Pourush By Md

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Lvev‡ii ¯^v`-MÜ GKB iK‡gi jv‡M| e‡m _vK‡Z _vK‡Z nvZ-cv Aek nq| kix‡ii euvab¸‡jv AvjMv n‡q hvq e‡j g‡b nq| Ny‡g †PvL Rwo‡q Av‡m| weRy †c−‡b GK`g Nygv‡Z cv‡i bv| GKUz Z›`ªv”Qbœ n‡ZB Pg‡K †R‡M I‡V, Nygv‡Z bv cvivi K‡ó kixi wbh©vwZZ n‡Z _v‡K| e¨v‡MR msMÖ‡ni wbw`©ó RvqMvq K¨vi“‡mj GL‡bv bovPov ïi“ K‡iwb, myZivs GLb `uvwo‡q _v‡Kv| weiw³Ki| Mš—‡e¨ †cŠu‡Q e¨v‡M‡Ri R‡b¨ A‡c¶v GK hš¿Yv| d¬vB‡Ui R‡b¨ e‡m _vKv hvq Ñ I‡qwUs Gwiqvq Le‡ii KvM‡Ri cvZvq mgq Kv‡U, GK Kvc Kwd wK‡b wb‡q Ifvi‡nW wUwf‡Z wmGbGb †`Lv hvq| wZb eQi Av‡Mi 11 †m‡Þ¤^i Av‡gwiKv‡K e`‡j w`‡q‡Q, Zv‡`i cwiYZ K‡i‡Q wm‡Rv‡d«wbK GK Rb‡Mvôx‡Z| mewKQy‡Z GLb mš¿v‡mi AvZsK| cyKz‡ii cvwb‡Z wbixn mv`v i‡Oi wKQy †`L‡j A¨vb_ªv· e‡j m‡›`n| mviv c„w_ex‡K Zviv GB ARynv‡Z e`‡j w`‡Z Pvq| G‡K a‡iv, I‡K gv‡iv, Zv‡K nUvI Ñ Gme Pj‡Q †mB †_‡K| GB AvZs‡Ki †Pnviv me‡P‡q †ewk `„k¨gvb Gqvi‡cv‡U©| wmwKDwiwU †PwKs-Gi mgq ïay ci‡bi c¨v›U Avi Rvgv Lyj‡Z nq bv| cv‡qi RyZv, †Kvg‡ii †eë †Lv‡jv, †mj‡dvb, wmMv‡i‡Ui c¨v‡KU, jvBUvi, LyP‡iv cqmv, Pvwei †MvQv †ei K‡i wmwKDwiwUi ev‡¯‹‡U `vI| Zvici †gUvj wW‡U±i jvMv‡bv `iRvi †fZi w`‡q nuv‡Uv| wcK AvIqvR n‡jv †Zv wd‡i wM‡q fv‡jv K‡i †`‡Lv kix‡ii †Kv_vI avZe Avi wKQy Av‡Q wK bv| e¨v‡Mi g‡a¨ Qywi-KuvwP RvZxq wKQy †bIqv hv‡e bv, h‡Zv †Qv‡UvB †nvK| I¸‡jvB bvwK mš¿vmx‡`i A¯¿| Kx Avðh©! Ôü`‡qi g‡Zv gvivZ¥K GKwU Av‡Mœqv¯¿, Avwg Rgv w`BwbÕ! †K wj‡LwQ‡jv? wbg©‡j›`y ¸Y| bZzb wbqgKvbyb Rvwi nIqvi Kv‡j weRyi g‡b n‡qwQ‡jv, GbmvB‡K¬vwcwWqv weªUvwbKvi fjy¨g¸‡jvI wbwl× Kivi K_v Kv‡iv g‡b c‡owb †Kb? †Qv‡UvLv‡Uv Qywi-Uzwii †P‡q I¸‡jvi ¶wZ Kivi ¶gZv †ewk