17 January 2008 Dear _______________________, Presumably
because
deliberate
of
neglect
my
to
continued
attend
disregard
to
or
consequential
an
entirely
obligations
incidental to my becoming a part of a community of servants that I could not perform religiously, I am causing this letter to be made. I have to admit though that I have been running for almost a lifetime once confronted with a situation where justice to ones affiliation and obligation is at stake. I could have averted these circumstances if not because of my intent to widen my horizon
and
involve
my
life
to
other
persons
of
similar
predicament. My
limited
understanding
of
instances
and
circumstances,
my
impulsive concept of action and reaction and my myopic view of cause and effect all form part of this sudden decision in an attempt to address all those concerns relative to my attendance to services and such other sworn duty. My life has
been
characterized
by
solitary
confinement
to a
willful degree. The spirituality in me could not manifest its true character. I must have caused you too much trouble, the community as well. If only I could find ways of lessening such… The bottom-line of all these tedious, verbose and circumlocutory statements
is
that
I
could
no
longer
be
able
to
meet
the
responsibilities of being a part of the community of servants. There
is
this
feeling
of
unworthiness
brought
about
by
a
continuing
struggle.
It
all
boils
down
to
the
question
of
priority. At any given time and even space, one can never be really both definite and ambivalent about his decisions, about persons or situations. Certainly,
there
explanation
for
could all
of
be
no
these
enough, faulty,
valid
or
irreverent
reasonable and
selfish
human decisions. Turning away from a cause that proved to be as vital
as
any
calculated
other
solely
experience for
the
is
something
purpose
of
that
evasion
I or
have
not
complete
avoidance. If time will permit, I am trying to re-position, re-assess and retrieve
the
lost
pieces
of
what
has
become
of
me
after
a
lifetime of chase. By then, all these conditions must have taken its rightful place in my system and history. May we still be continually blest with good health, a healthy mind and a mindful heart. Thank you very much and God bless.
Regretfully,