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Yaa Allah, ajarkan kami untuk mengenal, mengetahui, memahami, mengerti, menghargai, dan menjalankan Aturan-aturan-Mu.... Yaa Allah, teach us to be able too know, to be able to understand, to be able to appreciate and to be able to live by Your rules.

‫ﲄ ﻧ َ ْﻌ ِﺮ َف َو ﻧ َ ْﻌ َ َﲅ َو ﻧ َ ْﻔﻬ ََﻢ َو ﻧ ُ َﻔ ِﻜّ َﺮ َو ﻧ َُﻄ ّﺒ َِﻖ‬ ْ َ ‫َالﻠ�ﻬُ �ﻢ �َ ِﻠ ّ ْﻤﻨَﺎ ِﻟ‬ ‫ﴍﯾْ َﻌﺎ ِﺗ َﻚ‬ َِ Bila rasa kemanusiaan serasa sudah terpenuhi, kami suka merasa cukup sebagai manusia. Lupa, bahwa ada Aturan-aturan-Mu juga yang mestinya kami pikirin. When we think that we have fulfilled our sense of humanity, we often feel like it is enough. We forget that there are also Your rules, that we have to think about.

‫ َو دَاﺋِ ًﻤﺎ‬.‫ِﻋ ْﻨﺪَ َﻣﺎ � َ ْﺸ ُﻌ ُﺮ �أ �ن ا ْﺣ َﺴﺎ َﺳ�ﻨَﺎ ْاﻻ� ْ َﺴﺎ ِﻧ �ﯿ َﺔ ﻗَ ْﺪ ُو ِﻓ ّ َي ْﺖ‬ � � ‫ﱔ اﻟ � ِﱵ َﻻ ﺑ ُ �ﺪ‬ ِ َ ‫� َ ْﺸ ُﻌ ُﺮ ِﺑأ� �ن َذ ِ َ� �َ ْﻜ ِﻔﻲ َو ﻧَن ْ َﴗ ِﺑأ� �ن‬ َ ِ ‫ﴍﯾْ َﻌﺎ ِﺗ َﻚ‬ ‫�أ ْن ﻧ ُ َﻔ ِﻜّ َﺮ َﻫﺎ‬ Sementara banyak hamba-hamba-Mu yang terlihat taat, tapi tidak cukup untuk menjadi model sebagai manusia yang baik. Menambah sesat yang tidak pecaya pada-Mu. While there are many of your servants who look obedient, but they are not sufficient to be the role model of a a good human. It misleads those who do not believe in You.

� ‫ِ ْﰲ ِ� ْ ٍﲔ �أ �ن ُﻫﻨَ َﺎك اﻟْ َﻌ ِﺪﯾْﺪَ ِﻣ ْﻦ َﻋ ِﺒ ْﯿ ِﺪ َك ُ ْﱒ �أ ْﻫ ُﻞ‬ ‫اﻟﻄﺎ�َ ِﺔ ِﰲ‬ � ‫اﻟﻈﺎ ِﻫ ِﺮ ﻟَ ِﻜ ْﻦ َﻫ َﺬا َﻻ �َ ْﻜ ِﻔﻲ ِ �� ْن �َ ُﻜ ْﻮﻧ ُْﻮا ِﻣث ًَﺎﻻ َﺣ َﺴ�ﻨًﺎ ﺑ َ ْﻞ ﻗَ ْﺪ‬ ‫ﯾ َ ِﻀ �ﻞ ﺑ َ ْﻌﻀُ ﻬ ُْﻢ َﻣ ْﻦ ﯾُ ْﺆ ِﻣ ُﻦ ﺑ َِﻚ‬

Yaaa Allah. Sungguh kegelapan tidak akan terasa kegelapan, jika Engkau tidak memberikan Cahaya-Mu.

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Yaaa Allah. Verily, the darkness would not be felt as darkness, if You do not give Your Light.