Qvov Kg bq| Kv‡Pi †`qv‡ji evB‡i ZvwK‡q †`Lv hvq, ki‡Zi †iv` g‡i G‡m‡Q| †c−b bvgvi mgq †NvlYv ï‡bwQ‡jv, ¯’vbxq ZvcgvÎv cuqlwÆ wWMÖx dv‡ibnvBU| Z…Zxq we‡k¦i †`k¸‡jv‡ZI AvRKvj †gwUªK c×wZ Pvjy n‡q †M‡Q, A_P G‡`‡k †h †Kb cy‡ivcywi Pvjy n‡jv bv, †K Rv‡b! A™¢yZ GK ReiRs n‡q Av‡Q Ñ UvKvcqmvi wn‡m‡e `kwgK, cvkvcvwk Pvjy Av‡Q `~iZ¡m~PK dzU-MR-gvBj, IR‡bi †ejvq AvDÝ-cvDÛ| Ilyac‡Î wgwjMÖvg| M¨vm †÷k‡b hvI, †mLv‡b Avevi M¨vj‡bi wn‡me| †`vKv‡b †KvKv‡Kvjvi wek AvD‡Ýi †evZ‡ji cv‡k `yÕwjUv‡ii †evZ‡ji wbwe©‡iva mnve¯’vb|

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Av‡gwiKvi mvaviY gvbyl‡`i, hv‡`i mevi bvgB bvwK †Rv †e−v, AvBwKD-Gi †`Šo wb‡q A‡bK gRvi Mí Pvjy Av‡Q, †mUvB nq‡Zv GB RMvwLPzwo Ae¯’vUv ¯’vqx K‡i †i‡L‡Q| †mjwmqvm ev wgUvi ïb‡j Zviv nuv K‡i ZvwK‡q _vK‡e Ñ G¸‡jv Lvq, bv gv_vq gv‡L? Av‡iv GKUv KviY Av‡Q e‡j weRyi g‡b nq Ñ weL¨vZ gvwK©b Kwei ÔAvB n¨vf gvBjm Uz †MvÕ-i ï×Zv i¶vI `iKvi| wK‡jvwgUvim Uz †Mv ejv hv‡e? ej‡j nvm¨Ki †kvbv‡e bv! e¨v‡MR GjvKvq A`„k¨ myo½ †_‡K GLb Kb‡fqi †e‡ë P‡o †ewi‡q Avm‡Z ïi“ K‡i‡Q wewfbœ AvKvi I †Pnvivi my¨U‡Km, bvbv †Pnviv I ¯^v‡¯’¨i e¨vM, w¯−wcs e¨vM, KvW©‡ev‡W©i ev·| Mwo‡q †b‡g hv‡”Q Nyiš— K¨vi“‡m‡j| †hLv‡b `uvwo‡q Av‡Qv, _v‡Kv Ñ K¨vi“‡mj †Zvgvi e¨v‡MRwU mvg‡b G‡b nvwRi Ki‡j Uzc K‡i Zz‡j bvI| Kb‡fqi †e‡ë GKUv P¨vÞvg‡Zv j¤^v ev·I †`Lv hvq, AvKvi †`‡L †fZ‡i Kx Av‡Q †evSvi Dcvq †bB| meB Avm‡Q, ïay weRyi Kv‡jv i‡Oi e¨vMUvi †`Lv cvIqv hv‡”Q bv| †f‡e †`L‡j Lye A™¢yZ Avi Awek¦vm¨| Rxe‡b Aš—Z GKeviI wK Ii e¨v‡MR cÖ_gw`‡K Avm‡Z cv‡i bv? Kb‡fqi †e‡ë Kv‡iv bv Kv‡iv e¨vM ev my¨U‡Km †Zv cÖ_‡g Avm‡eB| †mB cÖ_gUv KL‡bvB weRyi bq, GgbKx cÖ_g `k-c‡b‡ivUvi