Ashlee Storii

Chapta 1 It all began this morning, on a bus 64. I was sitting upstairs towards the back, all by myself, listening to my phone when he got on the bus. He sat immediately behind me, and I could feel his eyes on me, I couldn�t turn around as it would have been obvious that I was looking at him, so I kept my cool and faced the front of the bus. About five minutes later, he tapped me on my shoulder. I cleared my throat, and turned to face him. �Hi,� he said. I looked at him and said the same back and turned back around thinking what a weirdo. He tapped again and was �like can I talk to you for a minute�. I turned around and we started talking. We talked for about 20 mins until I had to get off the bus, coz I was going school. As I was about to get off the bus, he asked for my number, and I gave it too him as I didn�t have no other prospective hubby�s. He was running through my mind all morning. I was thinking, why a choong black boy like him would wanna churps a girl like me. I mean it ain�t like I was buttaz or sumfin, I was white, but most people thought I was mixed race coz of my curly hair, my dark skin and my �black girl backoff� as my frends called it. The rest of the day blew by me like wind, and then I went home. I was sitting at my computer, when my phone started ringin. It was a number that I didn�t recognise. I answered and I kinda recognised the sexy deep voice, but I weren�t sure. �Hello� �Hi�it�s Dwayne�the one from the bus. This is Ashlee right?� �Oh, hi!� we talked for like 2 hours, jus getting 2 kno each other�dat kina ting. My stinkin mother decided 2 keep callin me 2 do dis do dat, so I had to get off the fone, but I said to call me back lata�lyk 10 abwt 10:15 sumwun foned me on priv8 numba. I pickd it up n it was ma ex Anthony� Chapta 2 He was jus talkin his usual shit abwt he wants me bck n how he is srry 4 wat he did etc etc�I jus hung up da fone n went abwt my bizness. We had been talking on da fone and msn 4 bout 3 weeks, wen 1 day I was jamming wid my bredrins Lindsey, Shanice and Frankie and he called me 2 invite me 2 sum shubz in Peckham. I asked if I could bring sum frends as I didn�t rilly wanna link him on my 1z, and he said all ryte�n he would bring sum frends 4 dem. We all got dressed up as we had bin planning 2 go out anyways. I wore white jeans, a black vest and a black and white hoody. We had arranged to meet da bois at clocktower. Wen we wer on da bus on da way dere he txted me sayin dat wen we get dere to act lyk we dint kno dem, a bit random I kno but dere was obviously a reason. We got 2 clocktower lyk 7 and Dwayne and his �mandem� wer sittin dere but they basically ignored us. In the end we just got bored of sittin dere coz we musta looked lyk dickheads�coz we sat dere and every bus dat came 2 dat stop came n we didn�t get on any�in the end we jus got on a bus 2 norbury n went 2 sum under 18�s club. Dat nite I got nicely tipsy on sum vodka, rum n Bacardi. Da next morning, which was Saturday, I had sum next 16 missed I was finkin hus bin bellin off ma line lyk dis. Dey wer all from Dwayne except for 4, dey were from my ex Anthony. At about 9:45 Dwayne called me and was like sorry for last night, how he kinda lost track of time coz him and da mans was shottin. I was jus lyk skeen. And den he was lyk u ain�t got nuffin else 2 say�it was a bit of a ded convo, but den he was lyk 2 make up 4 it how bout me n u go out 2day, round Croydon etc. We spent most of dat day in Croydon shopping centre and I was bare buying myself clothes and undies�jus 2 c his reaction. I could c him lookin at my batty while I was walking, and checkin out my bra size and ting wen I was buying tings lyk dat. Da fing is I neva actually said I would link him I was jus lyk wateva nd I 4got about it wen I went out nd den I saw him standin dere waitin 4 me�lyk a looser.

It was kinda fun 2 b with him n den he was lyk do u wanna go cinema dis evening. So I went. We saw da eye, nd he kept tryna lips up on me nd I was jus lyk no its not happenin mate. Afta us bein dere 4 lyk 45 mins I turned my head nd he jus kissed me and we didn�t stop til da end of da film� he was wun sexy lipser�lyk gosh. Wen da film finished he was lyk wats the deal with us. We had some next ten minute discussion nd we decided 2 jus go wiv da flow. About a month later, we had started seein each other regularly wen he brought it up agen. I fink he had an obsession wiv dis. We wer sittin dere in silence wen he asked me 2 b his wifey�I was actually shocked� I luked in 2 his eyes and sed yea. We sat dere lipsin 4 lyk a half hour b4 we broke apart� I was walkin home dat nite wen I reached my road. I had just turnd rwnd da corner wen I herd sumfin hit da floor bhind me. I turned rwnd n Anthony was standin dere wiv his blick self hldin a shank in his hands� Chapta 3 Da shank was covered in blood n da blood was drippin pon de floor� �What�s happnd Anthony�what have u dun�?� He tld me dat his bredrins had had beef wid sum manz outta endz n he had gon 2 bck it 4 his n he ended up shankin wunna dem even doe it wernt ment 2 b dat kinda fyte� I took him in my house n told him 2 go into bathroom 2 clean up. I myte have hated him, but he was still a bredrins. I let him stay ova dat nite (in da spare room). Da nxt mornin we was in da hse alone 2getha wen I woke up. I went 2 wake him up but he ws gon� A month lata We had been dealing 4 abwt 3 months and ma skool had jus broken 4 da summer holidays. Me and Dwayne were jamming alone in my house wen we got into wun of our lipsin sessions and fings were actually getting hot nd steamy as dey say. He was bare feelin up my batty and my breasts. My nipples were bare getting hard thru my top. I stood up and I started walkin upstairs and told him 2 follow me. We went into my room an I locked da door. My mum n step-dad was away but wun of my sistas myte have cum home. We layed down on da bed and continued lipsin and we carried on feelin each otha up. We started takin each othas clothes off and I was kinda scared coz I was a virgin, but he knew, so he was bein gentle even doe we weren�t even mashin yet. He told me 2 turn over n I was thinking he was gonna give me backshot, but he didn�t he was just rubbin all over ma back. He turned me back ova nd started fingerin me�my pussy was all wet and swollen� �Damn, I know you�re a virgin, but ur pussy is TIGHT! But dnt worry I�m getting u ready 4 me� I cud feel his dick rubbin against ma back n it was bare hard n I was bare moanin loud�it was painful but it was pleasure 2�I thought fank god its da finga not dat huge dick�he was hittin da spot n it felt GOOD�I was grindin ovaly hard on his finga as if it was da real fing� afta I came n he licked my juices away, he started kissin my breasts� I tried 2 grab his dick but it was ovaly huge. Dwayne lied down on top of my nd I could feel his dick getting closer and it felt so good�he slid da hed in, and was gona put more in but den I clocked sumfin�he dint hav a condom on�I put hands on his shoulders 2 stop him goin further nd asked him wer it was�he sed he didn�t hav 1 but I ent no dikhed 2 b mashin wivout a condom n he askd if I had wun�I gave him a look dat sed y wud I have wun� he stood up tryna work out wat 2 do he pulled his boxers and I herd him go into da bathroom. He was in dere 4 lyk 5 mins den he came out n was lyk �I�m gona run 2 a chemist n get some�� he pulled on his jacket, grabbed a key n ran out da house�afta lyk 10 mins he came back he put dem on da side. We wer lipsin 4 a long time n he was fingerin me at da same tyme�afta a while I guess my pussy was wet enuff 4 him, coz he sat up an took a condom�he rolled it on and layed down on top

of me again. Agen he slid in 2 me slowly wiv da hed first�he started pushin da rest of it in�it hurt bare afta a few minutes it turnd into pleasure, agen�I was ovaly grindin on his dick nd it felt so so so good I could feel myself cumin but I didn�t�he stopped lipsin me and started lickin my nipples and it was all too much 4 me I was moanin lyk a freak�I was digging my nails into his back an all sorts�I didn�t kno I cud act lyk dat. I was grindin grindin grindin til finally I came. He came a few seconds later. For da rest of da day we was mashin lyk sum next sex fiends. Da next morning wen we woke up my pussy was sore as hell, boy but it was worth it. We spent most of da morning�til lyk 11 o�clock in bed, mashin�it was great. Afta dat he went home and I went dwnstairs. Both my sisters were asleep, so I decided to jam and watch TV till dey woke up den we could do sumfin. About 20 mins lata, my olda step-sista came dwnstairs and was lyk �why did u go sleep so early yday?� I jus said I was tired. She was probly suspicious but didn�t say nefin� I went bck 2 sleep n wen I woke up Anthony was standin ova ma wiv dat same shank in da hand�

Chapta 3.5 He threw bck my bedsheets n sat on da bed. He pulled dwn my pj shorts n I was lyk �wt u doin?� �He sed u neva gave me no pussy wen we was dealin�y da fuck u fink I cheated on u�n white girls are ment 2 crave blck bois�kmft� He put da shank dwn n shoved his dick in me�my pussy was bre bunin n shit�I wernt evn wet�I burst in 2 tears n he slappd me rwnd my face n put da shank 2 my throat�I was bre shakin n he pulld da dick outta me n put da shank up my pussy I ws bre screamin n cryin my pussy was bleedin lyk no mans evn bin up dere or is eva gna b dere agen. My body was shaking violently n den I�

Chapta 4 �Woke up. My sista was neelin ova me�tryna shake me awake. �why were u fuckin screamin�?� �sorry�did I wake u�� It was all a dream� a really bad dream dat I hoped neva came true. It was nearly da end of da summer holidays, and I was going shopping for a new school blazer etc. I was walking down Church Street in Croydon, when I saw my ex, Anthony standing outside Hewitts. I started laufin wen I saw him coz of da dream. His younger sister came out of the shop carrying a bag and they started walking towards me. Dere was nufin I could do except act lyk I hadn�t seen dem. He turned to look at me just as we passed each otha and he started callin my name. wen I reached him I startd creasin agen�I turned round slowly and acted lyk I was happy 2 c him. We stood talkin 4 lyk half an hour and when we finished he was lyk �I miss u, u kno�. I didn�t kno wat 2 say 2 dat�it was really awkward. Luckily his sister said she was hungry, so he had to take her home or wherever. Later that day Dwayne called me and said he was coming over� we didn�t mash that afternoon, firstly coz my mum was home, and secondly coz we jus weren�t in dat kinda mood. My mum went to work, and then it was just me, him & my sisters. We went upstairs to

my room and were just watching a film etc and den he got a txt frm sumwun�at first he ignored it, but den he took is fone out, den read it. It must hav bin sum nxt long txt coz he was reading 4 tymee� afta about 5 mins, he said he hadta go and he would call me later. He kissed me and left. I was worried that he was in trouble, but I weren�t exactly gona follow him, so I jus continued watchin da film. I fell asleep, and at about 10:30, Dwayne foned me and he sounded pissed and he was telling me how he told his dad bout us, and his dad flipped�cussin him 4 goin out wiv a white gyal etc etc�I just sat dere in silence til he stopped talkin�I was bare upset and angry, coz he was letting it affect him, yet he was always sayin he dnt care wat ppl say bout him. Afta taking a few deep breaths, I said �look Dwayne, you obviously care more about wat othas are saying about us�or shall I say me�ur letting it affect u n I kno dat eventually, you�ll take it 2 seriously and end up hurtin me, and quite frankly am sick of mandem treatin me lyk sum bitch�bare doggin me n ting�so I fink we should just end dis now b4 it goes 2 far.� He was silent for a bit� and then started tryin 2 argue wit me, sayin how dats not true�he would never hurt me etc�I was jus finkin dats exactly wat Anthony sed, and yet he tried to sleep wid wun of my bredrins�he sed dat he knos I bin hurt b4, but he wudn�t do dem kinda tings. He was beggin me 2 just trust him, and let him prove himself�I sed I had to fink bout it�den locked off da fone. Da next morning I had nuff texts n missed calls sayin dat he luvs me n ting�but u kno how mandem are�jus say wt u wanna hear n quite frankly I wernt dwn 4 dis shit no mre...