ِ ‫اﻟﻈﻠُ َﻤ‬ ِ ‫ﺎت َ ��ﳖ� َﺎ ﻟَي َْﺴ ْﺖ ِ� �ﻟﻈﻠُ َﻤ‬ � ‫َالﻠ�ﻬُ �ﻢ ا �ن َﻫ ِﺬ ِﻩ‬ ‫ﺎت ا ْن ﻟَ ْﻢ ﺗُ ْﻌ ِﻄﻨَﺎ‬ � � ‫ﻧ ُْﻮ َر َك‬ Maghrib ini, terima kasih masih mengizinkan kami-kami yang berdosa dan ga tau apa-apa ini masih boleh ke Masjid-Mu. Ke Rumah-Mu. This evening, thank You for still allowing us, who are sinful and know nothing, to come to Your masjids. To Your House.

‫ِﰲ َﻫ ِﺬ ِﻩ ْ �ا� ْﻣ ِﺴ� �ﯿ ِﺔ َ ْﲪﺪً ا َ َ� ِﺑأ�ﻧ َ�ﻚ ﺗَأ� َذ ُن ﻟَﻨَﺎ َ ْﳓ ُﻦ اﻟْ ُﻤ ْﺬ ِﻧ ُﺒ ْﻮ َن َو‬ ‫اﻟْ َ�ﺎ ِﻫﻠُ ْﻮ َن �أ ْن ﻧَأ� ِ َﰐ ا َﱃ َﻣ ْﺴ ِ� ِﺪ َك َو ا َﱃ ﺑَيْ ِت َﻚ‬ � � Yaa Allah makin mata ini melihat diri ini berada di dalam kegelapan. Tapi ga bisa melihat bahwa sedang dalam kegelapan. Ga berasa sedang dalam kegelapan. Yaa Allah, these eyes are seeing more vividly, that we are in darkness. But we do not realize that we are in the darkness. We do not feel like we are in the darkness.

ِ ‫اﻟﻈﻠُ َﻤ‬ � ‫َالﻠ�ﻬُ �ﻢ ُﳇ� َﻤﺎ �َ َﺮى َﻫ ِﺬ ِﻩ اﻟْ ُﻌ ُﯿ ْﻮ ُن ِﺑأ�ﻧ�ﻨَﺎ ِﰲ‬ ‫ﺎت َو ﻟَ ِﻜ ْﻦ َﻻ‬ ِ ‫اﻟﻈﻠُ َﻤ‬ � ‫� َ ْﺴ� َﺘ ِﻄ ْﯿ ُﻊ �أ ْن نَ َﺮى ِﺑأ� �ن �أﻧْ ُﻔ َﺴ�ﻨَﺎ ِﰲ‬ ‫ﺎت َو َﻻ � َ ْﺸ ُﻌ ُﺮﲠِ َﺎ‬

Kalau Engkau tidak memberi Cahaya-Mu, maka kegelapan apa yang bakal dirasa, diketahui, dimengerti, sebagai kegelapan? Akhirnya gelap terus. If You do not give Your Light, then what darkness that will be felt, will be known, will be understood, as darkness? In the end, it is forever dark.

ِ ‫اﻟﻈﻠُ َﻤ‬ � ‫ا َذا َﻻ ﺗُ ْﻌ ِﻄ ْﯿﻨَﺎ ﻧ ُْﻮ َر َك ﻓَأ� �ي‬ ‫ﺎت اﻟ � ِ ْﱵ ﻧ ُْﺪ ِر ُﻛﻬَﺎ َو ﻧ َ ْﻌﻠَ ُﻤﻬَﺎ َو‬ � ِ ُ ُ ِ‫ﺎت ا َﱃ ْ �ا�ﺑَﺪ‬ � ‫ ِﰲ ِ ّا�ﳯَﺎﯾَﺔ اﳖ� َﺎ‬.‫ﺎت‬ � ‫ﻧ َ ْﻔﻬَ ُﻤﻬَﺎ ِﺑأ�ﳖ� َﺎ‬ ُ ‫اﻟﻈﻠ َﻤ‬ ُ ‫اﻟﻈﻠ َﻤ‬ � � Sebab Cahaya-Mu, kami jadi tahu... "Oooohhh kami sedang dalam kegelapan." Lalu kami pergi menuju Cahaya-Mu. Lah ini kami merasa terang terus. Because of Your Light, we know now... “Oh, we are in the dark now”, and then we march toward Your Light. But instead, we feel like it is always bright and shiny.