g‡a¨I Zvi e¨v‡M‡Ri †`Lv †m cvqwb G R‡b¥| Gqvi‡cv‡U© KvD‡K nq‡Zv wiwmf Ki‡Z G‡m‡Q weRy| Zvi hvÎxwU AeavwiZfv‡e G‡Kev‡i †k‡li w`‡K †n‡j`y‡j †ewi‡q Av‡m Ñ †c−‡bi †fZ‡i e‡m G‡Zv¶Y Kx †h K‡i, †K Rv‡b! Kuv‡a †Svjv‡bv nvZe¨vM Amn¨ jvMwQ‡jv| fvix †Zgb bq, Zey Ah_v Nv‡o Zz‡j ivLviI †Kv‡bv gv‡b nq bv| e¨vM weRy cv‡qi Kv‡Q bvwg‡q iv‡L| nvZ `y‡Uv ey‡Ki Ici AvovAvwo †i‡L `uvovq| Kb‡fqi †e‡ëi Ic‡i ivLv †Pv‡L wkKvix gvQivOvi GKvMÖZv| †bŠKvq bvbvevwo hvIqvi mgq †`‡L‡Q, k~‡b¨ GKB RvqMvq w¯’i †_‡K gvQivOv µgvMZ Wvbv SvcUvq, Zvi APÂj †PvL wb‡P cvwbi †fZ‡i fvm‡Z _vKv gv‡Qi Ici| A¯¿ Zvi †VuvU, ZvK K‡i Av‡Q wkKv‡ii w`‡K| Kv‡jv e¨vM †kl ch©š— †`Lv †`q| weRy Kb‡fqi †eë †_‡K e¨vM Zz‡j wb‡ZB cv‡k `uvov‡bv GKRb nvwmgy‡L e‡j, m¤¢eZ †Zvgvi fyj n‡q‡Q| e¨vMUv Avgvi| e‡UB †Zv Ñ G iKgB nIqvi K_v! ûeû GK iKg †`L‡Z, Zey e¨vM Ii bq! weeªZ gy‡L `ytwLZ e‡j e¨v‡Mi `Lj †Q‡o †`q weRy| `ytwLZ †m nqwb, ejvi R‡b¨ ejv| `ytwLZ Zvi wb‡Ri R‡b¨ nIqv DwPZ| †h †Kv‡bvwKQy wVK †hiKg NUv DwPZ e‡j g‡b nq, Zvi †ejvq Kxfv‡e †hb me wbqg-Kvbyb cv‡ë hvq!

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e¨v‡MR GjvKvi wfo wKQy cvZjv n‡q hvIqvi ci wb‡Ri e¨v‡Mi `Lj †c‡q weRy Gm‡K‡jU‡i wb‡P †b‡g Av‡m| wb‡Pi G RvqMvUv myo‡½i g‡Zv Ñ Av‡av AÜKvi| w`b`ycy‡iI evwZ R¡‡j| †h iv¯—vUv Ny‡i Ny‡i Gqvi‡cv‡U©i me¸‡jv Uvwg©bvj Qy‡u q P‡j †M‡Q, Zvi mgvš—ivj K‡i gvwUi wb‡P evbv‡bv n«¯^ GB myo½-iv¯—v¸‡jv| myo½¸‡jv Lye `xN© bq e‡j `yÕw`K †_‡K w`‡bi Av‡jv wKQy Av‡m, wbD Bq‡K©i AvÛviMÖvDÛ †Uªb †÷k‡bi g‡Zv cy‡iv iv‡Zi †Pnviv cvq bv| Ic‡ii g~j iv¯—v †_‡K Avjv`v n‡q myo‡½ Xy‡K Av‡iKw`K w`‡q †ewi‡q Avevi m`i iv¯—vq D‡V c‡ov| GB myo½-iv¯—vi cv‡k