Chapta 5 I didn�t speak 2 him 4 da rest of da holidays but he kept tryna fne me. i was basiclly jus airin his calls but den on my first day bak at skool, I finally decided 2 tlk 2 him. he fned me at break n askd me 2 meet him in da park...at 4 30 we met in the park near my school, and was sittin on da swings. Both of us were silent until he started talking. I wernt rilly listenin 2 him, but I got da gist of wat he was sayin which was basically how he didn�t fink he would fall in love with me and not dis quickly, but he had, how he never imagined himself with a white gyal, but I was different, I wernt lyke dem otha gyals� I just sat dere listenin and didn�t say nethin. Afta about 15 mins of him flappin his gums, I took his hand I said, I was sorry and that I forgave him. I stood up and took him home with me. When we got to my house we went straight to my room. Yet again he was lipsin me and was takin it all ova my body, my lips, my face, my neck, my chest, my breasts, thighs and tummy. It was all makin me wet as a waterfall. He put his face between my legs and was lickin and rubbin my clit�he was lightly nibbling it 2� my wetness probably splatted his face. Afta about 10 mins he lifted his head up and went into the bathroom. Wen he came bck he laid down on top of me and started lipsin me agen and I could feel his dick which was bre hard and standin tall. While we wer lipsin I was bashin him off and he was fingerin me. he came all ova my hand and I didn�t know at 2 do wiv it. He tld me 2 lik it but I refused nd afta a few mins of play fightin he shoved my hand in my mouf and rubbed it all ova my lips. I used da duvet 2 wipe my hands n mouf and den I turnd ova n pretended 2 go sleep. He tried turning me ova, but I pushd him off me nd jus layd still. He threw his leg ova me and started kissin my neck. I turned ova and we started lipsin agen. His dick was getting hard agen�he pushed me down, put a condom on and lay down on top of me. I spread my legs wide and he slowly pushed his dick in. it still kinda hurt, bt I knew it wuld feel gud soon. He started pushin in n out slowly nd I started grindin on him again. We started mashin lyk propa propa hardcore bre grindin n da bed was bangin da wall etc n afta lyk 15 mins I finally came and he came straight afta. We

slept 4 a bit den got up n got dressed and was just tlkin init, bwt wer we wer goin(our relationship) etc. i rilly dint kno if i cud trust him but i chose 2 take a chance wiv him coz i kno all bois ent da same....we went 2 his house n had sumfin 2 eat. aftawards we was jus jammin. we was lipsin 4 a bit n den we wer sittin on the sofa watchin tv god knows wt we was watchin...i fink it was corrie..it was 1 of dem soaps...and I had my eyes closed. I heard someone come in to the house n I thought it would be his mum coz his dad didn�t live with them n his sista was out. I opened my eyes nd saw his dad lukin dwn at us�especially me�in disgust�

Chapta 6 Dwayne just looked at him as if he was sayin y u here. He was bein ovaly rude 2 his dad askin sum nxt questions lyk how did u get in here etc. his dad just luked at him nd askd 2 speek 2 him in private�he got up and dey went out of da room. I cud hear his dad bre shoutin at him n he was lyk y u bringin dat gyal up in dis hse�sme tings he basically sed b4� I clled out 2 him dat I was goin n wlkd out da yard, coz I wernt in da mood 2 b hearin dem fings. 8 months lata� Me n Dwayne have bin dealin 4 lyk a year now nd fings are goin great� or so I fawt. One mornin I went ova 2 his house n his mum opened da door and sed he was upstairs. I ran up da stairs finkin we would spend da whole day 2geva�little did I kno my heart was abwt 2 b broken� I opened da door and I saw him�lyin naked in bed wiv sum black gyal dat I recognised frm road�he opened his eyes n luked happy 2 c me�until he clocked dat da girl was still dere. I could feel tears forming in my eyes n I stood dere, waitin 4 him 2 say sumfin. Da girl opened her eyes n saw me standin dere nd looked both shocked n scared. I started shoutin at him�. �U FUKIN DICKHED SO DIS WAS DA REASON Y U DITCHED ME AT DAT PARTY�WT HPPND 2 BEIN SIK�UR A FUCKIN WASTEMAN�Y I EVEN BOTHA WITH U I DNT FUKIN KNO� U KNO WAT I HAVE HAD ENUFF�U�VE BROKEN MY HEART...BT U TRUST ME UR NOT DA 1ST N UR CERTAINLY NOT GONA B DA LAST I FUKIN HATE U�WE ARE FUKIN DUN!� I turned rwnd n walked out�da tears were drippin dwn my face as I ran dwn da stairs he was callin my name and tried 2 run afta me�his mum came out da kitchen n asked wt had happnd. �Ask�Ur�fucking�son� I ran out da house nd ran dwn da road till I reached da bus stop. I didn�t go home till lyk 12 dat night I spent da whole jus sittin random places cryin� wen I got home I went straight 2 my room and laid down on my bed�my fone had lyk 50 missed calls nd bre voicemails n txts� I put my head down on da pillow. Da next morning I woke to sound of da front door shuttin�I was on study leave 4 my GCSEs so I fawt I betta start revisin n ting. Went into da bathroom cleaned myself up a bit, went out my room nd wlkd dwn da stairs wiv a maths revision guide n a notebook. Abwt 1 � hours lata da doorbell started ringin n I went 2 open it�deres was no1 dere so I turns rwnd n kickd da door shut. I herd it hit sumfin� I turned rwnd n Dwayne was standin dere. I jus stood n luked at him. He luked bre guilty� �I dnt kno wat 2 say Ashlee��

�Instead of sayin sumfin, y dnt u do sumfin. 1stly go bck in time n neva sleep wiv dat skett�secondly, GET OUT OF MY FUCKIN HOUSE!� I shouted. I pushed him out da door n slammed it in his face. He was callin thru da door �Ashlee�plz am beggin u�jus tlk 2 me�lemme explain�� I jus ignored him n went n sat in da livin room n carried on revisin. Dis had rilly pissed me off n I cudnt concentrate no more so I went out n he was bre sittin on my doorstep. He grabbed my hand as I prepared to walk past. I luked at him n I saw he had tears in his eyes. I kinda felt srry�but den I remembrd wt he did. I pulled him off da floor, unlocked da door and led him in�

Chapta 7 We went into da livin room n we was sittin dere in silence 4 a bit n den startd �explainin� wat happnd�how she jus came ova�dey wer jammin �bunin weed�drinkin etc�I sat dere listenin 2 him. All I sed was dat I needed space n time to think abwt it b4 I even fawt abwt takin him bck, especially afta wt he dun� 1 month lata Me n Dwayne still aint bck 2getha but he�s still tryna get wid me�I finished my GCSEs n it�s our prom in lyk 2 weeks� Da mornin of prom I�ve bin doin bre ppls hair dis mornin coz evrywun knos am sick at hair so ryte now am doin wun of my besties, Charmaine�s hair. �Bitch how u wnt ur hair, n dnt try n tke da piss wiv sum nxt long ting cz I got my own hair 2 b doin�� �oi u hoe dnt cll me a bitch� neways I wnt u 2 wash it den blow dry it den gimme dat hairstyle u did 4 da foto shoot u kno da wrap wid curls etc..� Her brother, Reece came in da room n gave me sum next look bre lickin his lips n ting. I jus ignored it n sed hi� Afta I finishd Charmaine�s hair I was bwt 2 leave coz it was lyk 4 n prom was strtin at 7 wen he cme thru da door as I ws putin ma shoes on. I lukd at him n he lukd at me n did exactly wt he did b4. I ignored it agen coz I knew he was wuna dem horny manz but still we wer bredrins so he ws probly jkin. I gave him wuna my fake grins, n askd him 2 giv me a lift home. As we wer walkin 2 his car I turnd rwnd n saw him watchin my arse but I screwed him n tld him 2 hurry up. We gt in da car n he startd playin sum nxt loud music �low it dwn mate, its bit 2 loud 4 ma ears. I wna keep my hearin pst da age of 20� �dnt get rude u kno or ill make u walk!� he turnd dwn da cd n startd da car Wen we got 2 my hse he bre turnd off da engine n gve me wun of dem looks AGEN �y do u keep givin me da looks�u kno der quite scary�� �sorry jus a natural instinct 4 me n d pretty gyaldem.� �wateva� neways bye c u at da after party.� �aint u even gona giv me a hug?� I was a bit surprised dat he askd me 4 a hug bt I gave him wun n den he kissd me on da cheek den I got out da car�jus finkin wt dat

was abwt. Da prom after party Prom was kina shit still coz it got loked off early 4 sum reason bt Im ovaly buzzin ryte now�im drunk ive bin smoking all kinda tings�I feel kinda dizzy. I saw my frend Reece, Charmaine�s olda brother cumin 2wards me n I feel lyk am gna collapse�just as he reaches me I fall into his arms� Abwt half an hour lata I wake up in Reece�s bed bt I still feel drunk so I kno I aint gna memba dis in da mornin� I feel bare sleepy n ma hed is bangin lyk sumwun has bin playin on it lyk a drum Da mornin afta prom I can�t believe it� dis mornin I woke up with Reece in a bed in Charmaine�s house�I dnt even kno wat happnd�wun minute I was shubzin wid ma bredrins�da nxt am wakin up in da bed. He sed we dint sleep 2getha�dat I was drunk�n he had 2 put me 2 sleep n I startd strippin wen he put me on da bed. Now dat I fink abwt it I kina rememba layin on a bed talkin 2 him�but I dnt rememba strippin. Me n Reece were good frends, so I knew he wudn�t hav takn advantage of me, coz he was trustworthy�unlike some� He was black�kinda light skin�sum sxc hazel, almond shaped eyes, six pack, sexy lips and supposedly a big dick�well dats all da girls say...but I wudn�t kno� Me n Reece spent dat whole day jus jammin. We went 2 his house n was watchin films, ordered pizza n pigged out, jus talkin abwt our tragic lives� we wer watchin dat film Frankenstein (i kno random) and dere was sum nxt scary bit n I grabbed on 2 him�he luked at me n we had wun of dem moments lyk u see in dem films wer ur a abwt 2 kiss�

Chapta 8 but den his sista knocked on da door� Abwt a week lata we wer jammin at his yard agen�we wer jus talkin bwt wat happnd wiv me n Dwayne�how I was still hurtin�but I was over him�n I was over it. �So�Ur still heartbroken�?� �Yea�why?� �Well let me mend ur heart den�� n he kissed me. We sat dere lipsin 4 lyk half n hour till we broke apart. I luked deep into his eyes n I pulled him closer n we kissed while feelin each other up. He pushed me back on the bed n started takin off my top. I wernt wearin a bra, so he saw my breasts straight away, and started rubbin dem till da nipples went hard, den he started suckin my nipples. He moved his lips down my body all ova my belly n started pullin of my dungarees skirt�he put his face between my legs n was usin his tongue to lick my clit n da sides of my pussy�he slowly slid his tung inna my pum n was slidin it in n out�I was moanin bre loudly if sumwun was walkin past dey probly wulda herd coz da windows wer open�he stopped lickin wen I came n sat up. His dick was standin tall� n I fawt Dwayne�s dick was big, but dis was HUGE musta bin at least 10/11 inches mayb even 12�I pulled him towards me n put his dick inna my mouf n started suckin�by dis time my pussy was drippin wid wetness n he came inna my mouf n I swallowed it straight away. He pushed me down n put on a condom, n picked up a remote n sum nxt �fuck action� songs came on�da 1st song was pretty Ricky on da hotline. He slowly entered my pussy n it was ovaly painful�he slowly started goin in n out...he was tearin me outt�I was moanin groanin n gridin n I was screamin out his name�he was moanin quietly, makin dem noises mandem mke wile mashin�it was makin bre hot n wet�I was bre grippin sheets n grabbin his body. we wer mashin 4 lyk 20 mins till

we came� we wer layin in da bed catchin our breath. I fell asleep n wen I woke up it was lyk 4 in the afternoon. Reece was still asleep n he had is arms wrappd rwnd me. I laid dere finkin ova all de time we had spent 2getha b4 n I realised he had always liked me�I fell asleep agen n woke up abwt n hour lata. Dis tyme Reece woke me up n asked me if I wanted anything 2 eat. I sed yea n he gave me sumfin 2 wer n we went dwnstairs. He had ordered Chinese�he had ordered my favourite, sweet n sour chicken wid rice. He kissed me agen n we sat dere kissin 4 a bit but den he stopped n we startd eatin�I spent most of the day at his house n at abwt 11:30 he took me home. While we was walkin frm da bus stop 2 ma yard he stoppd n looked deep in 2 my eyes. He kissed me passionately n sed will u be my wifey� I luked at him in his face sed yes n den kissd him 4 lyk 5 mins. We carried on walkin along holdin hands. Wen we got 2 my house he kissed me n sed he was takin me out da nxt day n he would fone me wen he got home. I started walkin up da driveway wen sumwun clled my name. I turned rwnd n dere stood Dwayne�

Chapta 9 �Wat do u want Dwayne�?� �I just wanna talk to u�u kno apologise 4 everything dat happnd. I�ve bin waitin here 4 tyme�� �Look I aint got tyme 4 dis-� �I kno�I just wanna apologise�� �U alredy sed dat. If ur apologising start apologising den� �Yea�ok�look yea�I jus wanna say am srry ya kno. I rilly shudn�t have even bin wid dat gyal. It was just a spur of da moment ting�� �All rite den apology accepted. Is dat all u wnted?� �Yea�but just a question� is dat ur new hubby or sumfin? Coz I saw u lipsin him.� �Yea it is. I dnt rilly feel dat I hav 2 xplain maself 2 u doe�so I fink dis conversation shuld end.� �All rite�bye� n den he came up 2 me n gave me a hug climbed into da car n drove away. Dat chapta of my life had bin closed n I felt even happier. I went in da house n it was kina silent still. My sistas wer watchin TV my mum was at work n my step-dad was asleep. I sed gudnite 2 dem n went into da kitchen 2 get a drink b4 goin upstairs 2 get changed n redy 4 bed. At abwt midnight Reece foned me n we wer on da fone 4 lyk 2 hours�half of it was jus us sayin nufin. Dats how comfortable we wer wid each otha� I cudnt do nuna dat wit Dwayne� Reece sed he was cumin 2 pick me up at lyk 12 so we hung up da fone n I went 2 sleep. I woke up at lyk 10:30 n my pum was bre sore den I remembrd wt happnd da nite b4� I headed straight 4 da bathroom. I had a long shower n cleansed ma face. I pickd a causal outfit: black knee shorts a blue Primark top wid a white long sleeve top undaneath n blue n white shoes. I finished dressin at 5 to 12 so I went dwnstairs n sat dere watchin TV 4 abwt 5 mins wen da doorbell rang. I ran to open it n wen I did dere stood my sxc hubby. I pulled him indoors n kissed him on his sexy lips. Afta abwt 10 mins he sed he was takin me out sumwer special� we walked to the bus stop n got on the 109 n got off near in West Croydon. We went in da train station n got a train 2 New Cross Gate, wer we waited 4 da tube to get to Elephant & Castle. Wen we got 2 Elephant we went 2 da Nandos dere. We jus sittin dere crackin bre jkes n makin fools of ourselves. Wen da food came were munchin silently. I got up 2 go 2 the toilet n wen I cme bck he wernt at da table, he was standin outside waitin 4 me. �why did u just leave lyk dat�?� �I was bored of jus sittin dere�u wer takin ur tyme man� � �sorry!� I grabbed his hand n we startd walkin away�while we was walkin along dat road he kept lookin bck at sumwun or sumfin. Wen we got on da tube I askd him why he kept

lookin bck n he did sum long pause n was lyk � coz I wlkd out wivout payin�� I felt 2 start cussin him but I jus kept ma mouth shut n sat dere silently. Lata dat nite we went 2 sum nxt shubz at Shanice�s yard�I left him 2 go do wteva he wnted 2 do�but obviously stil had ma eyes on him. He was standin wid a group of manz n I saw dem xchangin �tings� but I just turnd my hed. Da next fing I kno 2 gunshots ring thru da air n sum ov da mans had fallen 2 da ground. N Reece was one of them�

Chapta 10 I startd pushin my way thru da crowd tryin 2 get 2 my man�but I cudnt get thru. Wen I reached dem he was lyin dere wiv a shot wound in his leg�no 1 was thinking bwt da otha breh�my frends were crowdin rwnd me n sum startd callin ambulances n ting n I was just sittin dere helplessly hldin his hand. He startd wakin up n was holdin his leg� Da next mornin I was sittin in da hospital room wid his sista n his mum�waitin 4 him 2 wake up. Charmaine n her mum wer ovaly cryin� I had cried b4 but I wernt cryin at da moment. Da doctor came into da room abwt 5 mins lata 2 tell us dat he was gona b fine, jus in a lot of pain 4 a couple of dais n would need help wiv his walkin 4 a bit�abwt an hour I left even doe I dint want 2 but his mum said I should go home n sleep�I hadn�t left da hospital since he got there. At abwt 4pm my fone was ringin�it was my hubby. I was bre grinnin wen I answered�I dnt kno y but I was jus rilly haps 2 hear frm him. We wer on da fone 4 lyk an hour n he sed I shuld just stay home 4 2day n cum n spend da day wiv him da nxt day�he was goin hme da next day. He was bre finkin I wud just drop my plans 2 cum c him�I dint have ne but still he could have at least asked me, not tld me. I spent most of dat day in bed sleepin n den woke up da next mornin at lyk 11:30. Reece foned me at lyk 1 n askd if I was still cumin. I sed yea n he asked me 2 cum str8 away. I sed I was a bit busy n I would cum lata�he kinda sounded upset but I was jus jokin so I tld him I was cumin in lyk 10 mins n would b dere at lyk 1:30. I was walkin dwn his road wen I saw man sittin in a car. He yelled out 2 me but I just ignored him n walked up to their front door. His mum opened the door n sed he was in his room. I knocked on the door n I walked in. he was bre layin up on da bed wearin his boxers n his right leg was covered in bandages dat had lil blood spots on dem. His room stank n it was bre musty, I pulled da window open n sat dwn. He looked at me n gestured 4 me 2 cum closer I sat dwn on da bed n he pulled closer 2 me n kissed me deeply on my lips as if we hadn�t seen each otha 4 years. If he hadn�t been injured we probly would have startd mashin but I pushd him off me n sed dat his leg wud start hurtin if we mashed. He luked kinda pissed but he just put his arm around me n we laid down unda da covers. Abwt 10 mins lata I startd feelin sleepy n closed my eyes� I woke up in da mornin at lyk 7 n he was alredy awake but he was jus layin dere starin at da ceiling. We stayd in bed til lyk 10 coz we fell asleep agen�at abwt 10:30 I decided 2 get up n go home. I picked up wun of his hoodies n sniffed it. It was clean so I put it on. It was ment 2 b summer but it was fuckin freezing�I gave him a kiss�n walked out n ran downstairs n sed bye 2 his mum n sis. Dey gave me hug n sed fanks 4 bein dere 4 Reece wen he needed sum1. I smiled at dem n walked out da front door. Wen I got 2 da bus stop dat man dat I saw da day b4 was dere n he tried 2 tlk 2 me

agen but coz I had headphones in I pretended I cudnt hear him an just sat dere. My bus came n I jumped on it n went 2 da bck. Sum gyal came n sat next 2 me fank god so da man dint sit nxt 2 me coz he try get on da bus 2� wen it got 2 my stop da man had his eyes closed so I qwickly got up n walked bre fast of da bus. Wen I got off da bus he we was walkin bhind me bt not 2 close so I fawt mayb it was a coincidence. I got near da entrance 2 sum alleyway n stoppd n I was jus standin dere coz I was checkin da tyme on ma fne wen I felt a sweaty dirty hand wrap arwnd ma mouf n I startd screamin. I was tryna bite da persons hand bt he was 2 strong� I was kickin n tryna fight bak bt he was 2 strong� Chapta 11 He threw me up against da wall and bent 2 pick sumfin up n I took da chance n ran away. He tried 2 chase afta me bt I ran out of day alleyway n I literally ran in 2 one of my step-dad�s brothers, Andrew. He askd me wat had happnd I tld him n he walked me 2 his car n drove me home. Da man wasn�t dere anymore. He musta bin hidin in da alleyway. He took me home n walked me inside da house. My mum n stepdad wer sittin at da kitchen table. Dey lookd bare shockd 2 c me coz dey probly fawt I was still sleepin. I wnt upstairs 2 have a bath n Andrew was telling dem wat happnd. I stayd in my room n my mum came into my room and I asked if I was all rite. I sed I was fine just a bit shook up� I spent dat day tryna sleep but dat man�s face jus popped inna my head evrytyme I closd ma eyes. At abwt 5pm sumwun kept fonin me bwt I wernt botherd 2 answer da fone. On da 5th call I pickd it up n it was Reece. �Wer u bin, b�ive bin fonin u 4 lyk an hour?� �I jus wernt botherd 2 get out of bed 2 answer da fone�I was asleep� �y wer u asleep at dis tyme of day. R u sick, b?� �Nah�am fine�just tired init. I jus wanted 2 get sum sleep coz I hav 2 wake up early 2mro 2 get my results rememba�?� �Oh�ok�u wanna do sumfin afta den?� �Sumfin lyk wat?� �Dunno jus jam init. Allrite den ill cum ur hse at lyk 1:30 or sumfin yea.� �Ok den, bye.� �Yea bye� Da next mornin I woke up at 8:30 n spent an hour gettin ready 2 get my results. At 10:15 I walked in 2 my skool n saw my bredrins standin in a group. I went ova n we stood dere talkin till 10:30 wen dey sed we could cum in. dey called me in 2 da room at lyk 11:15 coz my name was practically last on da register� I took my results from dem n walked out da room. As I was walkin down da halls I saw Charmaine n she came runnin 2 me n askd wat I got. I opened da envelope n pulld out da paper. I had 5 a�s, 7 b�s nd 2 c�s. I started screamin n was bre jumpin up n dwn lyk a loser�I tld Charmaine n she hugged me n den we walkd 2 da bus stop 2getha. Wen we got on da bus I got a txt frm dat motha of myne askin wat I got. I replied wid ma results n she sed she wer happy 4 me. Wen I got home dere was no1 in da house so I went 2 my room n had my on lil shubz on my 1z. Abwt 2 hours lata I left out da yrd 2 go c Reece. Wen I got off da bus near his yard I fawt I saw dat man frm da day b4 bt I fawt I was imagining it� I walked onto his road n I realised it was him� I stood dere 4 lyk 5 mins finkin wt 2 do�bt he cudnt c me lukily. I qwikly crossd 2 da otha side n kept my hed dwn n walkd bre fast with my hed dwn. I turnd bck 2 luk bt he wernt dere. Wen I turnd bck around he was standin ryte in front of me�

Chapta 12 I screamed evn doe he wernt tuchin me, but he jus lookd at me laufed n den walked away� my heart was beatin bre fast n I qwikly walked up 2 dere frnt door n rang da bell. I heard sumwun runnin n den my sexy hubby appeared. He dragged me inside without evn sayin hi. He pushd me up against da wall n kissd me. Instead of feelin haps dat man jus popped in ma hed agen� �cnt u even say hi? Dint ur motha teach u manners?� �Sorry dear. I dint realise I was with my gran�Hello. How r u dis fine mornin?� �ok, no need 2 go dat far�� He grabbed my hand n dragged me up da stairs. Wen we got in da room I sat on da bed n sed �y r u throwin me arwnd lyk ur hidin me frm sumwun?� �im not�I jus dnt wana share u wiv Char.� I just sed wateva n den he sat dwn nxt 2 me on da bed n startd lipsin me. He pushd me bck pon de bed n layed dwn on top of me n we carried on lipsin 4 tyme�It felt lyk ages since I had kissed newun�we was dere lipsin 4 lyk an hour n den we heard da frnt door slam shut�it was Charmaine. She ran up da stairs n knockd on da door. �come in� �hi�just a question 4 u�� �yea wat� �y r u 2 always 2getha�wt is goin on between u?� �shes my wifey. Now get out u punk� �Oh all right�well have fun�� and then she walked out of the room. I lukd deep in Reece�s eyes n pulld him bak on top of me n we continued lipsin. He was rubbin up my chest thru ma top n was pullin down ma trousers. He took of my top n den took of my girl boxers. He startd fingerin me n I took his piece out n strtd bashin him off�all dis was happenin wile we was lipsin. Wen I came he layed dwn on top of me, n pushd himself inside of me�he dint hav a condom on but da feelin was 2 great 4 me 2 stop him. Wen he cme it all jus came bck outa me n went al on da bed� Da next mornin I went 2 da clinic 2 get da mornin afta pill. Da wrinkled up bitch bhind da counter ws bre screwin me n I herd her mutta �typical white gyal� unda her breath lyk I dint fuckin here her. Wen she brought dem bck I snatched dem outa her hands n walkd off wile screwin her. Wen I got home I took da pill n den went 2 sleep hopin evryfin wud b ok. Da next tyme we mashd I ws creful 2 make sure dat he used a condom coz I wernt lukin 2 b no teenage mother especially wen I aint bin wid da bre 4 dat long� 3 months lata Evryfins stil gud wid me n Reece bt I jus keep getin dis weird feelin dat I myte b pregnant, bt I rilly hope am not. Dat nite I slept wid him agen I kno I rilly shudn�t b but him n his piece r jus 2 irresistible� Da next mornin I still felt weird so I went 2 da walk in centre 2 let dem gimme a pregnancy test�I had 2 giv dem sum of my piss n dey sed dat dey wud call me bck da next mornin wiv my results�I was prayin dat I wernt pregnant. I went home bt I cudnt concentrate on nefin so I was jus sittin arwnd ignorin Reece�s calls n txts cz I knew if I spoke 2 him I wud blurt it out. At abwt 10am da nxt mornin dey calld me. I had taken dat day off college. Dere call bre woke me up.