ِ ‫اﻟﻈﻠُ َﻤ‬ � ‫ِﺑ ُﻨ ْﻮ ِر َك ﻧ َ ْﻌ َ ُﲅ َا ْﻩ َ ْﳓ ُﻦ ْا�ٓ َن ِﰲ‬ ‫ﺎت ﻓَنَ ْﻨ َﻄ ِﻠ ُﻖ ا َﱃ ﻧ ُْﻮ ِر َك‬ � ‫ﻓَن َ ْﺸ ُﻌ ُﺮ ِﺑ ِﻪ �أﻧ�ﻨَﺎ دَاﺋِ ًﻤﺎ ِﰲ اﻟﻨ� ْﻮ ِر‬ Bila akal kami udah akur dengan perasaan kami, bila hati kami udah cocok dengan pikiran dan nalar kami, kami dah ga mau lagi liat Ayat-ayat-Mu. Duh... When our mind and our feeling are alligned, when our hearts are in tune with our rationality and our common sense, we do not want to look at Your verses anymore. Duh.

‫ َو ِﻋ ْﻨﺪَ َﻣﺎ ﺗُﻨَ ِﺎﺳ ُﺐ ﻗُﻠُ ْﻮﺑُﻨَﺎ‬, َ�‫ُﻋ ُﻘ ْﻮﻟُﻨَﺎ ُﺷ ُﻌ ْﻮ َر‬ ‫�آ َ� ِﺗ َﻚ آ ٓ ْﻩ‬

‫ِﻋ ْﻨﺪَ َﻣﺎ ﺗ َُﻮا ِﻓ ُﻖ‬ ُ‫ِﺑ َﻤﻨَﺎ ِﻃ ِﻘنَﺎ ﻓَنَ ْ ُﱰك‬

Dipikirnya oleh kami, yang penting kami baik, ga mengganggu. Itu cukup. Ibadah dan taat kepada-Mu? Jadi ga penting lagi. Yaa Allah. Gelapnya kami... We think that it is enough to be a good man, to not bother other people. That would be enough. Worshiping and obeying You? They become insignificant. Yaa Allah. How we are in the dark.

‫ �آ �ﻣﺎ‬.‫ﻧ َُﻈ �ﻦ ِﺑآ� �ن ْ �ا� َ �ﱒ اﻟَ ْﯿﻨَﺎ ﻫ َُﻮ �آﻻ� نُ ْﺰ ِ َﰩ ْا�ٓ َﺧ ِﺮْ� َﻦ ﻓَﻬَ َﺬا �َ ْﻜ ِﻔﻲ‬ � َ � ‫اﻟﻄﺎ�َ ُﺔ ﻟي َْﺴ ْﺖ ﲥُ ِ �ﻤﻨَﺎ َ� َر ِ ّب �أ �ي‬ � ‫اﻟْ ِﻌ َﺒﺎ َد ُة �أ ِو‬ ‫اﻟﻈ َﻼ ِم ﺑ َ ْﻌﺪَ َﻫ َﺬا؟‬

Ayat-ayat-Mu pun sudah kami sembarang dipahami dengan pemahaman kami sendiri. Engkau ajarkan kami ber-ta'awwudz dulu sebelum membacanya. Aaah, kami lupa... Even Your verses, we have interprete them arbitrarily with our own understanding. Whereas You have taught us to do ta’awudz before we read Your verses. Aah, we forget....

‫َو �أﻧْ َﺖ ﻗَ ْﺪ‬

‫َو �أ َ�ﺗ َُﻚ ﻧ َ ْﻔﻬَ ُﻤﻬَﺎ � َِﺸﻬ َْﻮا ِﺗﻨَﺎ َو ِﺑ َﻤﺎ ﯾُﻨَ ِﺎﺳ ُﺐ ُﻋ ُﻘ ْﻮﻟَﻨَﺎ‬ ‫�َﻠ � ْﻤ َﺘﻨَﺎ ِﻟﻨَ َﺘ َﻌ �ﻮ َذ ﻗَ ْب َﻞ ِﻗ َﺮ َاءﲥِ َﺎ آٓﻩ � َ ِﺴيْنَﺎ َﻫﺎ‬

Untuk apa berlindung kepada-Mu dari syetan yang terkutuk? Toh kami mampu menafsirkannya? Why do we need to ask for Your protection from the the acursed syetan? Whereas we are capable of interprating them.

