"i can deal with the clouds, but i cant fight with an eclipse"- jacob It would be more… prudent for you not to be my friend. But I’m tired of trying to stay away from you, Bella. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.84 It’s not only your company I crave! Never forget that. Never forget I am more dangerous to you than I am to anyone else. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.266 To me, it was like you were some kind of demon, summoned straight from my own personal hell to ruin me. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.269
In that one hour, I thought of a hundred different ways to lure you from the room with me, to get you alone. And I fought them each back, thinking of my family, what I could do to them. I had to run out, to get away before I could speak the words that would make you follow… Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.270
And so the lion fell in love with the lamb… Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.274 What a sick, masochistic lion. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.274
I wrestled all night, while watching you sleep, with the chasm between what I knew was right, moral, ethical, and what I wanted. I knew that if I continued to ignore you as I should, or if I left for a few years, till you were gone, that someday you would say yes to Mike, or someone like him. It made me angry. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.303 Bring on the shackles — I’m your prisoner. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.302 Isn’t it supposed to be like this? The glory of first love, and all that. It’s incredible, isn’t it, the difference between reading about something, seeing it in the pictures, and experiencing it? Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.302 I was surprised by the flare of resentment, almost fury, that I felt — I didn’t recognize
what it was at first. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.303 I wrestled all night, while watching you sleep, with the chasm between what I knew was right, moral, ethical, and what I wanted. I knew that if I continued to ignore you as I should, or if I left for a few years, till you were gone, that someday you would say yes to Mike, or someone like him. It made me angry. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.303 The feeling that coursed through me then was unnerving, staggering. And I knew I couldn’t ignore you any longer. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.303 I’m new at this; you’re resurrecting the human in me, and everything feels stronger because it’s fresh. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.304 For almost ninety years I’ve walked among my kind, and yours… all the time thinking I was complete in myself, not realizing what I was seeking. And not finding anything, because you weren’t alive yet. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.304 But you see, just because we’ve been… dealt a certain hand… it doesn’t mean that we can’t choose to rise above — to conquer the boundaries of a destiny that none of us wanted. To try to retain whatever essential humanity we can. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.307 I know that at some point, something I tell you or something you see is going to be too much. And then you’ll run away from me, screaming as you go. I won’t stop you. I want this to happen, because I want you to be safe. And yet, I want to be with you. The two desires are impossible to reconcile… Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.340 I’m never angry with you — how could I be? Brave, trusting… warm as you are. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.365 I infuriate myself. The way I can’t seem to keep from putting you in danger. My very existence puts you at risk. Sometimes I truly hate myself. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.365 I love you. It’s a poor excuse for what I’m doing, but it’s still true. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.366 I don’t seem to be strong enough to stay away from you, so I suppose that you’ll get your way… whether it kills you or not. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.473 It’s possible to take bravery to the point where it becomes insanity. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.475
That’s how it’s supposed to happen. How it should happen. How it would have happened if I didn’t exist — and I shouldn’t exist. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.476 I’m hardly a lottery prize. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.476 Bella, we’re not having this discussion anymore. I refuse to damn you to an eternity of night and that’s the end of it. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.476 You need rest. All this arguing isn’t good for you. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.477 I told you I’m not going anywhere. Don’t be afraid. As long as it makes you happy, I’ll be here. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.478 That’s the beautiful thing about being human. Things change. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.478 Don’t worry about that now, Bella. You can argue with me when you wake up. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.479 I’m sorry if there’s been some kind of miscommunication, but Bella is unavailable tonight. To be perfectly honest, she’ll be unavailable every night, as far as anyone besides myself is concerned. No offense. And I’m sorry about your evening. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.483 Don’t be difficult, Bella. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.484 When someone wants to kill you, you’re brave as a lion — and then when someone mentions dancing… Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.486 Bella, I won’t let anything hurt you — not even yourself. I won’t let go of you once, I promise. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.486 He called you pretty. That’s practically an insult, the way you look right now. You’re much more than beautiful. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.493 Twilight, again. Another ending. No matter how perfect the day is, it always has to end. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.495 I don’t want my presence to take anything away from you, if I can help it. I want you to be human. I want your life to continue as it would have if I’d died in nineteen-eighteen like I should have.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.495 You thought that would be a black tie occasion, did you? Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.496 I’d rather treat it like a joke, though, than believe you’re serious. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.497 So ready for this to be the end, for this to be the twilight of your life, though your life has barely started. You’re ready to give up everything. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.497 I’m not worth it. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.497 You can’t really believe that I would give in so easily. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.498 Is that what you dream about? Being a monster? Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.498 I will stay with you — isn’t that enough? Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.498 Yes, it is enough. Enough for forever. Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.498
So, as discussed, I am not allowed to wish you a happy birthday, is that correct? Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.9 Be good, please. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.16 Your wish, my command. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.16 You know, I’ve never had much patience with Romeo. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.17 Mistake after mistake. Could he have destroyed his own happiness any more thoroughly? Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.17