ewnM©vgx hvÎx‡`i R‡b¨ †PK-Bb Kivi e¨e¯’v, we‡kl K‡i Lye fvix jv‡MR _vK‡j GLv‡b †PK-Bb Ki‡Z myweav, UvbvUvwb K‡i Ic‡i bv wM‡q Mvwo †_‡K †b‡g K‡qK cv G‡Mv‡j KvD›Uvi| Kv‡Q Kv‡P †Niv hvÎx‡`i cÖ‡ekc_, Gm‡K‡jU‡i Ic‡i wWcviPvi jvD‡Ä D‡V hvIqvi e¨e¯’v| Gwj‡fUiI Av‡Q| iv¯—vi Icv‡i AvÛviMÖvDÛ Mvwo cvwK©s-Gi RvqMv| Wv‡b-euv‡q ZvwK‡q wewfbœ Rv‡Zi mvBb †`‡L weRy ey‡S DV‡Z cv‡i bv, wVK †Kv_vq `uvov‡Z n‡e ev‡mi R‡b¨| `y‡Uv evm `uvwo‡q Av‡Q mvgvb¨ `~i‡Z¡, G¸‡jvi GKUvI Ii bq| Gqvi‡cv‡U©i cwð‡g Mvwo cvwK©s GjvKvq hv‡e GKUv, Ab¨Uv kvU&j& evm Ñ hvÎx‡`i wb‡q hv‡e kn‡ii †fZ‡i hvÎx‡`i hvi hvi †nv‡Uj ev evwoi wVKvbvq| Ii evmI ILv‡b Avm‡e wbðqB| cv‡q cv‡q GwM‡q hvq †m| e¨vM `y‡Uv bvwg‡q †i‡L fv‡e, wmMv‡iU aiv‡bv `iKvi| e÷b Gqvi‡cv‡U© †XvKvi Av‡M †kl wmMv‡iU †L‡q‡Q Ñ cuvP NÈviI †ewk| AvRKvj †Kv‡bv d¬vB‡UB wmMv‡iU LvIqv hvq bv| GgbKx †Kv_vI †Kv_vI Gqvi‡cv‡U©i †fZ‡iI bq| †Kv‡bv †Kv‡bv Gqvi‡cv‡U©i †fZ‡i Aek¨ a~gcv‡bi R‡b¨ wbw`©ó RvqMv K‡i †`Iqv Av‡Q| AvUjv›Uvq †`‡L‡Q, cvkvcvwk `y‡Uv LuvPvi g‡Zv Ni, †mLv‡b e‡m a~gcvb Kiv hvq| †Kvwiqvi wmDj Gqvi‡cv‡U© †`‡LwQ‡jv Av‡iv fqven Ae¯’v| KvP‡Niv `iRveÜ N‡i wmMv‡iU †L‡Z wM‡q `g eÜ n‡q Avmvi †RvMvo n‡qwQ‡jv| †XvKvi Av‡M evB‡i †_‡KB †`Lv hvw”Q‡jv, NiwU †auvqvq a~mi| †ewi‡q Avmvi ci g‡b nq, IB N‡i NÈv `y‡qK KvD‡K AvU‡K †i‡L w`‡j mvivRxe‡bi g‡Zv wmMv‡iU LvIqvi B‡”Q D‡o hv‡e| weRy wb‡R Aek¨ IB N‡i `yÕNÈv _vK‡e bv, wmMv‡iU †Q‡o †`Iqvi B‡”Q KL‡bv n‡j †`Lv hv‡e| cÖvq mviv c„w_ex‡Z GLb wmMv‡iU‡Lvi‡`i e‡ov `yw`©b, cÖvq RvZ‡MvÎnxb cÖvYx wn‡m‡e MY¨ Kiv nq Zv‡`i| G †`‡k cywj‡k a‡i †cUv‡j cywj‡ki bv‡g gvgjv Vy‡K

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