‫ﻓَ ِﻠ َﻤﺎ َذا � َ ْﺴ� َﺘ ِﻌ ْﯿ ُﺬ ﺑ َِﻚ ِﻣ َﻦ اﻟ �ﺸ� ْﯿ َﻄ ِﺎن �اﻟﺮ ِﺟ ْ ِﲓ َو َ ْﳓ ُﻦ � َ ْﺴ� َﺘ ِﻄ ْﯿ ُﻊ �أ ْن‬ ‫ﴪ َﻫﺎ ِﺑأ�ﻧْ ُﻔ ِﺴ�ﻨَﺎ‬ َ ّ ِ ‫ﻧ ُ َﻔ‬

Tuh coba liat ya Allah. Gimana ga bertambah gelap? There, You can see it ya Allah. No wonder that the darkness becomes thicker.

� ‫َﻫ َﻜ َﺬا َ� َر ِ ّب ﻗَ ْﺪ َر �أﯾْ َﺖ َ�ﺎﻟَﻨَﺎ ﻓَ َﻼ َ َﲺ َﺐ ٕ َا َذا َﰷ َن َﻫ َﺬا‬ ‫اﻟﻈ َﻼ ُم‬ ‫ْازدَا َد‬

Standar kebaikan, moral, akhlak, saya semakin ga paham. Kebulak balik rasanya. Mau bicara, ga ngerti. Takuuuut. Ya Robb, jangan tinggalkan kami. The standards of morality, akhlak, I cannot understand it anymore. Everything seems to be upside down. I want to speak up, I dont understand. I am afraid. Ya Robb, please dont leave us alone.

‫َﻣ َﻌﺎ ِﯾ ْ ُﲑ ْ �ا�� َْﻼ ِق َو اﻟ �ﺴﻠُ ْﻮ ِك َﻻ �أ ْﺳ� َﺘ ِﻄ ْﯿ ُﻊ �أ ْن �أﻓْﻬَ َﻤﻬَﺎ ﯾ َ ْﺒﺪُ و �أ �ن‬ ٍ َ ِ‫ُﳇ�ﻬَﺎ �أ ْﺻ َﺒ َﺤ ْﺖ ُﻣت َ َﺸﺎﲠ‬ ‫ﴚ ٍء َو ﻟَ ِﻜ ْﻦ َﻻ‬ ْ َ �ِ ‫ �أ ِرﯾْﺪُ �أ ْن �أ�َ َﳫ� َﻢ‬.‫ﺎت‬ ‫ َ� َر ِ ّب َﻻ ﺗَ ْ ُﱰ ْﻛﻨَﺎ ﻓُ َﺮادَى‬.‫�أﻓْﻬَ ُﻢ و �أ� َُﺎف‬ Ummat Nabi-Mu, yang Engkau Cintai, karena Nabi-Mu, lagi pada galau kelas berat. Termasuk diri ini. Udah ga ngerti Standar-Mu. Nabrak-nabrak ga keruan. The people of Your Prophet, whom You love, because of your Prophet, are now in dire confusion. That includes me as weel. We can no longer understand Your standard. Everything are crashing with each other, chaotic.