Last spring, when you were… nearly killed… Of course I was trying to focus on finding you alive, but part of my mind was making contingency plans. Like I said, it’s not as easy for me as it is for a human. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.18 Well, I wasn’t going to live without you. But I wasn’t sure how to do it—I knew Emmett and Jasper would never help… so I was thinking maybe I would go to Italy and do something to provoke the Volturi. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.19 Anyway, you don’t irritate the Volturi. Not unless you want to die—or whatever it is we do. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.20 I’ll never put you in danger again, so it’s a moot point. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.20 Bella, the last real birthday any of us had was Emmett in 1935. Cut us a little slack, and don’t be too difficult tonight. They’re all very excited. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.23 Bella, you gave yourself a paper cut — that hardly deserves the death penalty. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.44 Don’t try to take any of this on yourself, Bella. It will only make me more disgusted with myself. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.45 Don’t be melodramatic, please. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.45 You can’t have it both ways—either you want people to ignore your birthday or you don’t. One or the other. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.45 You’re greedy tonight. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.51 You’re overestimating my self-control. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.52 Bella, I don’t want you to come with me. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.69 Of course, I’ll always love you… in a way. But what happened the other night made me realize that it’s time for a change. Because I’m… tired of pretending to be something I’m not, Bella. I am not human Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.70 You’re not good for me, Bella.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.70 I promise that this will be the last time you’ll see me. I won’t come back. I won’t put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I’d never existed. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.71 Don’t worry. You’re human—your memory is no more than a sieve. Time heals all wounds for your kind. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.71 Well, I won’t forget. But my kind… we’re very easily distracted. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.72 You smell just exactly the same as always. So maybe this is hell. I don’t care. I’ll take it. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 20, p.452 They have a name for someone who smells the way Bella does to me. They call her my singer—because her blood sings for me. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.490 You should probably know that I’m breaking the rules right now. Well, not technically, since he said I was never to walk through his door again, and I came in the window… But, still, the intent was clear. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.503 I wasn’t hunting for food… I was actually trying my hand at… tracking. I’m not very good at it. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.505 The odds are always stacked against us. Mistake after mistake. I’ll never criticize Romeo again. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.508 I thought I’d explained it clearly before. Bella, I can’t live in a world where you don’t exist. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.509 I’m a good liar, Bella. I have to be. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.509 You weren’t going to let go. I could see that. I didn’t want to do it—it felt like it would kill me to do it—but I knew that if I couldn’t convince you that I didn’t love you anymore, it would just take you that much longer to get on with your life. I hoped that, if you thought I’d moved on, so would you. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.509 After all the thousand times I’ve told you I love you, how could you let one word break your faith in me? Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.510
I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly believed that I didn’t want you anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept—as if there were any way that I could exist without needing you! Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.510 You’re not asleep, and you’re not dead. I’m here, and I love you. I have always loved you, and I will always love you. I was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every second that I was away. When I told you that I didn’t want you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.510 Only you could be more important than what I wanted… what I needed. What I want and need is to be with you, and I know I’ll never be strong enough to leave again. I have too many excuses to stay—thank heaven for that! It seems you can’t be safe, no matter how many miles I put between us. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.513 Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars— points of light and reason… And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn’t see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.514 My heart hasn’t beat in almost ninety years, but this was different. It was like my heart was gone—like I was hollow. Like I’d left everything that was inside me here with you. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.515 I cannot be without you, but I will not destroy your soul. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.518 You will always be the most beautiful thing in my world. Of course… If you outgrew me —if you wanted something more—I would understand that, Bella. I promise I wouldn’t stand in your way if you wanted to leave me. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.519 I’ll earn your trust back somehow. It’s my final act. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.523 Your hold is permanent and unbreakable. Never doubt that. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.524 If there was only some way to make you see that I can’t leave you. Time, I suppose, will be the way to convince you. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.524 You, at least, made an effort. You got up in the morning, tried to be normal for Charlie, followed the pattern of your life. When I wasn’t actively tracking, I was… totally useless.
I couldn’t be around my family—I couldn’t be around anyone. I’m embarrassed to admit that I more or less curled up into a ball and let the misery have me. It was much more pathetic than hearing voices. And, of course, you know I do that, too. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.528 You’re wounding my ego, Bella. I just proposed to you, and you think it’s a joke. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.540 Well, I’m nearly a hundred and ten. It’s time I settled down. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.540 Because she’d rather you became one of the eternal damned than get married. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.541 So eager for eternal damnation. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.546 Charlie… is probably not going to kill you, but he’s thinking about it. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Epilogue, p.553 Thank you. I will never be able to tell you how grateful I am. I will owe you for the rest of my… existence. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Epilogue, p.557 I’m a quick learner, Jacob Black, and I don’t make the same mistake twice. I’m here until she orders me away. Edward Cullen, New Moon, Epilogue, p.558 srgfagtesggreesrg Do you really have any idea how important you are to me? Any concept at all of how much I love you? Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.34
I’ll be back so soon you won’t have time to miss me. Look after my heart — I’ve left it with you. Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.95 You are the only one who has ever touched my heart. It will always be yours. Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.195 Do you ever think that your life might be easier if you weren’t in love with me? Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.230 How can someone so tiny by so annoying? Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.268 And the sound of your heart. It’s the most significant sound in my world. Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.274
If I had found you, there isn’t a doubt in my mind how I would have proceeded. I was that boy, who would have — as soon as I discovered that you were what I was looking for — gotten down on one knee and endeavored to secure your hand. I would have wanted you for eternity, even when the word didn’t have quite the same connotations. Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.277 For this one night, could we try to forget everything besides just you and me? It seems like I can never get enough time like that. I need to be with you. Just you. Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.435
BELLA When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it’s not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end. Bella Swan, Twilight, Preface, p.1