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to ................................. FOR LOVE, REMEMBRANCE AND MEMORY MAY YOU PASS THROUGH YOUR LIFE GENTLY WITH POETISC ATMOSPHERE BY READING THESE POEMS.

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SPECIAL THANKS TO ...

MY PARENTS, MY WIFE, MY SON AND MY DAUGHTER, MG NOE WHO PAINTED THIS COVER, NAING MYO HTUN (emperor sarpay) WHO HELPED WITH SUGGESTIONS, LUZAWTHIT WHO ARRANGED AND DESIGNED THIS BOOK, ESPECIALLY MY AUDIENCE AND SPECTATORS.

NAY NAW WORD & PLOTS CONSTRUCTOR

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