َ�‫�آ �ﻣ ُﺔ ﻧ َ ِبيّ َِﻚ اﻟ � ِﱵ �آ ْﺣ َب ْﺒﳤَ َﺎ ِﺑﻨَ ِبيّ َِﻚ ﻓَ ْﺎ�ٓ َن ُ ْﱒ ِﰲ ﻗَﻠَ ٍﻖ َﺷ ِﺪﯾْ ٍﺪ َو �آ‬ � ُ َ‫ ﻟَ ْﻢ ﻧ َ ْﻔﻬَ ْﻢ ِﻣ ْﻌ َﯿ َﺎر َك ﻓ‬.‫ِﻣ ْﳯُ ْﻢ‬ ‫ﳾ ٍء ﯾ َ َﺘ َﺤ �ﻄ ُﻢ َو َ ْﳜ َﺘ ِﻠﻂُ ﺑ َ ْﻌﻀُ ﻬَﺎ َﻋ ْﻦ‬ َْ ‫ﲁ‬ ‫ﺑ َ ْﻌ ٍﺾ‬

Yaaa Allah, dulu ketika kecil, kami biasa bersenandung doa... Robbi zidnii... 'Ilman.. Warzuqnii fahman... Wa 'aafinii, wa'fu 'annii... Yaa Allah, bac when we were younger we often prayed Robbi zidnii... 'Ilman.. Warzuqnii fahman... Wa 'aafinii, wa'fu 'annii...

ِ ّ ‫� ﷲ ِﻋ ْﻨﺪَ َﻣﺎ ُﻛﻨ�ﺎ ِﰲ‬ ‫ﻮك َر ِ ّب ِزد ِ ْْﱐ‬ َ ‫اﻟﺼﻐَﺎ ِر دَاﺋِ ًﻤﺎ ﻧ َ َﺘﻐ �َﲎ ﻧ َْﺪ ُﻋ‬ ‫ِ�ﻠْ ًﻤﺎ َو ْار ُز ْﻗ ِ ْﲏ ﻓَﻬْ ًﻤﺎ َو �َﺎ ِﻓ ِﲏ َو اﻋ ُْﻒ َﻋ ِ ّ ْﲏ‬ Tapi kini, kami merasa dah ga perlu minta ilmu, minta pemahaman, minta maaf, dari-Mu. Kepinteran kami udah ngalahin syetan kali ya? Robb... But now we feel that we do not need to ask for more knowledge, ask for more understanding, ask for more forgiveness from You. Maybe we are smarter than syetan, arent we? Robb...

‫َو ﻟَ ِﻜن�ﻨَﺎ ْا�ٓ َن � َ ْﺸ ُﻌ ُﺮ ِﺑآ�ﻧ�ﻨَﺎ َﻻ َ ْﳓ َﺘ ُﺎج �آ ْن � َ ْﺴآ� َ َ� اﻟْ ِﻌ ْ َﲅ َو اﻟْ َﻔﻬ َْﻢ َو‬ ‫ ﻓَﻬ َْﻞ َذ َﰷ ُء�َ ﻗَ ْﺪ �َﻠَ َﺐ �َ َﲆ اﻟ �ﺸ� ْﯿ َﻄ ِﺎن؟ َ� َر ِ ّب‬.‫اﻟْ َﻌ ْﻔ َﻮ ِﻣنْ َﻚ‬

Syetan aja masih minta bantuan-Mu... Masih minta kekuatan-Mu. Masih minta "fabi'izzatika", dengan Kemuliaan-Mu. Kata syetan. Lah kami...? Even syertan still asks fro Your favor... He still asks fro Your might. He still asks "fabi'izzatika", By Your grace, syetan says. Now what about us?

‫َﺣ �ﱴ ْا�ٓ َن َاﻟ �ﺸ� ْﯿ َﻄ ُﺎن َﻣﺎ َزا َل � َ ْﺴ� َﺘ ِﻌ ْ ُﲔ ﺑ َِﻚ � َ ْﺴآ� ُل ﻗُ �ﻮﺗَ َﻚ ﯾ َ ْﺪ ُﻋﻮ‬ ‫ﻓَ ِب ِﻌ �ﺰ ِﺗ َﻚ َﻫ َﺬا ﻫ َُﻮ ُد�َﺎ ُء ُﻩ ﻓَ َﻜ ْي َﻒ ِﺑﻨَﺎ؟‬

Duh... Maafin kami yang sok tau... Sok cerdas. Sok arif. Sok paham. Sok bijak. Padahal sujud pun makin jarang sebenersebenernya sujud... Duh, forgive us for acting all-knowing, acting all-smart and all-wise. Whereas we rarely perform a genuine prostration.