�Is dat Ashlee Young?� �Yes�� �This is sexual health clinic� we have ur results� wud u like dem ova da fone or do u wana cum in 4 dem?� �I fink da fone wud b best�� �Rite�ur results have cum up as��

Chapta 13 �Ur results have cum up as negative.� I started screamin wiv happiness. �Thank u. thank u so much.� Den I hung up da fone� I startd jumpin up n dwn on da bed bre clappin my hands lyk a loser� My fone started ringin agen, bt I still ignored it coz I didn�t wana talk to Reece. I went downstairs n had sumfin 2 eat. I decided to go to 1 of ma long time friend, Stefanie�s house knew dis chick from like primary skl�.i opened da door n den I saw Reece standin dere abwt 2 ring da doorbell� �oh so ur finally resurfacing�?� �wat do u mean?� he walked in 2 da living room n sat dwn �u�ve bin ignorin me 4 lyk da majority of da week. I calld here yday n u sista was chattin sum shit bwt how u wer asleep�I fink I deserve an explanation.� He was sittin dere screwin me n I felt so guilty. �I�ve just bin sick n I cudn�t b botherd 2 answer my fone n I didn�t wana tlk 2 ne1 yday. Dats all�� �R u tryna take man 4 a dickhed. I kno ur chattin shit. Coz if u was sick u wud still have answered ur fone!� �Listen yea u dnt fuckin cum up in MY house telling me dat im chattin shit wen dats the truth u lil bitch.� �Allrite den�if u say so. If u say dats da truth den dats da truth init� �Dnt get sarcastic wid me yea�am not in da fuckin mood u dikhed�

�allrite calm dwn�man� �No� u fuckin poomplex. Get da fuck out ma bumbaclart house u �pussyhole� da bois makin me go all patois on him n am nt even Jamaican let alone black. �Ashlee man�im sorry�I dnt wana fight wid u man. I luv u�It�s jus lyk sometimes I feel lyk sometimes am gna lose coz u can get ne man u want coz ur so beautiful nd wat man wudn�t want a Spanish Italian nd Greek gyal all mixed in 2 1?� �Skeen am not a day old u kno�.I herd dat shit b4�� �But�am da only wun means it. I can look u in da eye n tell u I luv u� �Gwan den. Aint nobody stopping u� He grabbed my face n turned me 2wards him. He luked at me deep in my eyes n sed �Ashlee Marie Young�I�love�u� he kissed me n was rubbin my bum while I jus stood dere wiv my arms wrapped arwnd him. He pushed me dwn on da sofa n layed dwn on top of me we wer still lipsin. Den my house fone decided 2 start ringin� �KMT man. Get off�I hav 2 get it.� He got off me n I ran 2 go n get da fone frm wer it was I cme bck n sat on da sofa while tlkin 2 da person. It was my gyal Felicia. She was telling me bowt sum linkage she went on da nyte b4 wid sum brehs. I was listenin 2 her but she was jus talkin sum nxt shit bwt how dey mashed n describing da mashin� she askd me 2 cum on sum linkage wid her dat afternoon. I sed yea but I wernt sure if I wud actually go. I tld her I wud get bck 2 her n tld her 2 holla at me lata coz I was jammin wid my man. We got bck 2 wat we was doin den he gave me sum sexual healin� bt wen he wernt dere. I went downstairs n saw him jammin watchin football or sumfin. I sat dwn next 2 him n he lukd me n askd me if I wud eva have a threesome. I jus lukd at him got up n walkd out da room laufin.

Chapta 14 9 months lata Its da summer holidays n me Reece have bin 2getha 4 abwt a year now. I was lying in my bed wen my fone startd buzzin wiv a txt. It was frm reece. I was happy 2 c dat�as I was reading it my face dropped in a fashion. Dis is wat it sed �luk Ashlee�I kno we bin 2getha a kinda long tyme now�but dis jus aint wrkin. I keep hearin dese stories bwt u goin rwnd�how ur a skett� n I cnt b known as da hubby of skett�srry. I luv u yea�.but I just had enuff. Sorry.� I replied wiv dis �if ur so qwik 2 believe wat othas r sayin n not evn ask me dan das ur beef init. I dint kno u wer a fuckin dikhed lyk dis ya kno� dis hurts but all I got 2 say is tek weh yaself u fuckin piece fo shit. Go n die in hell. Oh n by da way all dose orgasms�can u spell faked. Km fuckin tizzle.� Den I switched off ma fone. I aint gona lie yea�I was goin on lyk I wernt pissed bt dat fuckin hurt me lyk raah! I needed sumfin 2 take ma mind off him so I turnd ma fone bck on n lukd thru my fone. I clled Felicia n calld her 2 c wat was goin on coz I knew she wud hav sum manz 4 us 2 b linkin� she sed dat she had a linkage plannd 4 dat day 4 lyk 2:30 so she wud tell da otha wun 2 bring a bredrins. I decided 2 wear ma pale blue dungarees shorts wid a baby pink t-shirt undaneath. As I was walkin thru da ends 2 Felicia�s house (she lived lyk 10 mins away) bre mans in der cars wer tryna stop me n ting but I jus grin at dem n carried on walkin. I was almost at her yard wen sum peng lookin boi stopped me n was bre tryna chirps me�I gave him my name n askd his name. his name was Ramone�I carried on walkin 2 Felicia�s yard n wen I got dere she was cumin out her yrd � u took ur fuckin time gyal�wer was ya?� �Ahh sum boi try chirps me init�y how long u bin waitin normally ur da l8 1�

We walked bck 2wards Heath n got da 250 2 Brixton. Felicia was on her fone 4 most of da bus journey till we got 2 Streatham wer she cut off den dese 2 bois came on da buss n came upstairs�wun came 2 her n kissed her n da otha came n sat dwn in front of me. He smiled at me den looked at da ground den luked at me n startd lickin his lips. He luked lyk he was mixed race n had green eyes n hair dat he had brushed in 2 waves. His name was Adrian�wen we got 2 Brixton we got off da bus n went 2 his yard. He had a free yard 4 basically all da holidays� Wen we got 2 his yard Felicia n his bredrins Simon went upstairs n me n Adrian stayed in da livin room. We wer tlkin 4 a bit n I cud hear Leesha screamin n moanin thru da ceiling. I tld him bwt Reece n he telling me bwt his last relationship�we wer both still kinda hurt n I was bre abwt 2 cry but I stoppd myself. Adrian sed we dint hav 2 do nefin coz he cud c dat I wernt in dat kinda mood. I jus nodded my hed n smiled. At abwt 7pm me n Felicia left n I gave Adrian my numba, coz I cud use sum1 lyk him inna my life n den I gave him a hug. On da bus home I was bre silent n Felicia kept tryin 2 get me 2 tlk bt I wernt in da mood. Wen it got 2 my stop I got off da bus n walked bre slowly bck 2 my stop� wen I got home dere wernt ne1 home so I startd blastin out some music n havin my own lil shubz wen I herd sumwun laufin behind me. I turnd rwnd n saw my sista standin dere�wid Charmaine. I jus screwed dem both n went bck 2 my shubzin. Afta abwt 10 more mins I stopd n sat dwn. �Hi guys�wat u bin up 2 2day den?� Charmaine gave me a rilly weird look, n sed � I herd wat happnd wid u n Reece. Im sorry. I tried telling him it wernt tru bt he jus fawt obviously am gna stick up 4 u�� �Wat happnd wid Reece?� my sista askd wid a baffled luk on her face �He�locked it wiv me�coz he finks am a sket. 2getha 4 a yr n he suddenly decides am a sket�kmt� �nah Ashlee�dats not how it is�its jus recently ppl hav bin telling him all sorts�.lyk ppl lyk Dwayne n Anthony n all dem wuns�teamed up n jus bin chattin shit n spreadin rumours�I fink u shud jsu tlk 2 him coz obviously he luvs u init�hes just confused n feelin emosh init so jus call him up.� Charmaine handed me her fone�but I cudnt do it. �If Reece wanted 2 tlk he wuda called me by now�he obviously don�t. Tell him wen he wnts 2 tlk he knos my numba n he knos wer I live.� I went up 2 my bedroom n layed on my bed. Afta lyk 10mins of cryin I got up n sat in front of my computer n went in 2 windows media player. I cliked play n da 1st song dat came on was �I Want It That Way� By the Backstreet Boys� ?� Ain't nothin' but a heartache�Ain't nothin' but a mistake�?�. I skipped dat song n den da next song was Beenie Man & Mya �Girls Dem Sugar��?�I�d take the stars out the sky for you�There's nothin' in this world that I wouldn't do�If I could be your girl�?� da tears were pourin down my face n I cudnt even b botherd 2 wipe dem away� dat nite I cried myself 2 sleep den woke up wiv sum nxt puffy n red eyes. I da res of da week mopin around in my room. Every time I turned on the tv or went on the computer sumfin wud remind me of Reece den da tears wud start agen. Abwt 2 weeks lata, on a Friday afternoon, Charmaine came bargin in 2 my room n sat dwn on my bed. She gve me hug n luked at me� �Ashlee�u cant keep mopin u kno�so my dickhed of a brotha dumped u�get up n find urself a nu man�it will take u lyke 10 minutes�so get ur rarse up�wer goin 2 a shubz in Streatham�� �hus shubz is it? N if ur brothas goin den I definitely aint goin�� �well I dno if hes goin�im not even tlkin 2 him. I dno�dat Stephen boi invited me�come on. Go n take a shower n den ill pick ur outfit.� �why u assuming I aint taken a shower�?� �coz ur wearin pyjamas n ur face has got dried mascara on it!� I smiled den got up n ran into da bathroom n took a long hot showa. It felt lyk I

was washin away all my troubles n it was helping me 4get evryfin dat had happnd ova da last few weeks. Wen I got out Charmaine had picked out black jeans, a baby pink top n a white cardigan kinda thing 4 me 2 wear. I put sum mascara n eyeliner on den moisturised ma face n body den put da clothes on nd sprayed sum perfume on. Wen I got 2 da bottom of da stairs I put on my black n pink kickers n went in 2 da livin room wer Charmaine was watchin tv wid my sista. �cum let�s go. Stacey�.ill b home at lyk midnight. Luv u bye�� �bye.� Wen we got 2 da bus stop da 60 came n we got on it n went straight upstairs. We got off da bus near Streatham Common n walked 2 sum blockz�wen we got inside da flat it was pack out man�dere was bre steam cumin out of da room it stank of B.O n da shubz had only bin goin 4 lyk an hour�we wer jammin in da corridor wen my fone startd ringin n it was Adrian. Da music was 2 loud so I went out on 2 da balcony n answered it. �hi� �kool b�wer r u?� �oh am at sum shubz in Streatham�I dnt even kno hu�s throwin it lol� �lol�so wat u doin 2mro den? Dnt worry I dnt mean in a linkage way if u no wat I mean�� �err yea�.no I dnt fink am doin nefin 2mro�probly jus jam at home or mayb ill go rwnd town wid ma sista init�u?� �ahhh�I duno� neways�ill tlk 2 u lata, let u get bck 2 ur shubz�� �nah its nt even dat gud�nufin special init� �oh skn skn�well neways speek2 u lata init�bye� �bye� I locked off. I stood dere 4 lyk anotha 15 mins den I went bck in 2 da shubz. I opened da door n Reece was standin dere all up on sum gyal. I didn�t even kno he was here�I qwickly walked past coz I dint wna tlk 2 him�especially not at a shubz. I stopped wen I got rwnd da corner 2 listen 2 dere convo� �so Tanisha�ur single rite? Coz ive had ma eye on u recently init� �yea I am. But wun thing u need to kno is dat ive bin on u longer dan u�ve bin on me�but u wer always wid a different gyal wen I was ready 2 make my movements init�so wats da deal wid u n dat chick�wat was her name�Ashlee�yea, I swear u 2 r dealin�?� �We wer�but I realised a few things about her�� �Skeen�wat did u realise? Coz frm da outside it seemed lyk u was proper in luv wid her�� �Trust me I am�I was�jus kept telling me fings bwt her�lyk her skettish ways�u kno�typical sket�neways I locked it wiv her lyk 2 weeks ago init�� Da tears filled my eyes n I went bck in 2 da room wer da shubz was�I left dere at lyk 12:30 coz it got kinda dry n I tld Charmaine�but she wanted 2 stay so I left on my 1s� Anotha 2 weeks lata I was jammin home alone wen da doorbell rang. I ran dwn da stairs n opened da door n Reece was standin dere�

Chapta 15 �Wat do u want?� �Can I talk 2 u 4 a minute, Lee-Lee?� �Only da ppl I luv n dat luv me bck can call me Lee-Lee�2 da rest of u its jus plain Ashlee�� I gave him wun DUTTY screw n waited 4 him 2 speak� �Aww please�I kno ur pissed init bt I jus wanna tlk 2 u init�can I come in? please?�

I moved 2 da side n let him past. He went in 2 da living room n sat on da sofa. I didn�t wanna b near him so I went n sat in da armchairs on da opposite side of room. �y u bein extra 4�at least sit next 2 me�� �listen 2 me yea boi...u dnt cum up in my house givin me instructions lyk ur ma daddy�wen I dnt evn rememba da man dat is my daddy�dikhed�� �sorry�neways I dint cum here 2 fight u�� �so wt da fuck did u cum here 4 den? 2 mash me�4 me 2 give u head lyk da sket dat I am?� I sed sarcastically �no�abwt dat�im sorry. I found out dat none of it was tru�jus ppl chattin shit u kno, tryna spoil our relationship�� �well it looks like dey succeeded init�coz ur a gullible lil twat aren�t u�kmft� �Ashlee�listen I kno I hurt u init but at da tyme I was both confused n pissed init�all im askin 4 is ur forgiveness init�coz a year long relationship is 2 long 2 throw away, alie?� �well it obviously wernt dat much wen u wer dumpin me by TEXT was it. Our relationship obviously has never meant dat much 2 u otherwise u wulda asked me if any of it was true, alie� I did wun of dem head movements dat mums do wen dere telling u off bt not shoutin� �it did�I was jus bein dumb init�I mean am only 20 yrs old n ive had my heartbroken 222 many times so I was jus tryna prevent dat frm happenin�� �well am only 17 n im sure ive had my heart broken more times dan u hav mate� ur just getting me all frustrated n it�s all ur fault�urghh� �yes I kno it is my fault�but im jus askin u 2 4give me init�� �I fawt u wer only askin 4 my 4giveness�?� �yea�but wiv ur forgiveness obviously comes getting back 2getha, givin me anotha chance kno wat I mean?� �am not bein rude yea, but u cant just barge up in my house nd ask me 2 take u bck n just expect me 2 take u back �I am not expectin u 2 jus take me back�im obviously expectin 2 work 4 it a bit�in fact im beggin u 2 take me back�� �oh yeah I have sumfin 2 tell u� I kno u slept wid dat Tanisha girl bdw�so if u wer planning on lyin about it n not telling me den dats u init!� �how do u kno dat�I bet it was Charmaine n her big mouth�� �no it wasn�t �I hav my sources.� it rilly was her but I wernt gona tell him dat. �neways�so wat do u wana do den?� �wat do u mean wat do I wna do?� �as in our relationship. Do u think u can 4give me�or do u jus wana end it?� He was givin me dem lil puppy dog eyes n I didn�t kno wat 2 say�I was jus 2 confused� �I need 2 think bout it first�� �Wat�s dere 2 fink bout doe�its either u take me bck or u dnt, simple� �Err, I hav 2 b able 2 trust u�otherwise da relationship will fail nd ur bare putting pressure on me alredy�kmt� �Sorry. Neways ill fone u lata�we can talk bout dis more init.� �No�call me 2mro mornin�bye now� I walked out of da room n opened da front door n waited 4 him 2 leave. He bare try give me a kiss as he was leavin but I just pushed him off me n slammed da door. I went in 2 da livin room n sat dwn� I cudnt think of nethin else xcept dis whole sitch� either I took him bck or I jus threw away a relationship dat had bin goin 4 22 long� I sat dere 4 most of da day jus finkin. Wen my sista came home I talked 2 her n she jus sed I jus do wteva makes me happy. I went 2 bed at lyk 7:30 dat nite coz I cudnt b bunned 2 stay up in case Reece started callin me agen. Da next mornin I woke up at lyk 10 n went strait 4 bath n ting den I put on sum mascara n eyeliner den I put on sum white shorts n green tshirt. I sat on my bed n pickd up my fone. I checkd da tyme on it. It was 12:30 n I had 5 missd calls from Reece� I txted him wiv 6 simple words �cum 2 my hse now plz�� I was jammin in ma room watchin sum

shit pirate copy of Harry Potter n da prisoner of Azkaban wen da doorbell rang. I cud hear dem talkin n den sumwun runnin up da stairs den knockin on my door. I slowly got up n pulled my shorts dwn a bit coz dey wer givin me a wedgie�I opened da door n tld him 2 cum in. he came in n sat dwn on my bed. I sat dwn next 2 him n he put his hand on thigh n was rubbin it up n dwn my thigh. I luked up at him n he luked at me n luked in 2 my eyes. It felt lyk I was fallin in luv with him all over again n I jus couldn�t help myself�even though I doubted dat dis wud b da last tyme he hurt me n made me cry�he pulled me 2wards him n kissed me as if we had never kissed before. We fell bck on da bed n he got on top of me n we were lipsin. Afta lyk half an hour I fell asleep n wen I woke up he had his arms wrapped arwnd me but he wernt asleep� I got up n climbed on top of him but he flipped over so he was on top of me he started kissin my neck n was goin up from my neck 2 my mouth. I unzipped his hoodie n strted takin off his t-shirt. He put his hands up my top n jus ripped it off me lyk sum kinda animal. He undid my bra n started suckin my right breast wile caressin my left wun� he was makin me so wet dat it was unbelievable�gosh! My nipples were getting bre hard n started nibbling on dem. He pulled away n got up 2 lock da door n came bck n laid down agen. I pulled dwn his tracksuits n pulled dem off n he did da same wiv my shorts. I was left wiv only my thong on n he only had his boxers on� he pulled my thong off n stuck 2 fingas inna my pum pum n started goin on in out�it felt so good man�jheez� he put 1 more finga in me n dats wen I started moanin more coz I cudnt take da pain n I gripped on his neck n dug my nails in 2 his back. He took wun of his fingas out n left 2 fingas in n continued goin in n out till I came on his hand he pulled off his boxers n pulled his piece out which was bre hard� �Do ya still take dem pills?� �Erm�yea�why� �Just wonderin� He took his piece n pushed it inside me n I started moanin lyk I hadn�t mashed newun 4 tyme� he started pullin it in n out n I was moanin n I dnt kno y coz it dint even hurt dat much� he started beatin me propa propa hard n it was makin me feel delirious n I cud feel his piece getting harder n harder inside of me n it felt gurd I was screamin his name n evryfin n digging my nails in his bck n scratchin dem up n dwn n I fawt I cud feel blood cumin frm my pum pum bt I jus ignored it n carried on til I cudnt take it nemre �Stopp�REECE STOPP! Please man� he slowed dwn n pulled out of me n laid dwn next 2 me n his cum came shootin out all ova da sheets. I put my hand between my legs n den brought my finga bck up 2 c wat was dere n dere was blood all on my finga nd underneath my nails�shit wat was happenin 2 me? I took a tissue frm da box near my bed n put it up my pussy which was rilly burnin me rite now� I left da tissue dere n pulled da covers over myself n went 2 sleep�

Chapta 16 I woke up at 5:30 n Reece was still dere� I got up and got dressed n went downstairs� Da next morning I was stil bleedin so I fawt mayb it was my period but I had alredy had it dat month�so wat could it be? I went 2 da doctors n dey jus sed dat it was just my period dat had started early or sum fraff lyk dat n den dey were bare askin if I am sexually active n wen I sed yes dey wer lyk it also could have been a result of too �vigorous� sex. Basically, Reece gave me a bit 2 hard of a beatin.

It was New Year�s Eve nd I was at sum party wiv Charmaine n a few others. Reece was supposed 2 b meetin us at midnight but we wer waitin dere til lyk 1:30 till he came. We wer bare screwin him wen he cme n I dint even speak 2 him coz he had rilly bin pissin me off lately. Reece�s point of view: shit shit shit �wat am I gona do? Ashlee will never speak 2 me agen wen she finds out�ive worked so hard 2 stay wiv her n den dis happens. Tanisha is pregnant. Wid my child�wtf man� I swear man used a rubber dat nite�and shes keeping it as well. She sed shes givin me til da end of next week 2 tell Ashlee, or she will. I went home n I cudnt sleep dat nite. I was in deep shit� da next morning I was gona fone Ashlee, but I didn�t coz I was as scared as nefin�I foned Tanisha 2 c if she had changed her mind yet�but she still wanted 2 keep it even doe she was only 17�I didn�t cum out ma room 4 most of da day coz I was finkin wt am I gna do�coz I kno Ashlee will b gone frm mans life if she finds out nd if she finds out frm sumwun dats not me� I picked up ma fone n was abwt 2 call her agen bt I cudnt do it� Ashlee�s point of view: Reece is rilly bein a bitch lately nd hes tryna fuckin air my calls so ive decided dat im dun�if he wana tlk 2 me he knos my numba. I was getting dressed 2 go shoppin wid Charmaine. We wer in da Primark fitting room n I had finishd tryin ma stuff on so I came out n saw dat girl Tanisha dat Reece slept wit standin dere n frm how she was standin it looked lyke she was pregnant� I was gonna walk past her but wen I got near her she sed hi 2 me. I sed hi bck n she was lyk can I tlk 2 u 4 a minute babe �Yea wt do u want?� �Umm�u might not believe dis�but I hav sumfin 2 tell u� �Yea wat is it den?� �Urmmm�am pregnant� �O�k den. I cud c dat bt y u telling me. Its not lyk im da father or sumfin�� �Coz�ur hubby is da father.� �Shut up. Stop chattin shit man� I turned nd walked away but she followed me n was lyk �I knew u wudn�t believe me�dats y I tld him 2 tell u� �Ur bein serious aint u?� �Yes� �And he knows?� She nodded her head �Dat fuckin arsehole!� I started screamin lyk a madwoman n Charmaine came runnin ova 2 c wat was rong wid me. Wen I told her, her face dropped in a fash. �Charmaine do not even try and act lyk u did not kno. u n Reece tell each otha evryfin�� �I swear dwn gyal�I didn�t kno if I hadda known I wulda tld u strait�� By dis tyme Tanisha had walked away n left da shop so I cudnt even go afta her�I dropped da shit I was gona buy n stomped out da shop wid Charmaine following behind me. We walked thru da shoppin centre n got up 2 McDonalds. We went in n I went up 2 counter n ordered 3 dairy milk mcflurry�s n walked up da stairs n sat dwn n ate dem wivout speakin n Charmaine was sittin dere watchin me, waitin 4 me 2 finish. I was tryin so hard not 2 cry but I cudnt help it�da tears were streamin down my face. She edged closer 2 me n put her arms round me� she came bck 2 my house n I askd her 2 sleep ova coz I didn�t wana b alone. We started packin our shit coz we wer goin France on da 13th� da next mornin I woke up n I had a text frm Reece askin me 2 meet him in Croydon at 1. I txted bck sayin I wud go�coz I wnted 2 disgrace him in public� Wen I got 2 Croydon I saw him sittin dere. Just da sight of him made me feel sick�

I walked up 2 him n hugged him, pretendin I was happy 2 c him even doe I was planning 2 giv him sum dutty slap lata on� �so wer u bin den�fawt u cud do a disappearing act on me did ya?� �nah I just didn�t feel lyk tlkin 2 no-one� �yet if I had sed dat u probly wud have startd switchin on me�kmt� �plz don�t start Ashlee. Am rilly not in da mood�� �do u fink I am?� He just aired me n startd walkin. I followed him coz I wasn�t ready 2 give up my plan yet. He walked up 2 sum Chinese restaurant as if he knew dat I wuld follow him. I walked in wiv him n dey gave us a table at da bck. It was da buffet fing but I wernt even hungry so I jus ordered a drink n asked 4 lots of ice�if u kno wer am goin. I was sittin at da table while he was getting food lyk da fat pig he was wen I clocked sum boomting sittin dere wid his family n he was bare watchin me. I smiled him n he did dat fing wen dey lick dere lips n nod at u�I jus smiled agen n turned away. Reece came bck n was bre blockin my view of da boomting. I got up n went 2 da toilet�wen I was cumin out da boomting was standin dere waitin 4 me n he gve me sum piece ov paper den walked away. I luked at it n it had his name n number on it. Darius 079� I went bck 2 da table n Reece was still eatin. I gulped dwn my drink fast n waited 4 him 2 finish his plate. Wen he finished he gave me sum weird look n was about 2 say sumfin wen I cut him off. Darius n his family wer abwt 2 leave n he smiled at me wen he was leavin� �Reece�we need 2 tlk. On levels as well�� �Yea I kno dat. I hav sumfin 2 tell u.� �And I have sumfin 2 ask u�� �Ask me den. Dnt waste time. Mans got places 2 b�� I gave him a quick screw n sed my piece �U wen u slept wid Tanisha did u use a rubber?� (Reece: shit man it was lyk she knew. Unless she was gona say sumfin lyk she had sum nxt disease or sumfin�) �Yea�I fink so�� �U fink so. So ur not sure?� �No am not sure. Is dat all u wnted 2 ask?� �No�dats not all� I saw Tanisha yesterday. She was pregnant u kno. I wonder who the father is?� Reece�s face luked lyk he was choking n he was rubbin his hands on his trousers underneath table �Do u kno wat she told me?� �No�wat?� �She told me�DAT UR DA FUCKIN FATHER!� He took a deep breath but I stood up b4 he could say nefin else. He stepped 2wards me but I gave him wun DURTY slap dat connected wiv his face so loudly evrywun in da room turned 2 look at us. I picked up my drink n poured it dwn his jeans n I didn�t give a fuck if dey were designer. I stomped out of dat restaurant n ran dwn da road so I cud put as much distance as possible between us. Wen I got 2 da bus stop opposite da home office I sat dwn n started cryin n ppl wer bare lukin at me bt I didn�t care coz my hand felt lyk it was broken n my heart felt lyk it was breakin� I was bare coughin nd spluttering wen I felt sumwun sit down next 2 me n I saw dat it was Reece. I stood up abwt 2 walk away n he picked me up n threw me over his shoulder�I was bre kickin n punchin his chest n back telling him 2 put me dwn bt he wudn�t listen. Wen we got 2 da car he put me in da passenger seat in got in da drivers side. �JUST TAKE ME DA FUCK HOME REECE� AM NOT IN DA FUCKIN MOOD 4 UR FUCKIN GAMES KMFRCBT!� He started da car n drove me 2 my house. I got out of da car wivout sayin goodbye n walked up to my front door. He was bare tryna 2 follow me in 2 da house but I jus slammed da door in his face n went in 2 my room.

Chapta 17 It was May n my bday was cumin up in abwt 2 weeks. Me n Reece had never officially broken up, but I didn�t want anything 2 do wiv him� I was lyin in bed n my fone started ringin. I leaned over n luked 2 c hu was fonin me� it was Reece �kmt man y u fonin me so early. Wt u want?� �ermm just callin 2 c how u r, u kno� �Its bin lyk 4 months Reece if u have sumthing 2 talk 2 me about am sure its sumfin otha than how I am� �So�wat u doin 4 ur bday?� �Not sure yet�might go out wiv my frends� �aww skn skn� �Yea neways ill tlk 2 u lata� I hung up da fone n jus sat dere finkin wat could I do� Lata that day I was on the fone 2 Darius jus tlkin bout my bday plans. We decided dat I wud go Thorpe Park da day b4 my bday wiv my sisters n den Chessington on my actual bday wiv my frends. Wen I got off da fone I went in 2 da kitchen 2 get sumfin 2 eat. I made a list of ppl I wanted 2 invite n I put Reece on it coz I fawt he would actually cum� I picked up my fone n dialled up his number �Hi Reece� �Hi Ashlee�wat do u want?� �I jus wanted 2 invite u 2 Chessington 4 my bday�will u cum?� �oh so u wana tlk 2 me wen u want man 2 attend ur bday�but if I want 2 tlk 2 u I have 2 have a reason. U do realise ur sendin me mixed messages wiv all ur freakish behaviour. Either u want me or u dnt, simple as� �It�s not about me wantin u or not. N im not da wun dat wrecked our relationship, u r. n I hav alredy tld u hav 2 b willin 2 work 2 save our relationship instead of

jus xpectin me 2 take u bck as usual. Neways I jus invited u coz I fawt we wer frends buh if das how u wanna b den dash klll�bye� �Nah I never sed I dnt wna cum, im jus askin u y ur actin lyk dis 4?� �Wateva if ur cumin its �20�bye� I hung up da fone n sat dere finkin wat can I do wiv my life? My life had gone frm GURD 2 shit in wun yr On my birthday I woke up at lyk 6am n had bre �happy bday� txts frm ppl�including Dwayne. I got up n went n had a bath n put on my bday outfit�which red shorts n a baby pink t-shirt. My doorbell was ringin so I ran dwnstairs 2 answer it. It was Charmaine n Felicia� �Oi skets do me a favour�� �Wat?� �Sit in da livin room n wait 4 me. If da fone rings answer it n say am busy ill get bck 2 dem lata unless ish a speshal person� �Yea yea� �Fanks�n help urself 2 sum food or wteva�dnt go overboard doe, I kno u ppl n ur hungry bellies kmt� I went bck in 2 my room n finished gettin ready. Lyk 10 mins lata I was ready n I ran dwn da stairs. Da rest of da crew were meetin us at da train station so I grabbed ma pouch n walked out da door wid my girls�we wer walkin dwn da road, saw a few ppl but dere wernt many out coz most of dem was at college n technically we shuda bin 2� We wer jus jammin on da train wen sum nxt boomtings cum surroundin us�dere was wun white boi in da crew n he was ova watchin me I luked at him n den he try screw me lyk he wernt jus likin him lips at me not even 5 mins ago. I jus ignored him n his bredrins n bwt 15 mins lata I turned rwnd n caught him lukin at me agen n den wen he clokd I had clokd he screwed me. �Oi boi do u hav a problem wid me? Do u kno me frm sumwer dat u keep screwin me lyk I did u sumfin?� �Nah I dnt wat u gna do u lil white bitch?� �How can u call me white wen ur whiter dan me u lil wigger! Next tyme u open ur mouf 2 tlk bwt me dnt coz ill make sure dat u neva open ur mouf agen� �Dnt cum wid da hardbodied talks u lil sket�n so wt if am whiter dan u? ur still a white bitch� �keep talkin n we�ll c if ur body aint found in pieces all up n dwn da railway tracks of England! Kmt� His bois were bare oohin n ting n he started blushin lyk da lil fanny flap he was n I fawt he ws gna shut up bt da lil bitch had 2 cum bck wid wun last ting. I didn�t actually hear wt he sed bt he was bare mutterin under his stink breath. I stood up outta my seat n sed �do u wana repeat dat white boy?� �Yea white girl I sed u fuckin sket� Dat was wat tipped me ova da edge�I picked up sum empty Bacardi breezer bottle I had in ma bag n dashed it at him n it smashed on his head. I walked off da train (luckily it was our stop). As I was walkin off wid my girls I shouted bck dat he was lucky I dint hav ma bike chain on me dat day coz if I did he wuda got more dan dat. Abwt ten minutes later da rest of our pplz arrived n we all got on da train 2 chessington south. It was all girls doe, I had 2 decided 2 take all mans of da list coz I was tryna steer clear ov men. Wen we got 2 chessington we got lockers n den locked up all our shit in dem including our fones n ting� da 1st ride we went on was sum next rollercoaster clled dragon�s fury, den we went on sum ride clled bubble works�dat was kina sick doe ppl made it seem lyk it was sum big arse drop but it wernt even dat much�afta dat we went on sum next water ride clled dragon falls I was expectin 2 get bre wet but it was only sum lil sprinkle of water, not even a splash� afta dat we went KFC n had sum munch. Da day was goin great still.

We wer jus sittin at sum jamming spot wen we noticed sum �boomtings� approaching�dey was actually kinda aite�da wun dat came up 2 me was clled Aaron, but his real first name was Ashley, he was bre lyk �ill definitely rememba u coz we got da same name� I was jus lyk SKEEN� we left da park at lyk 3 coz we wnted 2 bck in ends by 5:30�I had bre missed calls on ma fone frm reece, but I wernt bunned 2 call him bck coz firstly I didn�t hav credz n secondly he wud call me bck if it was important� we went on bubble works lyk 10 more times coz dere wernt much queues. We got bck 2 west Croydon at lyk 5:45 n den we arranged 2 go out 2 sum club. I was getting ready n it was lyk 7 wen my fone started ringin. It was Reece �hii� �hi. How was ur bday?� �it was kl�I like da way u didn�t ring me dis morning!� �oh yea sorry. Neways I have sumfin 2 tell u, b� �wat. I hope its nuffin bad� �ermm no well kinda� �wat is it den?� ��tanisha had da baby�� �Oh ur a dad now den. Wen did she hav it?� �dis morning. Das why I nefa foned u� �aww skn�well am about 2 go out so ill tlk 2 u lata init� �Yea ill cum c u 2mro. Is dat ok?� �Urmm yea. But why?� �Coz I wna say sumfin dat cant b sed ova da fone� �Oh kk. Well bye for now� �Yea bye bye� We hung up da fone n I sat dere wonderin wat he wnted 2 say�

Chapta 18 Reece came 2 c me at lyk 10 in da morning. We wer sittin in da livin room drinkin hot chocolate� �So Reece�wat did u hav 2 say 2 me dat cudnt b sed over da fone?� �Well am actually embarrassed 2 say it now�but here goes. I luv u Ashlee, and I cannot live widout u. these past few months I aint bin able to sleep properly, every time I eat I feel sick�evrytime I hear ur name or c ur picture my heart beats faster and ive never felt like this b4 Ashlee. Im not even lyin right now, I luv u wid all of my heart I dnt fink I am ever gona luv anyone as much as I love you. Please take me back I cant live wivout u if I cant have u den I dnt kno wt I wud do�� he was actually on his knees holdin my hand, but he wernt proposing 2 me�yet. �Reece I�I�I dnt kno wat 2 say� am actually in shock una�I love u 2 Reece, but all da lies�dey�ve gotta stop�otherwise I wont b able 2 trust u� �Yea. Yea I feel da same, boo. I know I gotta work hard 2 keep u I kno dat, I kno dat now. I can�t lose u again, my feelings 4 u r 222 strong man�� �I fink we can try agen, buh im only givin u anotha chance coz I genuinely love u� �I kno. N im not gonna do anything 2 mess dis up, Ashlee� �So nu subject, wat did u name ur baby?� �It was a boi but we haven�t chosen a name yet�� �So wer is she livin coz Charmaine told me dat her mum kicked her out?� �She�s living in a council flat�I fink shes expectin me 2 ask her 2 move in but dat aint happenin� �Skeen�I 4got u had ur own �yard� now�I aint even bin dere yet�wen can I cum visit or r u gna b 2 busy playin daddy now?�

�No�not rilly. Dat girl actually pisses me off a lot u kno�she�s bare actin lyk she don�t want me around n den she bare try call me wen she goes in 2 labour kmt� �Oh�right� Me n Reece spent dat day 2getha jus �jammin� u kno da deal�.dint get up 2 nathin doe� about 4 months later I was jus roamin around Croydon, saw bre ppl frm bck in da day� I was standin outside Primark checkin da tyme on ma fone wen I felt sumwun wrap dere hands rwnd my eyes�I turned rwnd it was Dwayne I jus stood dere�not sayin nethin coz I was just scared n surprised. I wrapped my arms rwnd his neck n gave him a hug� den sumfin clicked in ma mind n I remembrd y we broke up in da 1st place. I stepped bck n luked up at him n he jus luked at me n we stood dere in sum nxt awkward silence 4 lyk 5 mins� �So how ya bin Dwayne? Hows life? � �Yea I�ve bin fine�life�s decent still�wt bout u wt u bin up 2?� �Not much jus bin goin college rilly not bin doin nefin speshal� We started walkin along jus tlkin bwt stuff catchin up on da gud tymes but I still had ma guard up coz I knew he cudnt b trusted. �So wt did ya do 4 ur bday?� �Oh I jus went out wit sum frends�dats all. I got ur txt�fanks 4 dat. Neways I gotta go now�im late for sumfin� �Wat u goin 2 c ur hubby?� �Nah�am late 4 college. Nd if I was it aint rilly ne ov ur business is it?� �Yea ur rite�sorry. Neways�bye� he walked off n I jus stood dere feelin confused. Y had he jus randomly cum bck in my life n wat did he wnt frm me? Wen I finished college I went 2 c my girl Lindsey at her yard. Wen I got 2 her door sum nxt boomting was cumin out�I went up 2 her room n she was lyin dere in her bra�no knickers �Skeen�am not even gona ask!� �Boy�he had me screamin his name n shit�woo!� �Dat is just 2 much information. Is he da wun u linked at da club on my bday?� �Yea�dint I tell u�hes my hubby� �Aww skn skn�might hav 2 steal him off u doe�nah am jkin� �I was bwt 2 fuckin slap u rwnd ur face man. Neways�cum us girls all have a sleepova here 2nite? My mum n dad are still in Antigua (she was mixed race) n my brotha is god knows were� �Aite den�start callin da crew down den how many u gonna invite?� �Umm bout 10�dnt want 2 many wild animals in ma yard� She went on msn 2 c hu was on n den I foned da wuns dat wernt online�dis nite was gna b 22 live� It was lyk 7 n we wer all getting ready 2 go out�we was walkin dwn da road 2 sum bus stop wen we saw dere was a whole bag a mandem jus jammin dere waitin 4 da bus. We stoppd walkin a few metres frm da bus stop n just stood dere 2 wait 4 da bus. Dey clokd us n wer ovaly givin us da eye�wen da 468 came n dey got on as well. We got off da bus in Elephant & Castle n dey got off 2�it luked lyk da might hav bin following us but den dey went in sum nxt direction.. Wen we got in da club I went 2 da toilets n coz it was unisex dere was a small group group of mans n I cloked dere was a girl kneelin in da middle of dem�she was givin one of dem head n dey wer all jus standin dere watchin. I turned my bck on dem n continued checkin myself out in da mirror wen I herd dem all shoutin �gwan Tanisha�. I turned rwnd 2 say wat was happenin n dats wen I saw her face�it was Tanisha�Reece�s baby momma Tanisha. I turned rwnd n walked out da toilets. I went up 2 Charmaine �Where�s Reece 2nite?� �Urmm at hme I fink. I swer he�s ur hubby u shuld kno dis�y?� �I just saw Tanisha in da toilets getting gang banged basically n I wnted 2 kno hu�s luckin afta Romeo (dere son)�

�Well I kno dat he aint�n if she�s here she not�n her parents basically disowned her n she�s broke so she aint got no money for a babysitter. Cum let�s go outside n call him� we walkd out da club n stood near da exit�she was on da fone 2 him n I cud hear him bare shoutin. Afta lyk 10 minutes she asked me 2 leave wiv her 2 go home. Wen we got 2 dere house Reece was waitin 4 us dere. I tld him wat I saw n den he luked propa vexed n tld us 2 follow him. We both sat in da bck of da car wonderin were da fuck he was takin us. We pulled up 2 sum nxt block of flats n he got out of da car n went up 2 a door on da bottom floor. He walked up 2 da door n started bangin on it screamin out her name wile me n char wer jus sittin dere creasin lyk idiots. Dere was not a single lite on in da house n afta a while it became bate dat Tanisha wernt dere coz if she had bin she wulda cum out by den�wen he stoped bangin on da door u cud here sum nxt noise lyk a baby cryin�

Chapta 19 It was lyk da noise had broken thru da air�it was a baby cryin. Dat bitch had left her baby home alone n he was only 5 months old kmt farkin ediat. Reece had gone round da bck of da building 2 c if dere was a way in from dere. I cud jus hear him bre kickin�den abwt 10 minutes lata da baby stopped cryin� he came out wid a black bag full of da baby�s stuff n he was carryin da baby he left da door wide open n

came n sat in da car he didn�t say a word n jus started drivin. Me n Reece wer in his flat watchin tv n it was lyk 3 in da morning. His fone started ringin n it was Tanisha�he didn�t answer it n was bein so dumb she must have called him at least ten times�wen I woke up in da morning I was left in his flat all alone. I got up n cleaned maself den I went home. Da next month Romeo was still livin wiv Reece n Tanisha had lost custody of him. I was sittin on a bus wiv Shanice n Stefanie wen dese 3 bois came n sat in front of us n wer bare tryna churps us� daw un dat sat in front of me was called Dami I asked him if he was Nigerian coz dats a Nigerian name n he was bre blushin n was lyk yea. Den Stefanie wid her stupid self goes �oh ur quite decent 4 a Nigerian�. Wen she sed dat he SCREWED her lyk dere was no 2mro boi� he pressed da bell n stomped off da bus� About 2 months later Romeo was still living with Reece and Tanisha hadn�t even tried 2 c him� all this drama had made me fink about my own dad. He wasn�t dead but I hadn�t cn him 4 lyk 16 years. I was sittin at home on my bed just tryin 2 remember him�den I had an idea. I could try n find him. Da next day I went into my mum�s room and was searchin thru her wardrobes tryin 2 find her old photo albums. Wen I got 2 her chest of drawers wun of dem was locked. I herd her cumin thru da front door so I ran downstairs n acted lyk I hadn�t bin doin nethin. She went in 2 da kitchen n left her bag on da stairs. I went in 2 her bag n took her keys out� da lock on da drawer was small so I took wun of da keys dat luked like it wud fit n put it in my pocket. Abwt 2 hours later she had gone back to work so I went back in 2 her room n tried da key n it worked! I slowly pulled da drawer open n got da biggest shock of ma life. Dere was bare stuff 2 do wid me in da drawer. Lyk ma birth certificate, da adoption papers 4 wen my stepdad adopted me, n den 2 photo albums. Wun was anotha baby album of me (I had wun in my room) nd the otha was full of photos of me, my mum n sum mixed race man dat im guessin is my dad. I sat dere in shock. I cudnt believe dat I was quarter-cast. Well it explains a lot lyk da size of my bum, my skin colour n my hair� I took lyk 5 of da pictures n my birth certificate n locked da drawer. I went downstairs n threw da key in da porch so she wud fink it dropped off her keyring. I went in 2 da living room n sat dwn n unfolded my birth certificate. It said mother: Samantha Richards Father: Michael Moretti date of birth: 14th May 1990 place of birth: Whitechapel hospital � I was flickin thru da channels on TV n Eastenders was on n Chelsea was havin a fight with her dad bout sumfin. I remembered how Chelsea n Libby found him on sum fing called electoral role. I went on da computer n typed it in sum website came up calld find a parent or child� I signed up n waited for da membership 2 b activated. I typed in da name n bare stuff came up, bare different Michael Moretti�s. I remembered dat I lived in East London till I was lyk 3 n a � so I looked for da wuns in London only. There were 10 in London but dey wer all in different parts of London� I didn�t know what to do�how could I just turn up on sumwuns doorstep 16 years later n say am his daughta? It was almost Christmas and I had been to visit one of da Michael�s but I hadn�t bothad 2 c da otha 9 coz I didn�t even know what to say and the first wun was white anyway�so for all I knew the otha wuns could have been white too. I decided that I wud go and see the next two on the list. One was in Camden and da otha was in East Street. My fone was ringin n it was Frankie. �hi how are u I aint spoke 2 u 4 tyme� �Yea I kno dats y I foned u. am gud doe wat u bin on lately?� �Oh not much rilly jus doin a bit of xmas shoppin�u?� �ahh same rilly n goin college 2. wat u on 2day?�

�aww am goin Camden 2 c a frend n den I mite go Brixton market init. How bout ya?� �Jus jamming. My mothas tryna make me clean da house 4 our Christmas visitors init. Neways ill tlk 2 u lata � �yea yea bye� �bye� Afta I got off da fone I went n had a shower n got dressed up. Light Blue boy fit jeans n a red n white cardigan with white salt �n� peppers. I slicked my hair back in wun n did a slick bit n a few baby hairs n backcombed my ponytail. I walked 2 da bus stop n got on da 250 2 Croydon. I got off near da underground station n got on da 468 2 East Street. I walked thru da market I went into da Aylesbury estate at da end of the market. Da door number dat I was supposed go 2 was number 13. I walked into da building n a group of boys were sittin right outside da building I was goin in 2 n dey wer bare watchin my face. I jus walked past dem n went in 2 da building. Wun of dem got up n followed me in 2 da building n was bare tryna talk 2 me �Wa Gwan Babylove?� �Hi� �So ya cah cum chek me na?� �I ain�t got tyme babe, got sumwer 2 b� �so you cah spear a nigga 10 minutes?� �aite den� �Ino sumwhere we cud go?� He takes my hand n drags me out 2 da car park. He drew 4 da keys 2 his whip n before I knew it we were at da bck of his whip nd we wer lipsin deeply� sumfin clicked in my mind n I remembered Reece. He did a lot worse to me so I was well within my right buh I fawt nah I cnt do dis. I pulled away n sed dat I had a hubby. He was lyk wat he dnt kno wont hurt him but den he sed he kina had a wifey but dey wernt rilly 2getha. He was telling me how he had a child n ting n I was jus noddin ma hed. I gave him ma numba n gave him a hug den walked bck in da building. I checkd da tyme n we actually wer 2getha 4 10 minutes. I walked over 2 da lift n pressed da button. On da next floor sum boomting got on n stood in da other corner. I could feel him watchin me but pretended I couldn�t. I got off on da second floor n he did as well� he was walking behind me but I wasn�t sure if he was following me or if it was a coincidence. He followed me until he stopped at da house next to da wun I was goin 2. I walked up 2 number 34 n knocked on da door. I cud hear footsteps coming towards me n den sum black woman opened da door n dere was anotha black woman standing behind her. Da otha woman looked exactly like me. No lie she had da same shape eyes as me n her lips curved in da same shape as mine and she had a beauty spot above her lip on da left side just like me!...

Chapta 20 �Does Michael live here? Michael Moretti?� �Err yea he does but he�s not here at da moment though. Who are you?� da woman hu luked lyk me was bre questioning me �Well dis I cant rilly explain coz deres no way 4 me 2 explain dis�� I took out da picture of me, da man nd my mum. Da woman gasped n luked at me �U�u�u�ur�ur Ashlee! Oh my god, your Ashlee! I�ve bin waitin 4 dis moment 4 so long!� wen I nodded my head she dragged me towards her n hugged me 4 wat felt lyk an hour n I culd feel her tears on my back. We went in 2 da living room and she introduced me to the other woman hu was my stepmum, hu�s name was Vanessa and she tld me dat I had 2 brothers nd a sista, called Rio, Ramal and Kelendria� We spent dat whole afternoon getting 2 kno each otha n it all felt bre surreal bcoz I finally had a real family not people that luved me bcoz they had 2� coz it was only lyk 1 n my dad wernt cumin home till lyk 7 dey tld me 2 meet dem dat Saturday at da Pizza Hut in Streatham dat cumin Saturday afternoon� I was on da bus home n I turned on my fone 2 listen 2 sum songs n I herd dat Luther Vandross song �Dance With My Father� I felt lyk cryin so much boi. I was bre getting emosh on da bus. I felt so happy dat wen I got home not even my stepdad cud get me down� Da next mornin (Saturday) I was in my bed jus finkin abwt how much my life had changed in da space of abwt 24 hours. I went dwnstairs 2 wrap sum presents as Christmas was on Tuesday n I hadn�t even bought sum ppls presents yet so I had a lot 2 do� my fone was ringin�it was Reece. �hii� �Hi where was u yday? And y was ur fone off?� �Oh sorry dad, I didn�t realise u wer lukin 4 me� �Why r u callin me dad?� �I was being sarcastic luv neways wat do u want?� �so is man not allowed 2 tlk 2 da wifey no more n wen I dnt call u ya start bitchin bwt u neva call me no more kmt� �I was only jokin man take a chill pill� �Oh n I like da way u dint even call man 2 tell him happy birthday yday�dat is so evil afta on ur bday we wernt even 2getha n I still rememberd�

�R u dun yet?� �Yea I am� �Good now if u wud let me speak u wud kno dat I did call u, u just chose not 2 answer u fone. Oh n I was busy yday dats y, so dnt get all vexed wiv me gosh� �Wteva neway wat r u doin 2day? U can make yday up 2 me� �Mate ma life dnt revolve around u ya kna but since I hav a lot 2 tell u u can cum my house�� �Am I ur lil doggy 2 b runnin round afta u?� �Fine dnt cum. Dnt ask me 2 cum n c u init� I loked off da fone n went upstairs 2 get dressed properly coz I knew dat Reece wuld cum n c me coz he always does wat I tell him 2 do Just as I predicted about an hour later Reece was knockin on my door. �Wat happened 2 im not ur lil doggy?� �Maybe I just felt lyk cumin 2 c u, not bcoz u tld me 2� �Yea u tell urself dat. But ur a gud lil doggy neway� he smacked on my booty n I kicked him in his balls. �Do u not want us 2 hav kids Ashlee� wen he clocked wat he sed he was bare starin at me 2 c if my face changed. I jus looked deep in his eyes n didn�t say nefin. �So how does it feel bein 22 den?� I was bare changing da subject boi �Err like how it felt wen I was 20 and 21, normal. N dnt change da subject lyk dat u fool. Ur actin lyk u nah want us 2 hav kids 2getha or sumfin� �It�s not dat its da way u just sprung it on me lyk dat init. N I swear u alredy hav a child, nd wer is he by da way?� �He�s with his motha�cum now we need 2 hav serious talks� he took my hand nd lead me in 2 da living room� we sat on da sofa n he put his arm around me�we wer jus talkin n I still hadn�t told him about evryfin dat I had found out abwt myself. He was telling me all sorts lyk how he rilly feels about me n evryfin dat he wanted 2 happen 4 us. It was bare sweet lyk�frm dat day I knew dat he rilly luved me despite everyfin dat had happened in da past n all da fings dat wer gna happen in da future� den I remembered y I called him ova in da 1st place. �I need 2 tell u sumfin big Reece, sumfin dat has changed my life� �Wat hav u dun now. Is it sumfin gud or bad?� �Ermm I wud say good�but others might say its bad�� �Tell me den� �Well basically u kno how I dnt kno my dad�� �Yea�keep talkin� �Well basically in lyk October I decided dat I wud find him�but b4 I actually did dat I found out sumfin bwt him�� �u better not tell me wer related or sumfin!� �No Reece, we aint related. Neways basically I found out dat my dad is mixed race which makes me quarter-cast� �Can u stop bein dumb n b serious?� �No lie am telling da truth 100%� �Skeen�well dat certainly explains a lot then. Namely that� he pointed at my bum �U r so gay�neways dats not all. Yesterday I went 2 c him�but he wernt dere, but I met his mum n his wife!� �Skeen� �can u stop sayin skeen plz man, dis is my life dat we r talkin bout here yea so basically I went 2 his house he wernt dere I spoke 2 my grandma n my step mum n dey wer telling me stuff abwt evryfin dat I have missed out on. Nd im goin 2 c dem on Saturday� �Do ya fink dats wise? U dnt even kno these people n ur goin 2 c dem� �well im not exactly gona b alone coz wer gona b in a public place wer goin pizza hut so if sumfin happens I can always rely on da witnesses init� �wateva�wat do ur mum n stepdad fink off all dis?� �errr�I dnt kno�coz I didn�t tell dem�coz I knew my mum wuld start cussin me, n all im doin is getting 2 kno da man dat contributed half of me 2 dis world. N neways im 18 almost 19 so she aint allowed 2 tell me wt 2 do nemore. Wat do u

fink?� �Well�its great 4 u init�but I dnno it�s not rilly my business is it� �Err yea it is bcoz u r my boyfriend n we hav been 2getha 4 lyk 2 years so I fink u shud at least gimme ur opinion init�� �Just�don�t put any trust in dem. At least not until u get 2 kno dem� �Yea I kno�ur always lukin out 4 me�dats y I luv u� �Oh stop ur makin me blush� �Nah but on a real stop bein gay�so wat did u get me 4 Christmas?� �Bitch I dint get u nefin� �Oh dats not nice I fawt u loved me� �Oh I do. Nah am jkin I did get u sumfin�but u have 2 wait until Christmas morning, I�ll bring it 2 u personally� �Oh but I want it now� �I don�t give a shit, u�ll get it wen am ready 2 giv it 2 u and dats final� I jus luked at him n gave him da puppy dog eyes but it wernt workin he was just actin lyk I wernt sittin dere. I gave up and just closed my eyes n pretended 2 go 2 sleep� Abwt 2 hours later I had finished wrapping the presents n I was in the house alone. I was on the phone 2 Shanice bout our plans 4 new years wen I herd da front door slam shut n den sumwun came runnin up da stairs. My sista came in my room n threw sum carrier bag at me den walked out n went 2 her room. I opened da bag n had sum next paper ting init n I opened da paper n it was chips n a burger lyk I askd 4 dat shit. Still its free food� afta I got off da fone wiv Shanice sumwun rang my foen agen jus as I was bout 2 start yammin out. I luked at da caller ID 2 c fi it was sumwun actually worth tlkin 2. it was Dwayne

Chapta 21 �Kmt man jus as I was bout 2 put sum food in ma mouf u had 2 call me��

�Hi 2 u as well� �Wat do u want?� �Wat is man not allowed 2 call u no more?� �Err no not rilly especially as I aint spoke 2 u 4 TYME� �skeen well man just wanted 2 tlk 2 u init�cum link me plz� �Mate wat drugs r u on coz I wnt summa dat shit. Why da fuck wud I cum link u afta da way fings ended between us n da last tyme I saw u, u behaved so randomly� �Nah I wana talk 2 u on levels init� �Well fame I wudn�t cum 2 c u no matter wt u wnted to tlk bout. Bye� Afta I locked off I sat dere lukin at da fone in shock n tummy was bare in knots. On Christmas eve I was sittin up in my room watchin a film wid my sisters n da doorbell rang. We wer da only wuns in da house so I got up 2 go an answer coz I knew dose lazy bitches wudn�t have got up. I cud c sum next dark shadow standin dere n I got kinda shook n I called out �hu is it� n da person replied �it�s Dwayne� Lord a mercy wat duz dis boi want wiv my life man. I slowly opened da door n luked at him. I wernt planning on letting him in so I made him stand on da door step. �Wat do u want, am busy man� �Jus came 2 wish u a merry Christmas init�� �So cud u not have done dat ova da fone? It was lyk totally unnecessary 4 u 2 cum here man jus leave me alone� I was about 2 slam da door in his face n he try put his foot between da door so I cudnt shut it. I opened da door again n was gona pick up wun of my hefty shoes 2 hit him on da head wen sumfin hard hit me between my neck n my head n evryfin went dark� I woke up n I was still in da hallway but I was lyin wiv my head on sumfin soft lyk a towel. My hair felt kina wet at da bck n I was jus lyk wat da fuck. I saw sumwuns feet cumin dwn da stairs n clocked it was my sista� I tried 2 sit up but she tld me 2 stay lying down. �Wat tyme is it?� �1am�u�ve bin knocked out since lyk 11:45� �So y did u leave me lying here?� �Coz da damn ambulance aint here yet...neways da police r gona wana tlk 2 u lata. Hu was at da door neways� �Dat fuckin asswipe Dwayne. Help me up man� Da ambulance people n da police came at da same tyme n my sista was cussin dem lyk y did it take u an hour 2 get ur bloodclart rarses dwn here. Secretly I was finkin da same but I wernt bunned 2 speek. Dey took me 2 da hospital n I had 2 get stitches n den da chupid police mandem was askin me sum next up qwestions lyk rah. I jus tld dem da truth dat I knew hu it was n gave dem his address n ting n dey left me alone. I just went strait 2 sleep wen I got home n I dint wake up til lyk 12:45 n I cud smell bare food cookin n cud smell my (step) grandma�s curry goat. I wnted 2 run dwn dem stairs n take me a bowl a dat shit but I decided 2 take my time about it n went n had a bath n ting buh I had sum next poundin headache n I cudnt even stand up. Wen I luked in da mirror I was ova pale n I had sum dark circles round my eyes. I felt 2 sick 2 get out of bed n 4 da first time in ma whole life I stayed in bed 4 da whole day�ppl called my fone but I cudnt b arsd 2 get up n answer it so I left it� I woke up on Boxing Day feeling a bit better n I checked my inbox had a few txts frm Reece n a few othas. I checkd ma voicemail n I had wun frm DWAYNE. Dat boi had sum nerve I just deleted dat shit strait off ma fone. I had a nice long hot bath n put on sum fresh jeans n went dwnstairs. Evrywun was in da house except my older sista� I went in 2 da kitchen 2 c wat munch dey had left frm yestaday n dere was bit a evryfin curry goat, turkey, rice, potatoes, stuffing etc etc I loaded my plate up n went n sat dwn wid my food. Afta dat I went bck 2 my bed n slept a bit more. �Why do u call me wen u kno I got troubles enuff y do u call me wen u kno I can�t answer da fone �� my ringtone � Keisha White - The Weakness In Me� private

numba� �Hello hu is dis?� �It�s Dwayne I jus wna-� �Fuck u man do u know how much damage u dun 2 me?� I locked off da fone n startd ringin strait afta �Listen u fuckin piece of shit which part of fuck u did u not understand? Da fuck? Da u? Or da exclamation mark?� �Damn girl I was only ringin u 2 c if ur awake jeez� �Hu da fuck is dis?� �Its Reece man can u not read ur caller ID� �Oh sorry�� �Hu pissed u off den?� �Dwayne� �Wah did he do baby� �He came 2 my yard on Xmas eve n licked me round my head wiv sumfin hard n I had 2 go hospital n get stitches�� �Are u fuckin serious� �No lie�� I cud tell he was getting vexed so I dint wana say no more �Err n ur only just telling me now� �How was I supposed 2 tell u wen I was practically in a coma yestaday n it happened da nite b4�?� �Yea I�ll talk 2 u later�� my tummy was in knots agen n I hoped he wudn�t do nefin stupid� Da next mornin as soon as I woke up I foned Reece but he didn�t answer. It was just me n my yunga sista in da house n didn�t feel safe coz she was still sleepin so I went n woke her up. �Why do u call me wen u kno I got troubles enuff y do u call me wen u kno I can�t answer da fone �� it was Reece �lyk wer u bin man I bin callin u since last nite� �dnt watch dat man im cumin 2 ur yard so prepare urself�� �prepare myself 4 wat?� �4 me. Make sure clean nd u smell n look nice� �Skeenage! Hu r u 2 b givin me instructions?� �Be ready bye� he locked off da fone�wow dis boi pisses me off sumtymes�I remembered dat I neva gave him my present 2 him�but I decided 2 make him wait 4 dat shit. I was walkin super slowly 2 go n answer da door n my house fone startd ring it jus said call (we got caller id) so I picked it up while openin da door. �Hello� �Yea can I speak 2 Ashlee Plz?� �Yes speakin�hus dis� �Dnt hang up yea�?� �Err as long as I actually wana tlk 2 hu eva dis is�� �Its Dwayne�am at da hospital nd im here bcoz-� �Yea dats nice bye� I turned 2 look at Reece n he gave me wun of dem looks dat was lyk �so u cnt say hi?� �Hu was on da fone?� �Sum boi called Dwayne� �U do realise wat u just sed rite?� �Err yea y wudn�t I have� �Wteva�wat did dat bitch want frm u kmt can he not take a hint� �Wat do u mean cnt he take a hint? N dat brings me 2 my next question, wat did u last nite afta u hung up da fone on me� �Dnt worry man just no dat fings hav bin dealt with� �Dealt with�do u fink dis is da mafia or sumfin mate. If ne1 shuld b talkin lyk dats it�s me coz am da Italian wun babes�

�If u say so�yea just know it�he is dealt with man� �Wat do u mean by dealt with doe�dat cud mean nefin� �Dnt worry abat it� �Oh yea�I want my present now� �Close ur eyes� I cud hear him rustling around n opening sumfin �Move forward bitch� �I am not a bitch� I moved forward on the chair n waited 4 him 2 do wateva he was doin�my guess was he got me a necklace nd my guess was rite�I felt him putin sumfin cold round my neck n den it dropped on 2 my chest. I opened my eyes n luked down�it was sum BOOM n wen I say boom I mean boooooom gold necklace wid da word �wifey� in diamonds�n dese wernt lyk fake diamonds �Babes�dis must hav cost u lyk loads�I dnt even kno wat 2 say bout dis.� I luked deep in 2 his eyes n kissed him�just lyk da 1st tyme we mashed but I didn�t feel up 2 mashin dis tyme�he pulled away frm me n was lyk �is dis supposd 2 b my present?� �No�u can get dat anotha day. Not today coz I dnt exactly have the whole thing anyway�� My fone was ringin so I went 2 pick it up�it was Naomi�my gran (frm my real dad) �Hello� �Hi darling how was your Christmas?� �Oh it was alright, I was a bit sick so I didn�t rilly do nefin. How bout u?� �Nufin much jus stayed in with the rest of the family. We finally told them about u� �Wen u say them do u mean ma brothas n sista?� �Yea� �How did they react?� �Well dey wer a bit shockd at 1st but now they wana meet u� �Erm do they know dat am � white?� �Yea they do but I dnt fink dats not dere main concern at da moment doe� �Oh rite�r dey cumin on Saturday den?� �Nah dere not cumin�� �Oh allrite den� �Allrite den ill fone u on Saturday mornin 2 arrange a tyme or sumfin� �Yea ok� �Bye� �Bye� Da next mornin I went downstairs n dere was a pile of letter�s on da floor n dere was wun 4 me�I took it in 2 da living room n sat dwn n opened it. It was full of lyk glittery luv hearts n ting n da envelope was pink wiv luv hearts on it. I took da letter out n it sed �my luv 4 u is neva gona leave Ashlee. Til death do us part�� �