego of hermetic ways, as anybody else. Hostility: Thugs, punks, combat dogs, knifefights, brawls and firefights. Accidents. Insurance only goes so far. In addition, prepare for what you can and don't let greed or dependence on payment become your funeral express ticket. I personally know that poison exists in the real world. It could even be close to that gorgeous houri from your sexual fantasies, just some insect or snake, or even allergic overreactions you didn't knew you suffered from. We all are mortals!
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A competent basic training in selfdefence (if such exists, usually comes the hard way) may be helpful. I often mentioned that a weapon you like may not be the weapon you need to defend, dodge or protect against! I remember my first attempt to block a knife with a wrappedup newspaper. Sure, once or twice it was easy, all the rest I would have been gutstabbed or throatslashed anyway. Delusions on such topics only help the villains! Even people with years of dagger in fencing have still problems to fight a style they never encountered before. They are healthy, prepared and trained for such moments. Even that is not an insurance. Soldiers with combat experience tend to see theory differently from newbies in uniform, too, I heard. If you think defeating a combat dog when you are unarmed is easy, certain villainous doggy trainers claim they could show you a different outcome easily. Not being afraid does not mean you wouldn't or couldn't get wounded either.
This means, even if it makes you instant rich superstar equivalent and greatest mage or witch or equivalent who ever walked the earth, becoming crippled or killed is a price quite high. This is for persons who do what Satanism knew as the “Werewolf ritual” or certain rituals claimed to stem from the Norse. Or such similar. Venturing into dangerous areas is asking for trouble, trouble which usually answers your prayers. This is not a spiritual quest. Spirits didn't stop bullets at Wounded Knee and similar truths are known, keep your common sense or rest/get therapy to regain it.
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Going into areas which even hardliner Satanists define as exceptionally dark and dreaded? We all look like prey to criminal minds... Being a strong self, for real or by scientific evidence, it does not make you immune to post traumatic stress or other disorders. Winning a psychic duel does not mean, even if you visualize yourself with weapons and such, that you would be as skilled in the mundane world. The best protection I ever found out about was: Not being in the situation when trouble or violence escalates. I think this craven, yet courage does not make limbs grow back.
We are what is often called “spiritual people”. 99,9% of us will be victims, corpses or casualties against any form of real fighters. It doesn't matter what weapon or style they apply. A veteran soldier has coolness under fire in a dosage, which (luckily and thanks god & security) most of us will never need. They are trained & experienced not to freak out, in situations, which we do not know. Movies do not replace having gone through any real troubles & being alive to brag or keep silent about it. Does watching Splatterpunk make you tough, or freaky?
About the author?
Born on the 2nd of July in the year 1972. Since then, success always managed to avoid me? ☺ I don't care too much, what you expect to be written here and until I am paid for it, it doesn't matter anyway. I was born into the rabble of the federal republic of Germany. I managed to get some education, even spend some time at university. Being a pauper may tell that happy end would, at best, be the lie upon my grave or urn. I like fantasy much more, than esoterica or occult. Accidentally I was a notch smarter than some of those “great masters” once or twice in a while.
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