ِ ِ ‫آٓﻩ ُا ْ� ُﺬ ْر�َ ِ ��ﻧ�ﻨَﺎ ﻧ َُﻈ �ﻦ ِﺑآ�ﻧ�ﻨَﺎ ِﻣ َﻦ اﻟْ َﻌﺎ ِﻗ ِﻠ ْ َﲔ َو اﻟْ َﻌﺎ ِرِﻓ ْ َﲔ َو اﻟْ َﻔ‬ ‫ﺎﳘ ْ َﲔ‬ ِ َ ‫ َو ِﰲ اﻟْ َﺤ ِﻘ ْي َﻘ ِﺔ ﻗَ ِﻠ ْﯿ ًﻼ َﻣﺎ � َ ْﺴ ُ�ﺪُ � ُِﺴ ُﺠ ْﻮ ٍد‬. ‫َو اﻟْ ُﺤ َﳬَﺎ ِء‬ ‫ﲱ ْﯿ ٍﺢ‬ Yang namanya kebenaran dan kebaikan, kini, bukan lagi apa KataMu. Tapi apa kata kami. Manusia-manusia dungu ini. Apa Kata-Mu, ga lagi kami indahkan. What we call as the truth and the good deed, now, are no longer what You say; it is what we say. We, the foolish men, no longer pay any attention to what You say.

‫ﴩ ﻟَيْ َﺲ �َ َﲆ ﻗَ ْﻮ ِ َ� ﺑ َ ْﻞ �َ َﲆ ﻗَ ْﻮ ِﻟﻨَﺎ َ ْﳓ ُﻦ‬ ِ ّ � ‫َﻣﺎ ﻧ َ ُﻘ ْﻮ ُ ُ� ِ�ﻟْ َ� ْ ِﲑ َو اﻟ‬ �َ ِ ‫ْ �ا��َ ُس اﻟْ ُﺠﻬَ َﻼ ُء َﻻ ﳖَ ْ َ �ﱲ ِﺑ َﻘ ْﻮ‬ Pokoknya kalau kami bilang ini adalah baik, maka apa urusan-Mu? Duh Yaaaa Allah... Kamikah Fir'aun-Fir'aun kecil abad ini? Jangan Kau siksa kami... If we say something is good, it is good; and what is your concern about it? Duh ya Allah... Are we the little pharaos of this century? By your will, please dont let us suffer.

‫ا ْن ﻗُﻠْﻨَﺎ اﻧ � ُﻪ � ْ ٌَﲑ ﻓَ َﻼ �َ َﻼﻗَتَ ُﻪ ﺑ َِﻚ آ ٓ ْﻩ َ� اﻟَﻬ ِْيﻲ ﻓَﻬ َْﻞ َ ْﳓ ُﻦ ﻓَ َﺮا ِﻋﻨَ ٌﺔ‬ � � � َ�‫ِﺻﻐ ٌَﺎر ِﰲ َﻫ َﺬا �اﻟﺰ َﻣ ِﺎن ﻓَ َﻼ ﺗُ َﺆا ِ� ْﺬ‬

Ketika perbuatan demi perbuatan, yang tidak Engkau Ridhai, Engkau liat semakin subur di negeri ini, mudah-mudahan Engkau masih memiliki maaf tanpa batas. When You see every wrongdoing, that You do not approve, grows more and more on this land, we hope that You still have a limitless forgiveness.

َ � ‫ﰻ �أ ْ َﲻ ٍﺎل ﻟَ ْﻢ �َ ْﺮﺿَ ﺎ َﻫﺎ ﺗَ ْﻨ ُﻤﻮ َﻛ ِﺜ ْ ًﲑا ِﰲ َﻫ َﺬا اﻟْ َﺒ َ ِ� ﻓَﻠَ َﻌ‬ � ُ ‫ِﻋ ْﻨﺪَ َﻣﺎ‬ � ُ ِ ‫ﺗَ ْﻤ‬ �ُ َ ‫� اﻟْ َﻌ ْﻔ َﻮ َﻻ ﳖِ َﺎﯾ َ َﺔ‬ Ketika perbuatan buruk demi perbuatan buruk, malah disambut gembira, dilaksanakan dengan bahagia, mudah-mudahan Engkau tidak akan pernah terluka. When every bad deed is celebrated cheerfully, caried out happily, we hope that You will not be hurt watching it.

