The Colonel Had a Dream (Based on real incident) Lt Col Jayachandran had a dream last night. This is not to say that this was the only dream that he had. He cherishes several dreams except the one that would create a Catch 22 of exiting the Army. However, the dream mentioned here is different. Perhaps it is important to mention the setting of the dream, which would of course amount to explaining a few things about yesterday. Yesterday in fact was the eve before the final handing over of charge at Agra. Handing over charge and leaving for Shimla has been looming large over the horizons beyond Fatehpur Sikri for the last couple of months. The cool breeze from the Jamuna which carried this message to the sleepy streets of Agra for the last few weeks has in fact been wet not because it passed over the great river. It was tears that wetted the breeze. Our Colonel has spent the longest tenure of his life in uniform in Agra. Spread over two terms, the association with Agra extended to seven years, pretty long a period for a military officer. Colonel was feeling a bit nervous at the Bada Khana last night. Bade Khane are in fact so much a part of Army life that there was no need to feel nervous. Still the Colonel did. Feeling some sort of a shivering around his knees, the Colonel swallowed a few more pegs than usual of his favourite rum. (For those uninitiated about Bada Khana, Rum is the preferred drink at all Bade Khane). Colonel felt nervous because of his passion for Agra. It is where he became part of an unrivalled legacy. Akbar, Jahangir, Shah Jahan …down to the poor descendents of Bahadur Shah Zafar. And on the fairer side, Nur Jahan, Mumtas Mahal, and the enchanting dancers of the Mughal courts. Country roads, take me home… The dream happened in the night. That was quite all right as Colonels never get time to indulge in day dreaming. In fact while the Army bashers spend half of their lives in day dreaming, the armed ones spend sleepless nights at gun point to protect the dreams of the former and their future generations! There is an argument that supply of alcohol in the Army was started as a way of tranquilising and thus keeping dreams at bay. The dream started in a foggy evening. The fog was so thick that nothing was visible initially. Then, as the air was getting clearer slowly, Colonel realised that he was standing inside a labyrinthine corridor of Fatehpur Sikri. The red walls, the smell of
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history, the preoccupations of an empire, yes, the Colonel could not miss it. It was Fatehpur Sikri. The bats that had been hanging from the roof when the Colonel visited Fatehpur Sikri last time had disappeared. The walls looked pristine with an alluring finesse, deceiving the five hundred years of its history. A cool wind passed by, spreading a delicate scent a bit unfamiliar to the Colonel. Colonel walked ahead through the corridor. It was lit by antique lamps. There was smell of olive oil in the air. Colonel kept walking and realised that the entire palace was empty. Looking behind he saw that the lights were off the moment he passed. He followed the light, as he usually does. Suddenly, he heard a low voice, yes, someone was sobbing in a room nearby. Colonel was sure it was a woman. He proceeded in that direction. The gigantic ebony door with masterly craft of the Mughal age was half closed. He opened it fully and entered the room. It was a large bed room furnished with the most elegant wooden wares, lit by hanging lamps. The room looked intriguing with the light and the shades of large wooden furniture mixing as if in a surrealist painting. On the bed was sitting a woman dressed as a dancer. Colonel stopped for a moment looking at her. She was a woman of unparalleled beauty and splendour. The Colonel could see an aura around her. She sat there radiating a captivating fragrance. She was shivering. Colonel, without waiting to get over with the surprise, took a kambal from the bed and wrapped around the woman. ‘It is not so cold’, said the Colonel, ‘Still why are you shivering?’ The woman said something, the Colonel failed to hear. ‘Please speak louder’ said the Colonel softly, telling himself that if such low decibels were audible to him he would have been flying fighter planes rather than jumping from them! ‘I am shivering because I was thinking of Shimla’, the woman said, sobbing, yet louder. Astonished, Colonel asked: ‘Who are you, you pretty woman?’
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‘I am Anarkali’, said the woman. Shocked, Colonel asked: ‘What are you doing here?’ ‘I am preparing to leave for Shimla’, said Anarkali. ‘I need to accompany you. I cannot leave you’, she started sobbing again. ‘But I have never met you before’, said the Colonel. ‘That’s the tragic story of Anarkali’, the woman said in a very low voice. The rest she did not say, but the Colonel could hear what ever she could not say, as though he was unravelling the words hidden under the heavy carpet of silence. I spent my nights dancing for the Mughals. The days I spent in the dark corridors of the Mughal palaces. I walked around the corridors in silence. No body ever saw me. But I was there. It was inside these corridors that Salim failed to see me. It was here that Akbar the Great refused to see me. I have no complaints. That is my fate. ‘But… but, how did you ever notice me?’ asked the Colonel, this time his voice breaking in between. ‘I have been a fan of Zidane till he hit Materrazi down at the World Cup finals. I could not stand that. Of all the people, how could Zidane do it? How could he play into such trap? I felt sad. It was one of those days that I saw you in that foot ball match at the Agra Challenger on July 19th’. She continued speaking in a carefully modulated voice, as a shocked Colonel honed his ears. ‘You were just irresistible. That scissors cut just bowled me over. I know it should have been before a capacity crowd, a gallery of Mexican waves, here you just had a few people, and that background of yellow walls that looked like the walls of a jail with those brown strips….’ Colonel lost a breath; he wished his ears were a bit more sensitive. ‘Still the background did not reduce its flair. It was just too good. Since then, I have been following you, in every moment of your life’. Anarkali stopped for a moment, looked at Colonel with her sharp eyes before she said: ‘You know Colonel? One day I want to accompany you in a parachute dive. I want to dive down to the blue ocean with you, shifting and sliding in the wind of the skies. Then
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I want to go with you down beneath the waters, to the palaces of childhood stories where all dreams come true. To the palaces where every look is acknowledged, every tear drop is wiped off, every smile is returned, and every gesture is noticed’. Saying this, Anarkali moved forward in a blaze of unforeseen passion, and was about to hug the Colonel. And the Colonel, in anticipation, shifted backwards. Suddenly lights went off. The Colonel shut his eyes and then opened them into the mundane incandescent light of his army quarters. Colonel saw Maya coming down from the skies as if in a parachute dive, asking what happened and the Colonel realised that he had fallen from the bed.
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