Delfarno Final Draft 2019

Senior year and the realization of growing up in your last year of traditional school has always terrified me, ever since I was in sixth grade or so I’d say. I knew that your last year of high school would bring change, but to what extent? I wasn’t sure. Towards the end of my junior year summer, once I knew that I would in fact be a senior in the upcoming fall, so it was best to at least start brainstorming the concept of my senior film. It wasn’t long after that thought process that I realized the idea of filming a film and letting others have an inside look at what goes on in my head intimidated me. But that’s when I realized that I needed to manifest that fear and constant worry of what others had to think into something productive, I couldn’t move ahead and grow if I let it intimidate me as it did. I decided that there was really no better way to overcome the fear than to face it head on. That being said, that is one of; if not the biggest reason I’ve decided to document my senior year and my experiences that take place doing so. Thinking about it alone causes me to feel excited, nervous, and some intimidation lingers. Usually to get rid of this, I tell myself that it’s just best to do this rather than do something that I’m not as excited or passionate about. How can I produce something with my whole heart and efforts in it unless it’s something that’s always had it for the long run?

With all of that being said, I want to reflect on certain things I really would like to emphasize on in my film. First would be primary colors and my underlying relationship with them throughout my life up until this point. There’s been phases in my life where each color in the wheel was my favorite color. That currently stands with how I feel towards yellow. My family is more than aware of this, with that being said, my family is going to be playing a large role in my film. Both

them and my friends give me a sense of security and routine. The memories I’ve created and have yet to create are sure to play a part in the person I am on my graduation day.

With the academic and maturing side to senior year, and what I expect it to bring (a job, driving, college and where to stay while attending), comes fear. Fear being such a powerful emotion, it’s a little too easy for me to avoid the unknown and change rather than challenging that and applying lessons learned to the future. In my film I’m looking to showcase that, and in due time, visually show just how that affects my life, sort of like a domino effect the more that I think about it, and I have yet to definitely tell whether that’s a good or bad thing.

There are important dates I know for sure I would like to incorporate into my movie; The celebration of my eighteenth birthday party with family, days spent with my friends during various breaks, senior art portfolio; specifically theatre, as that as my major, things and days spent in between. I can’t predict the future, sadly enough, but I know everything will be okay. I know in my heart I’m aiming for this film to be raw and real, in the best way possible. I want the audience to witness some level of growth by the end of it. For that to happen, I myself have to find it in me to be willing for that growth to actually occur.