َ � ‫ﴪ ْو ِر ﻟَ َﻌ‬ � ُ ‫ِﻋ ْﻨﺪَ َﻣﺎ‬ � ُ � ‫ﰻ �أ ْ َﲻ ٍﺎل َﺳ ِي ّئَ ٍﺔ ﺗُ ْﻔتَﺨ َُﺮ ﲠِ َﺎ َو �ُ ْﺮ�َ َﻜ ُﺐ ِ�ﻟ‬ ‫ﻟ َ ْﻦ ﺗَأ� َذى ﲠِ َﺎ‬ Tinggal di kontrakan aja, ada aturannya. Pegimana lagi tinggal di Bumi-Mu... Ya Allah... Betapa tidak bersyukurnya kami ini... Koq ya ga mau diatur. Even living in a flat has its own rules; let alone living on Your Earth Ya Allah... How ungratefull we are. Why are we so stuborn?

‫َﺣ �ﱴ � ِا� ْ� َﻦ � َ ْﺴ ُﻜنُ ْﻮ َن ِﰲ اﻟ �ﺸﻘ� ِﺔ ِﻋ ْﻨﺪَ ُ ْﱒ ﻗَ َﻮا ِﻧ ْ ُﲔ ﻓَ َﻜ ْي َﻒ ِﻟ َﻤ ْﻦ‬ ‫ﷲ َﻛ ْﯿ َﻒ َﻻ � َ ْﺸ ُﻜ ُﺮ َك َو َﻛ ْﯿ َﻒ َﻻ‬ ُ �َ ‫� َ ْﺴ ُﻜ ُﻦ ِﰲ �أ ْر ِﺿ َﻚ‬ ‫ﻧ ُِﻄ ْﯿ ُﻌ َﻚ‬

Engkau Maha Melihat. Kami tau itu. Engkau Mahatahu. Kami juga tau. Tapi kami jalan terus dengan maksiat kami. Sebenernya kami tau Engkau ga sih? Ragu... You are the All-Seeing, we know that for sure. You are All-knowing; and we know this as well. But we continue to live with our sinful acts. Do we really know you? We doubt it..

‫�أﻧْ َﺖ ﺑ َ ِﺼ ْ ٌﲑ ﻗَ ْﺪ �َ ِﻠ ْﻤﻨَﺎ َذ ِ َ� �أﻧْ َﺖ �َ ِﻠ ْ ٌﲓ َو ﻗَ ْﺪ �َ ِﻠ ْﻤﻨَﺎ َﻫ َﺬا َو ﻟَ ِﻜ ْﻦ‬ .‫َﻣﺎ ِزﻟْﻨَﺎ � َ ْﺴ� َﺘ ِﻤ �ﺮ ِ ْﰲ َﻣ ْﻌ ِﺼ َﯿ ِﺘ َﻚ ﻓَﻬ َْﻞ َ ْﳓ ُﻦ ﻗَ ْﺪ َﻋ َﺮﻓْنَ َﺎك �أ ْم َﻻ‬ �َ ِ ‫ﻓَن َ ُﺸ �ﻚ �َ َﲆ َذ‬

Siapa yg mengenalkan-Mu kepada kami? Jangan-jangan yang mengenalkan Engkau kepada kami, yang sebenernya engga, atau belum kenal dengan-Mu. Jadi? Yaaa Allah... Who introduced You to us? Could it be that, the one who introduces You to us, is actually the one who doesnt know you, or the one who has not known you yet. So? Ya Allah....

‫َﻣ ِﻦ � ِا� ْي َﺳ� ُﯿ َﻌ ّ ِﺮﻓُنَﺎ َﻋ ْﻨ َﻚ َ� َر ِ ّب؟ َ َﳔ ُﺎف ﻟَ ْﻮ َﰷ َن � ِا� ْي ﯾُ َﻌ ّ ِﺮﻓُنَﺎ‬ �َ ‫ ﻓَ َﻜ ْي َﻒ ا ًذا ؟‬.‫َﻋ ْﻨ َﻚ ﻫ َُﻮ ِﰲ اﻟْ َﺤ ِﻘ ْي َﻘ ِﺔ ﻟَ ْﻢ ﯾ َ ْﻌ ِﺮ ْف َﻋ ْﻨ َﻚ َﺷيْئًﺎ‬ � �ُ ‫َا‬ Pengennya Engkau aja yang mengenalkan diri-Mu kepada kami... We want You introduce Yourself to us...

‫َﻣﺎ نُ ِﺮﯾْﺪُ اﻻ� �أﻧْ َﺖ � ِا�ي ﺗُ َﻌ ّ ِﺮﻓُنَﺎ َﻋ ْﻦ ﻧ َ ْﻔ ِﺴ َﻚ‬ �

Yaaa Allah, bisa apa aku selain berdoa kepada-Mu. Jika bicara, bicara apa? Jika kerja, kerja apa? Jika usaha, usaha apa. Jika nulis, nulis apa? Yaaa Allah, what else can I do, other then praying to You. If I talk, what would I talk about? If I work, what work? If I do business, what business? If I write, what would I write?

ُ ‫َالﻠ�ﻬُ �ﻢ ﻓَ َﻤﺎ َذا �أﻓْ َﻌ ُﻞ اﻻ� �أ ْن �أ ْد ُﻋ َﻮ َك ﻓَﺎ ْن �أ َ َﲢﺪ ْ�ث ﻓَ َﻌ ْﻦ َﻣﺎ َذا �أ َ َﲢ‬ ‫ﺪ�ث‬ � � � ْ َ ‫َو ا ْن �أ ْ َﲻ ْﻞ ﻓَأ� �ي‬ ‫ﳾ ٍء �أ ْ َﲻ ُ ُ� ا ْن �أ �ﲡ ِْﺮ ﻓَأ� �ي ِ َﲡ َﺎر ٍة أﻛ ِﺴ� ُﳢَﺎ َو ا ْن‬ ْ � � � � ْ ‫�أ ْﻛ ُﺘ ْﺐ ﻓَ َﻌ ْﻦ َﻣﺎ َذا َﺳأﻛ ُﺘ ُﺐ‬ Saya mah sering nanya kepada-Mu aja. Mau sering berbisik. Mau sering mengadu. Biar sering ditemenin. Biar dapeyt bimbingan dan pertolongan. Gapapa, Ya Robb? I still ask You a lot. I want to whisper often. I want to report to You often. So that You will acompany me often. So that I will get your guidence and your help. May I, ya Robb?

‫َﻣﺎ �أ ِرﯾْﺪُ اﻻ� �أ ْن �أ ْﺳأ� َ َ� َﻛ ِﺜ ْ ًﲑا َو �أ ْ ِﳘ َﺲ اﻟَ ْﯿ َﻚ َﻛ ِﺜ ْ ًﲑا َو �أ ْﺷ ُﻜ َﻮ‬ � � َ ْ ِ ِ َ �َ ‫ﻓَﻬَﺬا �َﻜﻔﻲ‬.‫ﴫ ِ ْﱐ‬ َ ُ ‫اﻟَ ْﯿ َﻚ َﻛﺜِ ْ ًﲑا َﺣ �ﱴ ﺗُﻼ ِز َﻣ ِ ْﲏ ﻓَ ُت َﻮﻓ ّ َﻘ ِ ْﲏ َو ﺗَ ْﻨ‬ � ‫َر ِ ّب‬ Allah dulu... Allah lagi... Allah terus... Allah first, Allah again, Allah all the time. ..

‫ َا ُ� دَاﺋِ ًﻤﺎ‬..‫ َا ُ� �َ ِﻟ ًﯿﺎ‬..‫َا ُ� �أ �و ًﻻ‬